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The Touch of Her Heart

Monday, June 01, 2009

As I stepped on the scale and saw the two pound increase I knew my mood over the week-end was to blame, impulse eating, mood eating, whatever the rhyme or reason, it was eating, eating, eating. Just plain too much eating, and probably the wrong choices at that.

Another relationship down the tubes. My problem was not attracting men, it was in liking them once I met them face-to-face. I wondered for about the millionth time if perhaps this was God's way of letting me know that I'd be alone the rest of my life. While it's true that I am an independent person, I actually "want" someone to be around me to pamper and love. And someone to love me. Lord, I don't want to be alone and lonely when I'm 80 or 90! I used to brag that I was going to live to be 100, but if I have to be alone all those years, I don't care if I even see 80!

I sat at my computer and opened my mail. A Spark Goodie, that cheered me a little. At least there was someone out there thinking of me at that very moment it had been sent. And as I went through a few more entries, Spark Mail. I read the message and sat with tears in my eyes. There are people out there who care. People I don't even know; and yet they take their very precious time and energy to write to me, to let me know they care and want me to be happy. I'm not sick. I'm not obese. I have a comfortable life. Instead of feeling so sorry for myself, I should take a little time to see all the good I have in my life. Thank You! For this morning you truly touched my heart with your heart, with your caring! Isn't that what life is really all about?

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DINY123 6/4/2009 5:32AM

    Since i have been here on SP- I no longer feel as alone as I used to - I know what you mean a goodie or an e-mail or a comment- it always cheers me up too!- YOU ARE appreciated!-Di

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IWILLBE145 6/3/2009 3:44PM

    You are so right, Eve ~ The men in our lives come and go - some people are lucky to have the same one for a lifetime, but our gal friends are the ones who are there when we need them! Hang in there, my friend. When you have a man in your life, share the happiness, when you don't, share your warmth with your friends that need you to be there for them. We all come into each others lives for different reasons, for a season or a year or a lifetime, and we all have lessons we learn from one another! I know how positive a person you are, and that you will take from this experience the best of what it was and move on! emoticon

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DUSTYSBUMMER 6/3/2009 12:57PM

    Isn't it heart-warming to experience the support from strangers on SparkPeople. Many days Ihave been cheered by comments from people I don't know and certainly never will meet. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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--KREN 6/1/2009 9:23PM

    You're right - Heart to Heart - that's what it's all about.

Eve, dear, you're MAHVELOUS!



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SKYEWATCHER 6/1/2009 5:57PM

    Glad to hear that you are feeling better.


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My Willpower Left When My Company Arrived

Friday, May 29, 2009

Boy! Talk about loss of willpower! That's an understatement of the year. . . . . My company arrived on Saturday and as it was very early morning when the plane departed, and of course meals are no longer served onboard -- naturally I suggested going out to breakfast/lunch or whatever it was to each of us. That wasn't too bad. Can't remember what I made for lunch, but when dinner time rolled around it was "No Way! You can't be cooking!" so it was restaurant time again. And it was wonderful, fattening Italian food. I climbed on the scale Sunday morning to see a whopping 2 pound gain! OMG!

The five days that I had company, it went pretty much as I described above. And naturally, like when you invite people over for dinner, you make dessert even if you normally skip dessert yourself -- you figure you need to make it for company! Brownies! Lemon Pie! Drinks! It all took it's toll, and I saw about 2 to 3 months of hard work going down the drain!

Was it their fault? No, of course not. It's just one of those hard to resist circumstances that happen when everyone is having fun and you don't want to be left out!

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DUSTYSBUMMER 5/31/2009 1:27PM

    Why do we do this to ourselves? We have the best of intentions, and out the window they go. So ... pick yourself up, dust yourself off, start all over again. (can you hear the tune?) It's over and done with and it doesn't help to beat yourself up over it. Just stay focused and you'll lose the weight again.

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--KREN 5/29/2009 4:30PM

    "My Willpower Left When My Company Arrived" - Hey, I know that line. In fact, I live that line, lol. And YES it is discouraging to lose it by tenths and gain it by tons. Feels that way, anyway. But I do believe that newly acquired weight comes off faster. ( I do believe it. I do believe it.) So drink lots and lots of water and get right back on the bandwagon, 'cause you know what? The band's still playin', LOL. You'll recover! - Karen

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MDMNINA 5/29/2009 11:45AM

    Oh, Honey! Can I ever relate! Some people are emotional eaters. I (and it sounds like you too) am a "social eater". I do so enjoy going out with friends. And my will power always just leaves me too. But take heart. What you gain quickly, can be lost quickly too! Just dust yourself off and climb right back up on that wagon!

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Cleaning my Refrigerator

Friday, May 22, 2009

The day started out normal enough. Company was arriving tomorrow and I wanted my house to look it's best. I washed bed linens, remade beds, vacuumed the carpet, dusted and then I got really brave and decided to clean out my refrigerator and freezer. Shelf by shelf it was getting sparkling clean and I was feeling proud of myself. I threw away things I knew wouldn't get eaten up and chose more efficient ways of displaying what I kept (more organized). It was looking good.

Of course the "snack drawer" came out to be organized as did the veggie and fruit drawers. Now I had one drawer all cleaned and straightened and I proceeded to put it back into it's slot. Wouldn't go. Hmmmmm! Eventually I took out the glass that formed the shelf over it, so I could see what I was doing. I tried several more times to no avail. Now I'm losing my temper! My cool is gone completely! I'm frustrated and in desperation I call a friend (yes, a man) and tell him of my dilemma -- he says he will be right over. Fine. Then I turn back to the drawer and realize my mistake. This was my "snack drawer" and I was trying to put it in the veggie drawer slot. I quickly called back my friend, apologized for being "stupid" and hung up. It fit just fine when I put it in the proper slot. But hey, I'll bet I worked off a bunch of calories trying to get it in there!

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DINY123 5/29/2009 1:57AM

    Hope you had a great visit- and that was funny- I could use with a good scrubbing too!- hummmmm....

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MDMNINA 5/24/2009 7:49PM

    You work off those calories any way you can!!

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Is It Getting Warm Yet?

Thursday, May 14, 2009

I got up and washed my face and brushed my teeth. I knew it would be warm out today, so I dressed in shorts. As I walked by my computer, it called to me, and I thought "well, I'll just see who's written, but I'll take my walk before I read them." And then...... only 30 minutes later, I fastened the leash on my dog's collar and opened the front door. The heat blasted me in the face like I had accidently opened the oven door instead of the door leading to the great outdoors.

Only slightly daunted, we started out on our journey. You could see the heat spiriling up from the pavement, and, as there was very little shade along the sidewalk, I wondered if it was too hot for my dogs paws. But she seemed happy enough, so we kept on walking. We were about a half mile from home when I began to feel drops of water on my back and realized that sweat was dripping off my hair and down my back. OK, so it was pretty warm out.

At last we come to the big grassy park and start across the lawn area. At least now I don't have to worry about my dogs feet, and I can tell she's a happy camper as she scurries around sniffing and checking everything out. Less than half a mile to go and we'll be home. We round the last corner to head home and Amber's tongue is hanging out; funny -- my mouth feels dry! Home at last. I grab a glass of ice water and Amber makes a dash for her water bowl. I look at the clock and see that it's only 6:30. Well, tomorrow we need to start earlier!

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DINY123 5/16/2009 2:21AM

    Such a cute puppy!- its been raining here- I hope you are not discouraged in your journey and may the shade find you!-Watch out for the heat- I took my dog out last year in August and her tongue turned bllue and was panting she had heat stroke!- Scared me to death!- 6:30 not early enough?- wow and that hot!- is it cooler in the evening?- have been toying with the idea of sending you some writing- though I am not too sure its good enough yet- have not forgotten abiut you- Write on!- Walk on and stay cool!- Diana

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It Really Adds Up...

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

Have you ever noticed with an old friend that when you don't see them for a long time, like 6 months or more, when you do see them, they look older, slimmer/fatter or whatever. But those people you see every day of your life, they tend to look about the same. I think the same is true of ourselves, we see ourselves 24/7 so we don't see the little changes taking place in our bodies. But the friend who hasn't seen us for 6 months or a year -- Wow!

I thought of that this morning as I was running my hands over my ribcage and stomach. "You have gotten smaller." It's been a long, slow process and although I knew I was losing a bit here and there, it didn't really have an impact until this morning. I've actually lost 14 or 15 lbs over the past 14 or 16 months, and when you look at it that way it's only a pound a month, and with me there is that constant yo-yo. Hey! Look at me, I'm getting better!

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SCOTTIEGIRL57 5/7/2009 9:02PM

    Congrats Scotmama!

I can't wait to feel that excitement too. Keep up the great work!

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