Sunday, February 14, 2010
You all know how hard it is to say goodbye. That first day of kindergarden as your little son or daughter climbs onto the bus and waves goodbye. Heartbreaking! Or as the happy college student waves goodbye as he/she is off to college. The house is empty and we feel a kind of emptiness too! Or saying goodbye to relatives when you go visit or when they stop by to see you. All those goodbye's are hard, difficult, teary eyed and slobbery! But after two years of being on Spark People I realize I am facing one of the hardest goodbye's I've ever had to do. I'm going to have to say goodbye to my "evening nibbling" or at the very least substitute healthier alternatives. That is -- if I hope to reach my goals, then surpass then, which I have every intention of doing -- then it's goodbye to the evening nibble time!
Ah, it was lovely and seemed so innocent, and we've gotten to be "such good friends." It would start off with an innocent cup of hot tea. But wouldn't a cookie taste good with the tea? Or those chocolate covered macadamia nut clusters are shouting for me to come taste one, they are soooooo satisfying! How about the glazed pecans still on hand from Christmas or the peanut butter ice cream in the freezer. No! No! I've got to put that stuff out of my mind!
I reach for the remote and turn on the TV. I think I'll watch Gray's Anatomy, I can become so deeply engrossed in that show I won't even think about food. But the commercial comes on and it shows this delightful sandwich of ham and cheese and as the person on TV sinks their teeth into it, you can almost taste it yourself, can't you? Or the pizza ads -- I haven't let myself order pizza for over a year! And there they are, all of them looking pretty darn slim too, just stuffing their faces with it. Next is someone ordering and 'eating' a hamburger that has as many calories as I allow myself in an entire DAY! This is all just inhumane -- so I take a small sip of my tea, and think; "compared to all that food that they're eating at least I could just take a handful of those new Nut Thin crackers I picked up.' And I go get a handful. But as the evening wears on the yearning in my tummy is still pestering me, water doesn't help, willpower already went to bed and won't talk to me, even my dog wags her tale as if to say "I'll help you eat it."
A couple of nuts go into my mouth, then maybe just one bite of the ice cream -- never take a dishful because then you have to admit that YOU ATE ICE CREAM! Snatches here and there don't count, do they? You open the refrigerator and scan quickly over your choices, hoping there is something healthy but desirable right in the front. Of course there never is, but we should never give up hoping, should we? Finally after one of this, two of that, and a good dollop of guilty conscience, you trot off to bed, wondering how bad the news will be when you step on the scale the next morning!
So finally, I have taken that first brave step toward ADMITTING TO MY ADDICTION! I am a night time nibbler. I have to give it up the same as I gave up soda's. They don't even tempt me any longer. I gave up red meat for all intents and purposes. It doesn't tempt me. I never eat chocolate (unless it's covering nuts or raisins) and pies -- when was the last time I EVER had a piece of pie? I think I had a little piece at Thanksgiving! I wonder if there is a 12-step program for night time nibblers? I'm addicted, I'm guilty, and it is the hardest thing in the world for me to say goodbye to all those lovely little things that kept me happy and content during those long evening hours. But with tears in my eyes, I know it is time to say goodbye and move on to fulfilling my goals.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
All there is to know about Eve (well, maybe not quite "everything") in alphabetical order:
A - AGUIRRE, my last name. Not really mine but my deceased husband's. My maiden name was Douglas, a nice Scottish name!
B - BOLD, yes, I'm right out there, kind of aggressive and outspoken.
C - CURIOUS and cunning, like a cat.
D - DARING, I'm the one who would volunteer to do things, and not hold back just because I had not ever done it before, or because maybe it had never been done before.
E - ENERGETIC and love it. I like to be on the move. Slowing down a little as I'm getting older, but not so much that I can't still enjoy life.
F - FUN. Life is never boring!
G - GOALS -- we need them to get anywhere. Couldn't do just one here as there is also: GENEROUS, share what you have and it comes back ten-fold
H - HONEST. The word speaks for itself
I - INTERESTING, the same way that life itself is interesting. A little crazy maybe, but I figure that's better than boring.
J - JAZZED -- well, I'm jazzed about my healthy lifestyle. It's something that's a keeper
K - KEEPER! Like I said above, my healthy lifestyle is a keeper! Will never allow myself to backslide.
L - LOVABLE AND LOVING! It's what life is all about
M - MEAT -- it doesn't happen too often, especially the red variety. I'm into chicken and fish.
N - NUTRITION is the base that a healthy lifestyle is build upon, the foundation!
O - OPPORTUNITY -- it's there, just open the door.
P - PLEASED, that's how I feel when I see lower numbers on my scale, when I can slip back into a smaller size, and when I see that image in the mirror.
Q - QUESTIONS? I'm full of them, and also love to answer them. My theory is this: if you do not ask the question, how can you get the answer!
R - RENEE' is my daughter, my proudest accomplishment. The apple didn't fall far from the tree.
S - SONS, I have two of them. Neither of them see me as someone important in their lives.
T - TERRIFIC -- that's how I choose to feel. We all have choices!
U - UNIQUE! Yes I am, but so are you. It's one of the best things about us, our individuality, the traits that make us special. Don't ever try to make yourself into someone else.
V - VICTORY! All it takes are a few goals and the willpower to carry them out. We can all change our lives, the choice is up to us.
W - WILLINGLY enter into the race, the endeavor, the project, whatever name you have for it. Do it for "yourself" never for someone else.
X - X out all the things you don't want in your life, and put in their place the new healthy habits and put the information to work that you've learned. You'll be a better person for it.
Y - YOURSELF -- do it for YOU!
Z - ZEST! Fill your life with it, make enthusiasm part of your vocabulary!
Hugs to all my friends! Eve
Tuesday, February 09, 2010
OK, looking at that little gal, I'm not sure if she's an angel or the devil (she is kind of mean!) but you do know that we all have that little voice inside our head telling us about it when we start making excuses why we "just can't do something" and it generally involves one of our goals and the steps that are necessary to "make it happen!"
I did great in my first week, in fact I exceeded my goals -- all except for one! That one was to go to the gym! I only asked myself to go ONE TIME, how hard could that be. But I distinctly remember leaving the Library and thinking "I could go to the gym now." But those little excuses started to form. I'm so tired, my back is starting to hurt, and I'm hungry. Hmmmm! And did you go to the gym? NO! You did not. So even though you came through with flying colors on everything else, where did you end up? You ate protein for breakfast -- GOOD! And instead of doing it 4 days, you did it the entire 7! You walked 10-15 minutes, you wrote in your journal. Yes! And you did all those things every day! I'm proud of you for that. But did you take notice of your weight. It went up, then down, down a little more, then the last two days it crept up to just 0.2 heavier than what you started at. Your inches were OK, but I'll bet if you'd gotten that gym day in the weight might have been less instead of more!
So now we're on Week 2! You've upped your goals just a bit. Now you expect to walk 15-20 minutes, and you've added a couple more exercises. That's great. You did a good job writing all that down, honey -- now it would make me real proud if you'd just DO THEM! Sure it takes effort, sure it takes time -- but those pounds didn't just fly onto your body from the person sitting next to you, now did they? You know how they got there, and it's going to take some work to get them off. Don't get lazy after all the progress you've made, you've come so far, don't backslide on me now. I'm starting to get used to wearing smaller clothes, I'm even used to not stuffing myself with ice cream way too often.
Remember, darlin' "nothing feels as good as being slim looks." OK, give me that journal, where are my tennis shoes -- I'm on it!!!
Tuesday, February 02, 2010
Yes! I have either cast a spell or it's just Lady Luck smiling down on me...... whatever the reason, I feel blessed. For four (4) days in a row I have gotten "20" on the spin! Is that unbelievable, or what?
It kind of makes you stop and think that all of us have many things we could be thankful for that we just seem to take for granted. As an example, I was reading a motivational message this morning about a man that passed by a man sitting near a building asking for handouts. As he passed by the beggar said, "Do you have any spare money?" and the man thought to himself "spare money?" -- who in today's age has any spare money? But then he reflected more fully on all the goodness that he had in his life. A nice home, a family, plenty to eat, and a nice car to drive. While he did not have "spare money" he did have money he could spare and with that thought he slipped a few dollars into the man's hand. As he did so he thanked him for the opportunity to count his blessings!
So while many of us do not have spare money, we probably do have some that we could spare. It's like lending a helping hand to friends, or smiling at the stranger, or holding the door open for the person coming up behind you. If we all did one or two kindnesses a day we'd have a happier world, and we would reap the benefits ourselves ten-fold. It has been scientifically proven to give you medical benefits when you do small kindnesses toward another person!
So hugs to you all, and smiles galore! Eve
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