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New Year's non-resolution

Sunday, January 01, 2012

Someone, I forget now who it was (that's last night's dirty martinis talking), said that instead of a list of "resolutions", she had learned to take a yearly theme instead. I like that. I'm no good with rules and regulations, even if I make them myself (that's why my Tumblr and livejournal both are named "mumsananarchist", courtesy of the daughter who answered that way when asked whether her parents were Democrats or Republicans.) So I spent most of yesterday in silence - not difficult, since I broke the tv - and decided that my theme this year was to be (insert drum roll here) FEARLESSNESS.

I forget, once again, who said that there are only two emotional states - love and fear. I started rolling through lots of the events of the last couple years, and realized that most of my reactions had to do with fear: fear of being alone, fear of being penniless, fear of failure, fear of success, fear of new things, fear of loss, fear of hard work, fear of looking silly, fear of change in general. Many of these fears were masquerading as sensible things - I mean, who wants to fail, lose their investment and look like an idiot? - but at base, they were still fears.

If we're not acting out of love, we're acting out of fear. If I try to tie my daughters, both in their 20s, to me, that isn't love, that's fear of loss. If I refuse to spring for some new art supplies, or make some changes to my house, that's not love of the way things are, that's fear of penury or of trying something new. If I don't work at the novel or the Other Book, that isn't because I'm busy, that's because I'm afraid to invest the time in something that may not work out (another fear.)

So this year, I refuse to be afraid. If something doesn't kill me...well, Friedrich, it may not make me stronger, but it will make me wiser. And braver in the future. I joined a team that centers on doing an hour of exercise per day, based on some Irish legend. I don't have any Irish blood in me that I know of, but I have lots of Highland Scots, and that sort of challenge appeals to me.

I've been leery of quitting the evening alcoholic beverages - what if I can't sleep? Well, then the next day I'll be tired, but I imagine I'll survive just fine.

What if the book flops? At least it made it into print - even if I have to print it myself.

What if following what I truly enjoy doing leads me into (another) bankruptcy? Well, the first one didn't do me any harm - in fact, I learned things from it I would never have known otherwise. Meanwhile, I've been having fun.

There's nothing and no one holding me where I am now, in terms of employment (got none, lol), family (ditto, at least within 400 miles) or any other yardstick I can think of. I may be 56 and significantly overweight, but I can lose the weight ( I can't get any younger, but I can feel and maybe look younger), get my physical strength back, and find new passions (arts, my friends, not men) to pursue. Hell, I suppose it's not totally outside the realm of possibility to marry again - I suppose I shouldn't rule it out. I've only ever traveled north and south (PEI to Key West), but there's no reason why I can't go west. Or east, although that gets wet fairly soon.

A quick Rumi quote:

FORGET SAFETY.

LIVE WHERE YOU FEAR TO LIVE.

DESTROY YOUR REPUTATION.

BE NOTORIOUS.


Wise words.

So that's the plan for 2012. And if I show any signs of fear, any Fraidy-cat bull!@#$, I expect you, my friends, to call me on it.

Best wishes for the best year of our lives!

  
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EMRANA 1/1/2012 7:29PM

  YES!

Love it!

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REDWRITINGHOOD 1/1/2012 6:57PM

    I LOVE this! As your friend, I will do my best to call you out if I see any fraidy cat in you. Please do it for me, too!

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APPLEPIEAPPLE 1/1/2012 6:37PM

    Be fearless. I like it!

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SLIMMERJESSE 1/1/2012 6:25PM

    I love this blog and will be back to read it a few times. You've covered some great topics here.

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Oh, Mayans.....(now with Y2K commentary! :) )

Friday, December 30, 2011

So, as I understand it, this will be our last New Year's. Apparently the Mayans, who had a sort of cyclical calender, didn't go beyond next Winter Solstice, and so we conclude from this that the world will end next December 21st.

Let me point out that if there's New Age hooey to be bought, I'm first in line. I absolutely, positively believe (and have experienced) lots of "impossible" or "unrealistic" things and have no problem with shifting paradigms. But this one has me shaking mah head.

I'm not criticizing the Mayans. They did pretty well for themselves, and their influence is still felt in neighboring cultures, as well as having the only (I think I'm remembering this correctly) fully articulated written language in the Pre-Columbian Americas . They weren't knocked out by the conquistadors - in fact, they're still around, although spread throughout nearby areas. I'm sure they knew what they were doing with their calender - it's our own interpretation of it that I doubt.

There's a Mayan specialist at Colgate University (quite nearby to me) and he insists that we've got it wrong - it's not the end of the world, just the end of a cycle, and that that doesn't necessarily mean anything huge or disastrous at all. Maybe it's due to all the years (and years and years) I spent in academia, but I'm inclined to believe him over Llewellyn authors who have doomsday books to sell.

What fascinates me about all this isn't whether the world will end or not - I mean, what can you do one way or the other? - but how people will react to the predictions. Will there be all kinds of Stuff purchased with a "no payments until 2013!!" guarantee (enjoy now - be dead before the payments come due!) or will people stop buying altogether, gathering their resources in survivalist strongholds?

Should we bother to decorate for Christmas? Should we buy as usual and just celebrate early? Should we pull all of our money out of the stock market and buy Stuff to play with this year, since next year (and thus stock dividends and the opportunity to enjoy them) won't be happening?

As far as I'm concerned, these are the interesting questions. I think there was a movie out a few years back about all this, but I somehow missed it *cough*

I guess we'll just have to wait and see what happens. Isn't this more fun anyway?


AND ABOUT THAT Y2K MESS.....

Funny, I always felt partly responsible for Y2K. I was in grad school in the information science department in the late 1970s, working on computer languages, and I remember a few of the coding guys noticing that they hadn't put in a provision for the century to change.

In those days we were just getting away from keypunches and it was a big deal to go back and change something, so like the people who have their corpses frozen in the hopes that future generations will know how to thaw and cure them, we just said, "Oh well - they'll be able to handle it then." And then I guess we forgot about it.

But the future generation *did* notice and figure it out in time, so the crash of the banking system and the stock market and all the other dreadful things never came pass. They just dragged us geezers back and made us fix things in languages mostly no longer used - things like COBOL (mine was SNOBOL) and FORTRAN 4 and other computer Sanskrits.

So it all worked out in the end, and there was no computer-generated Apocalypse.

As Gilda said, "It's always somethin'. "

  
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HIPPICHICK1 12/31/2011 2:12PM

    emoticon When the moon is in the 7th house and Jupiter aligns with Mars then peace will guide the planets and love will steer the stars! This is the dawning of the age of Aquarius, AquarEEEEEE USSSS!!! Aquareeeeeeusssssssssss! emoticon

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APPLEPIEAPPLE 12/31/2011 10:22AM

    I also agree it is just an end to a cycle. Perhaps a new dawn instead of gloom? It is our future and only we can affect it. Being an optimist I always see the world through a rosier lens. It might not always be accurate but it always contains hope. And because of it--I am happier. emoticon

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FLORIDASUN 12/31/2011 8:36AM

    Yep...so here's my take on it! It's HIGH time for this world to go through a new cycle and I'm supporting the change for sure, for sure! I'm hoping that we are totally fed up with the money~mongers who run this world...for their OWN pleasure...I might add...and just keep on keepin' on holding their stinky feet to the fire! Then...I hope they have to walk through it for the outrageous greed they have gotten away with!

I think if anyone will bring a change to things it's our young adults. They have the guts and the energy to rail against the machine. Quite frankly if I wasn't so darn busy just trying to eek out my own livelihood...I'd be right there with them. Camping out on Wall Street, rising up against the inequality in a nation that has lost it's way...as...the land of the free...the home of the brave!

Andddd...if the Mayans happen to have it right and the world comes to an abrupt and sudden halt..I have no fear that we will somehow survive that too..maybe in the spiritual form we might have the chance to FINALLY get it right!

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Happy New Year my sweet sparkling friend...I likey the way you think! emoticon emoticon

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CEKER9 12/31/2011 2:10AM

    I'm with the Mayan specialist at Colgate University... it is the end of a cycle, not the end of the world. We may not notice it except in years to come as the end of an era by looking back to see the turning point. There are always people out there trying to scare us... it sells and some people are always greedy enough to take advantage of people open enough to fall for it.

I will say that I'm a new ager and the majority of us believe in the end of the cycle not the end of the world. I look forward to next year at this time to see what happens... just like the 2 times this year when the Fundamentalist said that the end was here... and here we are without a blip. Makes great people watching!!!

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REDWRITINGHOOD 12/31/2011 2:03AM

    I tend to agree with the Mayan specialist at Colgate University. However, I do worry about all the crackpots out there and what they will end up doing. The end is supposed to be on my mom's b-day, so we plan on having a big party and spending the night there. That way we are together if it really is the end. If it isn't, then we had a good time and we will go home the next day. Either way it's all good.

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PUDLECRAZY 12/31/2011 12:30AM

    Happy new year! Enjoy, enjoy, enjoy. It is also the Year of the Dragon... let's ride it!

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SUZYMOBILE 12/30/2011 9:19PM

    I wouldn't doubt that there's something big coming in 2012. The economy is hanging by a gossamer thread--if that. The only viable candidate is Ron Paul (oops, I got all political emoticon!)

I myself am being drawn in many different spiritual directions that seem to be good for me--and of course what's happening to ME is the most important measure of all.

Perhaps the Mayans have it right, but I don't believe it will be a geooastronomical cataclysm. Aren't we due for the Age of Aquarius any minute now?

I think I'll move to Key West and live in a shack.

P.S. The Mayans were a millennium behind China in developing any kind of civilization. The Chinese developed gunpowder. Hmmm.

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BETHGILLIGAN 12/30/2011 6:44PM

    This will be an interesting year, seeing how this plays out.

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SLIMMERJESSE 12/30/2011 6:23PM

    There's always something. Remember the big Y2K buzz as we entered the 2000's? And the Mayans contributed several things, but they also did major human sacrifices. Yet, we attribute credibility to them in knowing when the world will end? You know, if it does, I have no regrets and have lived an intense life. (smiling)

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I want this: (funny)

Thursday, December 29, 2011

  
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IMREITE 1/2/2012 12:16AM

    even crazy cat ladies can be organized.

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HIPPICHICK1 12/31/2011 2:06PM

    LOVE!!

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FLORIDASUN 12/31/2011 8:43AM

    emoticonsmirk...DONE...it's on my wish list! I always told the hubs...I could SO easily become a CRAZY cat lady...that I could. I only have our big brown fur ball boy Keanu...but I keep telling hubby how VERY lonely he is! emoticon emoticonhe's not buying it... emoticon

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REDWRITINGHOOD 12/31/2011 2:04AM

    LMBO! That is too funny.

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PUDLECRAZY 12/31/2011 12:36AM

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GEEKSMEGGLY 12/30/2011 12:25AM

    My cats would love it!

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SUZYMOBILE 12/29/2011 7:42PM

    My question is: Why do they like it so darn much? Is the rest of their environment so miserable that those boxes are a place of peace? Uh oh. I'm getting too analytical.

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TRULYVISIBLE 12/29/2011 5:38PM

  Funny! A different cat to sit on your lap every day of the week. Sounds good to me.

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EMRANA 12/29/2011 5:20PM

  Me too! emoticon

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CEKER9 12/29/2011 5:08PM

    I don't have quite so many cats, but that looks like it would work fine!!! Great Idea!!!

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SCOOTER4263 12/29/2011 2:31PM

    Hmmm....both?

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AMYNYNJ 12/29/2011 2:20PM

    emoticon lol! Love!
I guess now you have to decide if it's a want or a need.


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Some thoughts on the impending New Year (warning: long, rambling)

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Every year, I make all sorts of RESOLUTIONS and by mid-January have bailed on most of them. I think the deal is that instead of planning small changes that will build up to what I want, I basically say, "Tomorrow I'll get up and BE SOMEONE ELSE ENTIRELY!!! :D :D :D " and it hasn't worked yet. By the end of the month - and frequently the day - I'm the same old me.

Another thought - and if I mentioned this before, please forgive me for repeating - is that after three years of having people I thought would live, die and money I thought I had, vanish and houses I thought would be valuable, sell for 1/3 their prior assessment, I have a sort of learned helplessness. When bad things happen, even if I could do something relatively simple about them such as calling a plumber, I just shrug and think, "Oh well, there goes the hot water." I haven't had more than warm water since about June - I believe we need some sort of filter. The water is too cold for the dishwasher, so I boil water on the stove for rinsing after hand washing. It's just like camping! Only....I just put in a new kitchen four years ago....and it had a dishwasher, instant hot water from a teeny little extra faucet, lots of hot water, a faucet that switched from stream to spray with a toggle switch, and a hand-soap pump on the sink. Now they're all kaput and I just roll with it. This doesn't even make sense to *me*, and I'm pretty flexible.

So instead of a bunch of resolutions I know I'll never carry out, I'm just going to make some suggestions to myself that might make life a little easier:

- water problems? Call a plumber.
- weight problems? Think about what you eat and move about a bit. If I don't want to eat something, I probably shouldn't buy it at the store.
- exercise issues? Just do it. Seriously - just put in a tape and do it. Lock the dog in the other room if she feels she must participate.
- no money? Maybe look for a job. (?!)
- house looks like a tornado hit it?? Put a couple things away or work steadily for half an hour here and there, instead of planning these marathon cleaning sessions that exhaust and overwhelm.
- can't get dressed because nothing fits? Buy some clothing. Ditch the old stuff. Realize that you can't bring back the past simply by dressing the part.
- overtired? Take a nap - the world won't come to an end and I won't die
- need to make some kind of decisions? Make lists. Read a book on the subject. Talk to people. Don't just sit and fret.

That sort of thing. The sort of actions that probably come naturally to lots of people. I think they even used to come naturally to me.

The second problem is that, when I do sit down and make a list of all the things I need to accomplish in a day to meet my goals (work on writing, exercise, maybe see a therapist, meditate, plan meals, clean, buy cat food, work outside, walk outside, tile the sunroom, don't forget to relax!, etcetcetcetc) and try to fit it - as recommended by so many organizational people - in my day planner on the little hour lines, I realize that I can get it all done only if I give up sleeping altogether (and that destroys resolve #37, which was to get a minimum of eight hours sleep [but a maximum of nine]). Oops! Forgot to schedule in "give back to the community." Wait! Forgot to schedule cooking and eating. See what I mean? Yeesh. No wonder I just give up and decide to keep up with the Kardashians from the safety of the sofa instead.

So this year, instead of planning all these drastic changes and/or assuming (on some sub-conscious level, I guess) that I have no control over anything anyway, I'm just going to try to do a little bit better. (Somebody gag Yoda before he says that thing about, "There is no 'try', only 'do' or 'not do'") I won't nag at myself because I almost never drink the eight glasses of water per day - I'll just have a small glass now and again when I'm in the kitchen. I won't insist that I have to do yoga *and* cardio *and* strength train every day or else do nothing - I'll give a shot at just getting one done.

Let's think a little about good ol' King Lear:

No, I will weep no more. In such a night
To shut me out? Pour on; I will endure.
In such a night as this? O Regan, Goneril!
Your old kind father, whose frank heart gave alló
O, that way madness lies; let me shun that;
No more of that.

if I read (and recall) Shakespeare correctly, he's just spent an entire Act obsessing over the crimes of his daughters, and he is now out of the house in a howling storm. He's still insisting that he can bear anything, that the gods (he'd spoken to them earlier, asking for this and that, and had never received answers) and his ungrateful daughters can hurl at him what they may - he'll endure. It's a weird form of self-pity, and just as he starts to think about it, he bails on the sentence because he knows darn well he doesn't have a frank heart and never gave all; to think about such a thing, to search the Self in that manner, is the way to madness.

But it's the rational Lear that is really mad - the one that thinks that he has everything, can control everything. As he sinks deeper into madness, we see him lighten up a little and begin to think entirely differently: by the time he is entirely without reason, his new reasoning becomes simpler and a lot more full of freedom.

(Okay, I'm stretching a metaphor here and those of you who know Shakespeare are shouting about how there's a lot more to it than that, and I agree. Just go with it, okay?)

My point is simply that it's time to stop thinking of myself as a victim of circumstance on the one hand, and as someone who can control every detail of every day on the other. Like Lear in his madness, maybe I can use a little creativity and freedom actually to build a decent life instead of dwelling incessantly upon the old one and my misconceptions, misfortunes, and failures - both real and imagined - in it. Face facts, be creative about solutions, be flexible about outcomes, be free.

And isn't that what the whole New Year's deal is, after all? The freedom to create a new future, unburdened by the past.

  
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HIPPICHICK1 12/31/2011 1:58PM

    No one can do it all nor can they do it in any given 16 hour period (leaving 8 for sleeping of course).
It's already 2pm and all I have done today is eat two meals and a snack, gone for an hour walk in the deep snow and logged my food and fitness minutes and shared a half dozens funny things on Facebook.
Next I'm going to vacuum the house and then get ready for the party tonight, but honestly, if I had to fit one more thing into the day, it just wouldn't happen...or it would and we'd be later getting to the party. My point is simply that no one can do it all...ever. So that is the first thing that had to change for me - the way I look at accomplishments. Also the way we think about time is a little odd as well. We often plan, plan, plan for the future but forget to live in the present.
Glad to hear that you are ready to "stop thinking of (yourself) as a victim of circumstance." Sometimes we are and sometimes we create the circumstance we are in.
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FLORIDASUN 12/31/2011 9:06AM

    Yep...I'm SO done with 2011...the fight to save our home has really beat the stuffing out of me! I have done more work on that SINGLE project than 5 books I could have published by now. But we are who we are..and I'm not one to lay down and play dead whilst the greedy bankers walk over my dead..or semi dead body.

Sigh...it's SO true...what doesn't kill us does make us stronger. We too will most likely have to face bankruptcy..and you know what...it doesn't phase me.

What I would have thought of one time as a cardinal sin..now looks like a tool that so many others...Donald Trump comes immediately to mind have used endlessly to advance their own position in the world.

Hey...if it worked for them...it can work for the hubs and I too right?

The important thing is do what you can with what you have and LOVE yourself and your spunk in the process.

If our goal in life is to please everyone then we have no life at all...it is merely a compilation of choices made for us by someone else...anoymous

I LOVE that saying and think of it frequently...especially when our close circle of wealthy friends look down their pointy little noses in judgement that we are living in a house that they don't think we should be in.

Judge not...we know many of their dirty little secrets that brought them to the financial pedestal that they perch upon today...and believe me...we are in no way doing anything different then what they have done to advance their own business interests along their moneyed career ....so THERE!

I get SO very annoyed.. with who the kettle is calling black..SO annoyed... and of course I have to say exactly that...a friend doesn't judge a friend...anything can change for anyone...in a micro~second...they don't appreciate hearing that...but it's darn true!

Hang in there dear friend...write your projects in bite sized pieces and do a little something every day..you'll get through it...yes you will and I'll be cheering you on every step of the way! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TIME4CARRI 12/30/2011 7:02PM

    This is a srtuggle for so many of us, "all or nothing". It is such a trap and I, like you find I as I get older that "nothing" usually wins nowdays. Good for you for knowing that both extremes don't serve you and for making decisions about one thing at a time count. Years ago someone made the suggestion to not pick a resolution for the new year but a single word or phrase to live by like "health" or "be happy with my efforts" etc. I did that once and it helped.

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_UMAMI_ 12/29/2011 11:13PM

    Ohhhhhhhhh.....this resonates with me in particular now, because everything broke this year. Except my spirit. I think. Not sure about my sanity.

I need to come back and re-read this when I'm not so tired, but
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Now I need to get back to washing those dishes in my bathtub....

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SLIMMERJESSE 12/29/2011 7:56PM

    Great blog. These topics are so familiar to me that it made me smile to read some of myself in here. Take it slow. You'll do fine with baby steps. Happy New Year.

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SUZYMOBILE 12/29/2011 7:51PM

    One of your great strengths is insightfulness, I think. You see that you've got way too many desirable goals, then you beat yourself up for not accomplishing all of them. Then you forgive yourself, which is always a very good thing. Well, that's all part of life, isn't it? Going from day to day, up and down, observing what you're doing and trying to understand it, and maybe incrementally growing over time. You are not who you were a year ago, nor are you who you will be a year from now. Isn't that amazing?

I fear that I'm not making sense, but rambling is okay, too, of course.

Happy New Year, my dear friend! Here's to better us in the coming year!

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BETHGILLIGAN 12/29/2011 7:22PM

    I think you have hit the nail on the head!! You seem to expect a lot of yourself--take smaller bites for one thing. And, your suggestions to yourself make so much sense. I would bet you used to do that automatically. You have had some traumatic events and maybe you need to learn to be a grown up again. You are one of the strongest women I have ever "met". You have been throught so much but stay so positive (for the most part!) and continue to come back and keep going. I know you can do this--I admire you for what you have already come through.

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EMRANA 12/29/2011 7:06PM

  I love the way you write ~ your blogs are so pleasurable to read! Even when you talk about serious things, you put in things like "gag Yoda" that are funny!

I especially love this ~ "can't get dressed because nothing fits? Buy some clothing. Ditch the old stuff. Realize that you can't bring back the past simply by dressing the part. "

How many of us do that? I realized early this year that my preferences and styles had changed, so it was no wonder I was bored with my closet.

Happy New Year, wise woman!

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CEKER9 12/29/2011 5:07PM

    You got it... I think you got it! Just keep the attitude up and you will win the day... and the year!!!

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APPLEPIEAPPLE 12/29/2011 1:43PM

    I have felt a bit like you now and then. What I realized is I was always trying to control the things I could not. I also established way too many goals so I was dooming my self to failure. I would first focus on what makes you happy. Then select one goal for the new year. I was also hit with losing husband and big loss in the market. So I can sympathize.

Two years ago I was very depressed. So I focused on doing those things which made me happy. I began to write down all the things I had to be thankful for every day. Slowly I began to feel joy again. After the havoc of 2008=09 I made my financial goal to pay of my house ASAP. It was the last debt I had but would kill me if I stayed paying it off for another 20 years. So I made a plan to withdraw from my IRA a portion of the house debt as to not have to pay too high a tax rate from the withdrawals. This January I make my last withdrawal and pay it off. Good thing since I lost my job in August. But at least I am better prepared than what I would have been. Now this is an example of what I have done. It may not be right for you--but I hope my solution will help you find yours.

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Colonoscopy (aka butt cam) results are in

Wednesday, December 07, 2011

and I'm fine, as I had expected.

See, my Dad died of colorectal cancer, so when the doctor told me I should have a colonoscopy at age 40 (sixteen years ago), I did. The experience was pretty unpleasant but I was totally clear so they told me to go home and come back in ten years.

Ten years came and went. I told myself all sorts of things I knew were lies even as I was saying them: "I'll get it done as soon as X" where X is anything that isn't happening immediately. I managed to put it off for another six years before I finally got the "perfect storm" of health insurance, a ride to and from the hospital, and the mindset to prod myself into doing it. I scheduled it, and once you do that, you have to follow through because the paperwork and scheduling is a big deal for all involved.

Revelation: much has changed in the last sixteen years! One no longer has to chug a gallon of vile stuff while sprinting to and from the bathroom - I cleared out my colon with OTC products and the 68 oz beverage of my choice (for me, Lipton Citrus Iced Tea.) The anaesthetic was a breeze (although the last time I was awake enough to watch on the video as they scoped, which was kinda cool.) One minute I was there and the next I was done, and it wore off very quickly.

They'd removed two polyps, one quite large. The doctor said he doubted very much that either was cancerous, but you never really know until you get the labs back, which I did today. I have to get another colonoscopy (known in younger circles as "butt cam") in a year, but I don't even dread it this time. I know it'll be no problem.

So don't let your fears and/or embarrassment get in the way of getting this test done, even if you don't have a family history. It honest-to-God is not a big deal. As a friend of mine once remarked, "You think you're so special, but to the doctor you're just another a$$hole." Truer words were never spoken.

Now do it!

  
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PUDLECRAZY 12/31/2011 12:34AM

    I'm glad you just got it done and that good results came back after checking the polyps. Mine was done 5 years ago and it was very different from when my husband had it done. More like you describe. At any rate, colonoscopy is the easy part, the prep the least fun part of it. At least it isn't like your first one any more.



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SLIMMERKIWI 12/9/2011 1:12AM

    I love your humour on this subject :-) I have watched this procedure being done a few times on others, including my then 9yr old daughter. I found it very interesting. The same with the other end. I'm glad that you bit the bullet and got it re-done because I BET there was a bit of a niggle at the back of your mind all that time. NOW you can relax a little more :-)

Kris xx

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REDWRITINGHOOD 12/8/2011 11:45AM

    I'm good to go for a few years :) Sounds like you had... fun? Okay, maybe just not a terrible time, lol. So glad to see you blogging again!

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CMBELISLE 12/8/2011 11:43AM

    I had my first one done 3 years ago at the age of 43 because my Dad had been diagnosed with Colon cancer. My dad died in 2010 after a LONG battle with prostate and colon cancer that progressed into his bones. I did not hesitate long to have my follow-up scan done this year as per doctor's orders. They found polyps last time which is why it was so soon, but not this time, so I don't have to go back for 5 more years. Yay! Whereas you took OTC meds, I still had to do the whole drinking of the nasty stuff and supplement my food with Gatorade, Powerade, Jell-o and hard candy.

Congrats on your results!

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EMRANA 12/7/2011 4:54PM

  Good to hear that it's a lot easier now ~ and even better that your test was normal! WOOT!

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MORTICIAADDAMS 12/7/2011 4:25PM

    LOL. I love ya, GF. It is a lot easier now and I'm glad you got it done.

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APPLEPIEAPPLE 12/7/2011 12:36PM

    Wonderful that your test is good. I have mine done every 5 years per doctor.

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HIPPICHICK1 12/7/2011 11:39AM

    Yay for clear test results!!
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I'm turning 51 soon and will probably be scheduled for one when I have my next physical. Thanks for the update on how they "do it."


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TRULYVISIBLE 12/7/2011 11:08AM

  Thanks for the reminder that I am due again. Glad to hear they improved the preparation which is the worst part of the procedure. Glad it all came out well for you in the END.

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BETHGILLIGAN 12/7/2011 7:28AM

    YAY! for the good results! I just hated the prep but, in retrospect it wasn't THAT awful. I was clear, too!

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REBECCAMA 12/7/2011 7:19AM

  Glad you are okay.

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_UMAMI_ 12/7/2011 7:01AM

    Darn, I thought there'd be photos.

I'm glad you are ok, and thank you for the sage advice. Haven't done it yet (I'm 46), but it's on the horizon for my DH (50).
Nice to know that it needn't be DREADED.

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AWESOMECAROL55 12/7/2011 6:46AM

    OMG..I need your doctor!! I had a colonoscopy a week ago Monday & I had to drink a gallon of crappy tasting nuclear laxative. My stomach was sick for days! The results were good (normal). Glad yours came out good too..prevention is important!

Carol

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SUZYMOBILE 12/7/2011 6:36AM

    Been there, done that. I forget when I'm gonna have to go back. But I'm glad that YOU'RE just fine!

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SLIMLILA 12/7/2011 12:57AM

    Ain't that the truth... you're just another a$$hole to a dr... I guess it's the same when you go for a bra-fitting too!!

I was in hospital with what I diagnosed myself as that condition you get from using tampons, (but it's been so long since I needed them, I can't remember what it was) , but they wouldn't believe me, but they did the colonscopy while I was there, so I didn't have enough time to get stressed about it.
I even went and did the "pooH' test this year too after losing a friend last Jan. to colon cancer... Glad it wasn't as bad as you had anticipated, but better yet, that they did what needed doing and you're fine....

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JUST_BREATHE08 12/7/2011 12:28AM

    emoticonNews. All's well that ENDS well. emoticon

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