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Monday, June 09, 2014

Ups and then many downs and all the weight I lost last year has come back which makes it harder to reach the ups again. My health has not been stable which is the large factor because the weight-increasing medicines, the extreme fatigue and overall sleepiness, and the lack of interest and care for anything have all made it so much harder to accomplish even the smallest tasks. I'm doing a little better, at least today, and am going to try to reboot little things in my routine. I'm also going to try to work harder to not stress without adding stress about being stressed. (Stupid cycles)
But anyway, that's my update on things at the moment without going into too much detail.

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Let Down

Tuesday, August 06, 2013

Yesterday when I blogged I was positive and upbeat. The day went well until the very end. I don't know what went wrong, but I was suddenly very stressed and upset. I didn't want to do anything but curl in bed and cry. I didn't know what to cook because I didn't feel like cooking. I figured I would just make some chocolate milk which of course isn't healthy. I didn't want to get up and out even though I logically know exercise can improve emotional states for people. I ended up feeling so let down. Let down by myself, by life, by everything ever and that nothing was ever going to be okay again. I felt like it was all worthless and that I might as well throw in the flag.

I'm here now. I didn't throw in the flag. I still feel really upset, but I'm trying to not let myself down as much today. I made some tabbouleh although I think my lemon juice was bad because it tastes horrible (usually it's very yummy). But at least I made something to bring to work to eat rather than letting myself give in and buying whatever unhealthy meal special they have at work today. It's not much, but I'm trying.

Even that little bit counts, doesn't it?

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MOTHEPRO 8/7/2013 10:06AM

    Yes, every little bit counts. Good for you for not giving in!

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JENB145 8/7/2013 7:24AM

    Never let one moment or even one day define you. You can do this, you just have to keep plugging away and revel in the small victories. In time you will see monumental changes. It all counts!!!

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My own "back on track"

Monday, August 05, 2013

So I've gained some weight back (not eating as well and I haven't been exercising like I was), but I'm not going to let that stop me. I admit, I still want to indulge a little at the fair if I go back this week (before it ends). I want to enjoy some things that are only available once a year, but I realize I need to double my efforts in other areas to compensate.
My sleep challenge fell a bit to the wayside after a medication change, but I'm back on that track too. I'm feeling confident at the moment that I will be able to finish the challenge and that I won't some setback keep me from reaching my goals.
I'm ready to push myself harder to get healthy and loose more weight too. I'm nervous that my current confidence will fail, but I know I have to not worry about that if I want to keep moving forward.
One big thing will be to get up when my darling cat wakes me super early for her breakfast. She won't get it before the scheduled time, but I can try to stay up and use the time to get things done. emoticon


Worry and sleep

Thursday, July 11, 2013

So I joined the "Better Sleep Challenge" yesterday. I used to have a great sleep schedule and did as well as I could given the things I could control. After having little sleep for a few days and running on fumes, then crashing and oversleeping, hoping the crash would happen on the weekend (which it doesn't happen always like this morning I crashed some - late to work by 45 minutes). I saw this challenge and figured "why not try?" I feel a bit dumb to go through the motions of things I already know, but I'm trying not think out that part. I'm horrible at forums so I'm worried about that. Right now though, I'm taking it one step at a time.

Summary of Sleep Journal: I worry about too much as I go to bed and reflect on the day. I can't turn my mind off. One thing though is that I can make checklists of things I spend tons of time doing before I even get to the bed, like checking locks and such. Then I'll have fewer things to worry about...maybe. emoticon

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IMREITE 7/12/2013 12:49AM

    i dont sleep enough at night. I normally sleep less then 6 hours. i forgot to set my alarm and sleeping in an extra hour made my body feel great. i slim in on weekends. i ma have to retry that sleep challenge so i can try to reset my body clock.

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POUTINGPEGGY 7/11/2013 6:30PM

    My big problem is sleep and the lack of it so I really understand. I have no strategies because sometimes one thing works and then it doesn't. I must start to join in the forum on this. Hope you sleep tonight.

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JAMBABY0 7/11/2013 6:15PM

    I have the same problem it just won't turn off, worry, worry, worry that's me at bedtime, I even worry about things I can not control or fix.

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ICEANGEL0531 7/11/2013 6:11PM

    When I have trouble sleeping I use either white noise or a relaxation CD , I usually fall asleep long before the CD ends. There are apps on Google Play, too.

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Back Again

Wednesday, July 03, 2013

I had fallen by the wayside some time ago and only recently come back to my SparkPeople account. It seems like a lot has changed for SparkPeople and since I have changed a lot, probably more so, I'm going to try to get back on track with being actively involved here. I can't just jump in as much as I'd like to, but that is only because I know that jumping in will lead to running away. Granted sometimes easing in has lead to running away too, but it's more likely to happen I think. So I'm going to ease back into the community. I could use the support of others. And although I am not very good at communicating I am hoping I will be able to support others too.
Side note: even though I left for so long I have been able to stay below the weight I first started at when I joined SparkPeople. That fact gives me some encouragement.

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POUTINGPEGGY 7/11/2013 6:33PM

    I am just back too. Hope this time we can keep going . Good luck

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DIVA711 7/3/2013 6:56PM

    Welcome back. One step at a time. emoticon

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ZZYYGGY3 7/3/2013 6:19PM

    you can do it.

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LAWANDMUSIC 7/3/2013 6:19PM

    Welcome back!

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JIBBIE49 7/3/2013 6:18PM

    Keep going. emoticon emoticon

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