Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Soooo I'm not sure what happened today but I just didn't feel like my regular Schen self. Tuesday, June 15th was totally stacked against me from the time I woke up late for work. GASP! I rolled out of bed and high tailed into the the bathroom and figured that oversleeping wouldn't be too much of a set back. Then I remembered that I needed to pick up some things for work. No worries though, I called ahead and placed the order for the essentials I needed that were going to be at the door waiting for me to load in my car. WRONG! Half of my order was right, so I had to spend another 45 minutes getting the other half. Load up the Honda, and I'm on my way thinking, "Today is going to be a GOOD DAY!" I knew the day was going to turn around because my iPod just happened to shuffle all my favorite songs. I'm riding down the highway singing India Arie, Temper Trap, Beyonce and Muse. Yes, I'm awesome!
*Insert loud screeching sound here* Hold on Schenley, because you're not!
Somehow rolling with the punches turned into me feeling like a punching bag. Just one thing that could've gone wrong, did. Mama said there would be days like this, but dang I didn't have this in mind! Am I stuck in a weird paradox world? How can one day be so perfect in so many ways and then the next be so defeating? I tell the forces of nature that I'm all about balance, but please throw me some curve balls in moderation.
But this is life and these situations build character and show your real temperament. I'm pretty sure I took most of today's lemons and made some good lemonade to keep me satiated for tomorrow....
Sunday, June 13, 2010
I've been away from spark for a few days. Had a mini World Cup watch party at my homestead yesterday and was busy preparing for that. Friday my bf and I celebrated our anniversary and had a lovely dinner and spent some quality time with one another. Work was pretty busy this past week also. I didn't get in nearly as much exercise minutes last week or this weekend and probably didn't make the best food choices this weekend but I feel at peace. I'm glad I haven't beaten myself up due to the remorse of not exercising and my food choices. Today I feel chill and at peace for these reasons:
I'm at peace because I was able to get in some spark time today and comment on going ons of my spark friends by encouraging them and offering my support.
I'm at peace because my bf and I have been together for four years and he has always loved me for the Schen I am. He has been been a constant source of unconditional love to me even when I am not very lovable.
I am at peace because we spent time with friends and enjoyed their company while watching a sport bringing the world together regardless of race, class, and politics.
I'm at peace because my house is clean, the windows are open and I'm enjoying the breeze and sunlight shining through.
I'm at peace because I'm going to my gym to help clean up the spin bikes and make them nice and new for the three hour spin-a-thon next Saturday.
I'm at peace because I've lost over 30lbs at that gym sweating, lifting, walking, running, planking, crunching and biking all the while making new friendships and always feeling very comfortable there.
I am thankful that although I probably didn't make the best food choices, I have an ample amount of food in my kitchen and I don't have to worry about when or how I'm going to get my next meal.
I'm at peace because although tomorrow is Monday and the weekend is over, I do have a job to go back to.
I am thankful & I am at peace. Oh and go USA! :)
Wednesday, June 09, 2010
Ever since I was introduced to Thai food in 2000 I've been in love with it! The "lightly" prepared food with strong aromatic and bold flavors has always been a favorite staple of mine. I love all food Asian - sushi, dim sum, pho, curries, tikka masala drunken noodles...You get the picture? But Thai food has always been my favorite. I was always under the impression that it was the "lightest and most healthy" of Asian foods. So I would indulge and never feel bad about it. I love Thai food so much that I went to Thailand last year, and the food and the culture were both lovely.
Before I got serious about losing weight I would eat Thai food a few times a month, but when I started getting serious about my Spark earlier this year I gave it up. Besides, the Thai restaurants are pretty expensive where I live and I knew it would almost be impossible to demonstrate portion control because the food is that freaking good!
I had a gift certificate to a Thai restaurant that I needed to use before it expired next week. I was all set to make boca burgers for my bf and I for dinner when he asked if I would rather go to the Thai restaurant. I had kind of forgot about the gift certificate until he reminded me, so we decided to do it. The food was to die for and I thoroughly enjoyed it. I try making a lot of my favorite Asian dishes at home but nothing in my kitchen compared to this full plate of deliciousness in front of me. My bf and I shared drunken noodles and chicken w/ red chili and cashews. Yumo!
But alas, the food high came crashing down when I logged my calories for dinner. Ouch! I seriously felt deflated when I saw that I had just consumed 1200 calories for dinner! 1200?!? 310 carbs for the day. I wasn't shocked because I knew that I did some damage, I was just flabbergasted because that's how many calories most people on spark live on a day to day basis and here I just had that much at dinner. Thank God I have been eating at the lower end of my calorie range for this week. I really hope I didn't do too much damage not just w/ the calories and carbs but with the sodium content either.
Here's to hoping I didn't....
I think I've fulfilled my Thai craving for a while. At least until I lose another 50 lbs because I think I gained about 5 just from the meal. Before I would convince myself that it was worth it because not only was the food good, but the whole experience of dining out with my boyfriend, enjoying one anothers company over a meal we loved, the overall package would be worth it. But I think I've changed my way of thinking because no food is worth the hard work that I've been putting in at the gym, logging calories, making meals at home and living an overall healthier life.
Sorry Thai food, but you've gotta go! I've had many a good experience with you, Thai Food, but I'll catch you on the flip side, 50 lbs lighter....if you're lucky!
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