Tuesday, August 21, 2012
I have the most amazing husband in the world. We've been married nine years and really do think alike - we've had two fights in those nine years. He is my best friend...
Well, you know that last fight? In it, he gently tried to break it to me that he was resentful that I'd put on weight with each of my four pregnancies... and I was a little above my ideal weight to start with. This meant that through the years, I've just kept getting bigger.
At the top of the scale, on 8/12/2012, I weighed 250. It is my goal to get to 200 by 2/13/2013, which means about two pounds a week. When I reach that goal, I will set my goal for a weight in my "ideal" range - 164 or lower.
I had already signed up for a Warrior Dash on 8/18/12, and I completed it, which was very empowering. If I can do that, I can work toward losing the extra pounds and being in a healthier body.
Some of my potential pitfalls?
I hate feeling deprived, I think some of it comes from "lean" times as a child. But I know that in order to return to a healthy weight, I must give up that mindset. There are times that I must feel deprived of the junk food, the free samples, the birthday cake. I need to remember that (too much) food makes me fat.
I don't feel bad in my body right now. I am comfortable and I don't usually even notice my size. People like me for who I am. I need to remind myself that being a size 16/18 is not normal and that I should NOT be satisfied with it.