Embarrassing Day

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

I gesture a lot when I talk. Take the enthusiasm you generally see in my writing and it definitely translates in person.

I'm hearing impaired, but don't sign. So I'm not sure if it's an innate thing or if I'm just that expressive.

Either way, sitting in class, my professor just looks at me and asks if I can try to not gesture when I talk, that it's too distracting - not to him of course, but probably to some people. Which was the biggest load of stuffin' handed to me on a platter, cause he wouldn't think of it unless he actually was.

I think I learned to be that expressive because back in the day I needed to hide behind being outgoing and whatnot, that if I had enough personality people wouldn't know I was different. I grew up in an upper middle class white town - I was the first kid with any kind of disability to go to my elementary school, so we're talking a noticeable difference even though I spoke normally and didn't have any extra help. And then the expressiveness just became a part of me.

It just makes me sad that I had that moment of total shaken self-confidence, especially at the hands of a stupid professor. All I know is I really didn't deserve that. So what if it's distracting? Don't look at me when I talk then, it's a class, I'm not going to notice.

I just needed to get that out.

  

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AWOLF24 10/21/2009 7:50PM

What an insensitive jerk! I love your expressiveness here on SP and I'm sure I would love it in person as well. Report Inappropriate Comment

DAWNWINS 10/20/2009 8:40PM

What a nimrod, this guy has no class Report Inappropriate Comment

IMREITE 10/20/2009 8:02PM

We are all expressive as long as you are not hitting or elbowing anyone when you are gesturing, then no one should care. I work at a phone bank and i think i can hear people gesturing and then it helps me describe/explain machines better to them. The next time someone complains about about gesturing, use only 1 finger to let them know what you think. Report Inappropriate Comment

PURPLEVALENTINE 10/20/2009 7:44PM

That was rude of him!! Keep doing what you do. I know I gesture a lot when I talk too - ain't no thang! Report Inappropriate Comment

BESSHAILE 10/20/2009 7:40PM

Boo to that jerk. Remember - that professor works for you - because you're the lady paying his salary. I remember a snotty professor who gave me that sort of mean hard time and I love to also remember that I did NOT ask him " have you always been threatened by strong intelligent women or is it just that you are short?" - because I am much nicer than he was. ooooo Just remembering that makes me laugh. You go girl. Report Inappropriate Comment

BUTTAPECANB 10/20/2009 7:28PM

Amen to that...you just keep being you and let the light that I see shining through this blog continue to shine through your personality. ~Faith~ Report Inappropriate Comment

Post-California

Monday, October 19, 2009

Well... the weekend itself was good.

I overshot on my goals just a little bit, but! I did better than last time I was home, so it's a process. One I'm getting better at.

I was a little out of range, but not too bad on calories.
The workout thing didn't really happen.
The studying thing... HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

I should have added one more goal. Not talk to the guy who's bruising me up left and right.

I'm sitting on a plane and typing this and talking to him and realizing that I really shouldn't be. Far from it actually. To the point I'm picking a fight for no reason whatsoever other than I'm slamming barriers up.

One bright side? I almost ordered some food to eat. Well, I feel sick to my stomach, so not wasting the calories or money. Excellent.

Maybe I should actually try to get some studying in so I'm not up half the night doing... a pseudo form of it and having it turn to crap.

It's a new week back on the east side and I'm going to do my best to rock it. Starting with getting up at the ass-crack of dawn tomorrow to go to hot yoga and see the guy on the metro that I have a crush on :D.

  

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PURPLEVALENTINE 10/19/2009 3:10PM

I am glad you had fun! Hot guy from metro - do tell?!! haha Report Inappropriate Comment

ANEWMACK 10/19/2009 2:08PM

SO SO SO glad you had a good time! Report Inappropriate Comment

MEGKRAMER 10/19/2009 1:37PM

I'm glad that you had a good time! I have been doing so bad lately I don't even want to think about it... But you and I are back on SP so that is defiantly a step in the right direction! Let me know if you need anything. XOXO Report Inappropriate Comment

Pre-California

Thursday, October 15, 2009

I leave for California first thing tomorrow morning. I come back sometime Monday afternoon (before class).

I have had not the best eating week. Not too bad on the working out, although there's always room for improvement.

Surprisingly enough, I'm actually looking forward to the trip to boost me back up. Go figure how that works out :P. But, I am and that's a good thing as I need to get re-ramped up for the coming weeks. I'm under the gun on quite a few projects and will need the release of eating right and working out. This also reminds me I need to pay my gym bill for the month, so I can workout at the gym out there.

Goals for California:
-Stay within calorie range Friday, Saturday, and Monday (out to nice dinner on Sunday - although, no dessert)
-Workout Friday-Sunday (flying, class, and bed on Monday)
-Get some studying done!

  

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NIGHTSRAINFALL 10/15/2009 11:11AM

Why you heading to California? Whatever the reason though, I hope it is a good trip and that you do well health wise and with your studies. I alway do poorly when I take trips but I try. Hope you have fun! Report Inappropriate Comment

PURPLEVALENTINE 10/15/2009 7:38AM

Have a great trip!!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

Food Does NOT Help

Monday, October 12, 2009

I ate my way through hurt feelings. I've been pretty good about not doing that. Today... not so much.

Now I feel just plain sick. Both from the food and the ache inside. Go figure how that works.

I'm writing this down now, not just to confess to you all, but as a reminder to me. I didn't feel so hot before with all my feelings being sucked dry, but now? I reallllllllly don't feel so hot and I have about a billion things to do before class.

So if any of you are hitting hard emotional times and thinking that food will get you through your troubles... let this be a solid little reminder. (A) it doesn't help, it hurts. (B) it certainly doesn't solve the problem. (C) now you can add guilt to the turmoil of emotions. (D) it reminds you of how you became fat (or whatever nice word you may need to put in here to feel better, I prefer to just face my own facts) and that you just didn't help yourself. (E) It doesn't comfort you... it makes you miss what you no longer have even more.

  

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DONNYE2008 10/14/2009 4:09PM

I sometimes eat my way through boredom...with the same results and feelings you posted here. Thanks for the reminder to "you" and to "me" also! Report Inappropriate Comment

GOSPELCLOWN 10/13/2009 2:47PM

I agree and I'll add (F) to your list... (F) It is so expensive to abuse my cupboard inventory or to have to repurchase my fridge contents. Over eating is expensive!! In total agreement... Karen in BC Report Inappropriate Comment

NAHLIKCJ 10/12/2009 6:09PM

Sorry moho! You'll come out just fine on the other side !!! Report Inappropriate Comment

PURPLEVALENTINE 10/12/2009 5:33PM

Hang in there!! Report Inappropriate Comment

NEM: After

Sunday, October 11, 2009

I walked 4.5 miles total.

My feet are dirty. My body hurts. I have a major sunburn.

But wow, was this day worth it.

We had no rain this morning.

But there was a rainbow.

  

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HUGMONKEYMOM 10/12/2009 6:52PM

Nothing like working out your body and you're spirit! Kudos to you for supporting a worthwhile cause and doing something good for you! Report Inappropriate Comment

LINNWINN 10/11/2009 7:24PM

Sounds amazing!! Good job! 4.5 miles! Report Inappropriate Comment

PURPLEVALENTINE 10/11/2009 6:10PM

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