Monday, December 12, 2011
Disclaimer: This is NOT an anti-train blog! No questions here. Although, today's question is coming after this blog is posted and I think about my answer. To those of you who anti-train, it was a difficult question for me, I'm curious if it will be for you.
Pigsofgreen wrote a blog today about getting her booty into the kitchen and being thankful to spark friends for helping her to do exactly that, amongst many other things.
So I got to thinking about my spark friends. When I started this site and really really really long time ago, I "met" people on here and that was that. Online world is the online world and I tend to place a barrier between me and it. Oh sure, I'm clearly incredibly open and for those of you who have known me since the beginning, I always have been. But that's just me, I'm an open kind of gal. But there wasn't an emotional attachment or investment. I don't mean this to sound like I could have given a rat's rear end what happened to people, but just that they were part of the online world and being a long time online dater... well... I aligned the two of them and said, psssh.
I'm really really really happy I changed my vantage point on this. Because there are totally different kinds of online worlds. Dating is a whole different bag of nuts than a physical and emotional journey (which, correct me if I'm wrong, this is for a lot of us). I began to keep up with people. I began to check in on them. If they were gone for long periods of time, I'd scramble to find out how I could keep talking to them, sharing in our journeys together.
There are the people I desperately hope to meet someday, of course, Kourtney being one of them. I don't even remember how we "met" or who said what to whom first. But whatever or however it happened, she keeps me sane, listens to me b*tch, and always always always reminds me that I am a person of value. Her virtual hugs gave me more comfort than a single one of my ex's in person hugs (ok, maybe that says it all about that relationship LOL). And they still do, since I'm not getting hugged at all anymore :P. And of course, Pam. She talks so much about those riverfront runs, now I really want to take one! Sheesh. She never fails to tell me to take the emotions as they come, then chuck them if they're pansy ones over the boy haha (my words, but the intent is right :P). Good reminders to not slip into old habits that are harmful.
Then there are the people I have gotten lucky enough to meet in person. Christine was my first. Literally. On multiple fronts. One front being the first sparker I've met in person. Another one being the first woman from online I've met (or even wanted to meet??? haha). I'm pretty sure I don't even have the words to say how much I've come to depend on her support, her humor, her allowing me to blow a fuse... you name it.
And then there's Sara. She's my fellow single girl food blogger. How cool is that? I found someone who loves the sheer taste of food as much as I and who will explore the foods of the world with me. She gets the boy troubles and the relationship troubles and stands up for me whenever possible.
And then there's Anne (Christine's sister), and Elisha, and Mary, and Chris (Christine's hubster). All of whom have provided invaluable support.
I've somehow made the best friends I have on this coast on this web site. I may not agree with a lot of what the spark team implements as rules, but I am grateful for the friends I have made on here.
And to all of you who I will most likely never meet, but still constantly support me and stop by to give me words of encouragement or a kick in the a$$, thank you. I am just as grateful to you as I am to those who I speak to every single day (almost all day... haha).
Anyways, I just wanted to share.
Sunday, December 11, 2011
We are going into week 6!!! Holy cow...
How did your extra 30 minutes per workout go last week? What did you add to your routine? Focus on your core this week. We all know that the body revolves around the core. Find a workout series that is core based (online, in fitness magazines, on spark) and complete that routine at least three times this week.
My extra 30 minutes didnít go so well for a whole lot of reasons. I have a new schedule with far fewer expectations of myself. Things are throwing me for a loop and I need to stop hiding in bed when they do. So this week, Iíll be doing core work AND extra working out. Back to 30 shred starting today, so thatís good for me. I have the workout schedule ready to go and I go home in a week, so I can easily cart a single dvd with me.
ďLife isnít about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.Ē ~ Unknown
More notes on the personal front: Iím really realizing these days just how badly I tend to think of myself. Iíve always been the confident one, the one able to do anything, be anything. And most people still think this of me, because Iím particularly good at putting on a show. But when I get home at night, and Iím alone, where I donít have anybody to put on a show forÖ all of that slips. And Iím faced with just me. Right now, just me isnít somebody I particularly like. Itís difficult to admit and something I need to figure out. Once I do, Iíll blog and share with you. Part of this journey to make the getting healthier last is the figuring out of why I do certain things and what the root emotional and mental issues are. I have yet to stay below 200 pounds for very long because I keep self-sabotaging. I weigh-in barely under, then get back way over, then have to work all of that off just to be back in the same spot againÖ week after week. Am I not worth it to myself to make it better? Something to think aboutÖ
Sunday, December 11, 2011
Whatís one item of clothing youíd like to wear after losing weight?
Lingerie. Absolutely, without fail, hottie underoos. I mean, I can now technically, but it just rearranges my fat and sticks it in odd and nutty places. I could say bikini, but Iíve been pretty large and worn that, so since one of my main goals is to feel good in the bedroomÖ the underoos that donít push out my fat is a solid want of mine.
ďOur deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.Ē ~ Marianne Williamson
Saturday, December 10, 2011
Do you mainly do cardio, strength training, or both? Why?
Ostensibly speaking, I do both. Or the goal is to do both. I havenít been too good about any of it for a few months now. So one of the biggest things for me will simply be that lovely thing called, consistency. Because this is a month fraught with timeline difficulties, Iím going to make it even easier on myself and just do the Jillian Michaels 30-Day Shred mixed up with some of her other videos and finally get back to hitting the pavement, throwing in some kickboxing. For now, this will do for me. When my schedule changes up yet again, then Iíll do what I need to do for myself to make it happen!
ďI know nothing with any certainty, but the sight of stars makes me dream.Ē ~ Vincent Van Gogh
Saturday, December 10, 2011
Disclaimer: This is NOT an anti-train blog. So there are no questions for you to answer, but there is definitely some fun info in here!
Last night a sparker friend and I went to dinner, to an excellent restaurant. We LOVE food, so we decided, while drinking wine, to start a foodie blog. Because we're just plain fun like that haha.
I've only managed to post an info blog about us so far, but I'll get up the meal blog sometime today. Until then, check it out! And follow if you're interested in seeing our at least monthly (maybe more - depends on the ol' income haha) trips to restaurants.
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