Friday, May 02, 2014
I have a confession. I didn't start on the first day. Whew. Got that one off my chest. But really. I know all the reasons why I "should" get healthier, thereby losing weight. I know how to do it. I've read more stuff than I can begin to tell you. But, I am my own worst enemy and boy am I a rockstar with excuses.
Until last night. I'm friends with my man's mother on Facebook and she posted an update about his younger sister, who's 19. She's really quite ill and has taken a turn for the worse. Not quite at death's door... Yet... So his mom and I chatted a bit and she talked about how rough it is to see your child going through this and how strong Tia is being.
And boy did I get a wallop. What am I doing to myself?! Here's this beautiful 19 year old young girl who would LOVE to do the things my body can do and she simply can't. And yet here I am, with this body that can take a heck of a beating and keep on trucking, and I treat it like utter and complete crap. I mean, really, what am I doing?!
Sure, I've heard stories about sick people, and commercials from St. Jude's always make me cry, but it didn't directly affect me... I don't mean to sound like a jerk, but it wasn't in my realm if that makes sense. I felt bad for folks and I did think I'm so fortunate, but it never went beyond that. But now there's this personal connection that makes is so much more real.
I am so fortunate in my health, so fortunate in this rather beefy body that is capable of so much strength. I am so healthy these days emotionally and mentally - sure I still have some ways to go on both fronts, but I'm so much better. So why is my body lagging behind?
Then this morning, another wallop. My dad fell pretty hard, but is mostly okay. He also has horrible blood pressure and there is history of heart attacks in his family. I've said before that if I do it, my dad most likely would also. He and I are so alike in body. He needs me to do this. He doesn't know this, but he needs it now more than ever. And while these journeys should always start with ourselves, if I'm thinking I'm not good enough, then I'll use my dad as my back-up.
So I'm going to make a little picture collage on my phone with these reminders, so that when I feel weak or I'm making one of my oh so brilliant excuses, I have it to remind me of not only of what I am working for, but WHY.
Thursday, April 10, 2014
Well... It finally happened. I have gained enough weight back that I busted the link on my newly washed work pants.
This is not what one would call a "win."
So I looked back over the plan, made a few modifications, planned for my trip home and that will be that.
Moving forward, not back.
Monday, April 07, 2014
So that last blog about being semi back was clearly a load of horsewash. I'm at school - I figure I should be keeping my language clean.
Let's see. That dude I mentioned? In the last blog? That was all casual and whatever? Yeah. Moving in with him next weekend. INSANE, RIGHT?! Man. How time flies. I'm super happy with him and all that jazz. This being said... there's been a few pounds put on. And let's just say, I still don't love the flab going all flabby all over bed.
I also got a second job. So that's keep me mass busy.
Let's see. What's coming up?
APRIL - Next week is Spring Break. I'll have a couple days of unpacking, then home to California, where the man will join me a couple of days later and meet the parents. OH MAN. This is all just nutty. Big week.
MAY - Nothing too exciting, so I can really spend that time concentrating on me.
JUNE - End of school! Whoo! We got our school year extended a teeny bit - so that's the way that goes. Plus a short trip to Iowa to attend my godmother's funeral.
JULY - Go to Michigan to meet his family. OH MAN. Oy. This will be a slightly longer trip than his to California. So I'll be meeting a whole lot of people.
AUGUST - Florida! The trip is a mix of things. The bulk of it is for his birthday, but I'm doing a trip for him, so we can have some time away, just the two of us with no responsibilities (or very few) and I can have a short vacation before I start school again.
I'm at the same school next year. Don't get me started. I'm just going to go with it and hope for the best.
Now, with all of these trips coming up, I would really like to feel better about where I'm at in my fitter/healthier journey and so need to hold myself a teeny tiny bit more accountable.
I made a general list of goals, really just back to the basics. So I'll have my basics and then have one major goal a month, so I give myself a month to really work on a habit and once it's a habit, I move onto the next thing.
-8 glasses of water/day
-2 cardio workouts/week
-2 bodyweight strength training workouts/week
-Keep calories between 1,300-1,600
-Track it all - even if I "flub up," holding accountable is key :)
April: Work up to 200oz/day
May: Calorie range 1,200-1,500
June: Ramp up the cardio over time to four a week
July: Ramp up the strength training to a personal trainer three times a week (purchased, but the few I've used have been eratic due to snow and schedules, so waiting until I actually can put it to use and learn something from it)
Beyond that, I'll decide which habit I need to return to. I think August will be all about planning, planning, planning. School starts and starting off on the right foot is the way to go.
Ok, so that's that. Let me know if I haven't updated on anything!!! :D
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