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Tuesday, October 22, 2013

My life will be considerably less stressful after November 15 when my angry son moves out. He's 21. He's moved out twice before. Once because I kicked him out. I made the mistake of letting him back after that, and I really shouldn't have. He seemed like he had changed, but he hadn't. The near constant stress sends me into a twirl of my many addictions. Food, smoking, gambling. I've always smoked (since I was 12), but I smoke more when I'm stressed. Normally it's about 3-4 cigarettes per day recently. I'm really trying to reduce and eventually quit. Food has been my constant companion since I was very young. The stealing and eating food so that my mother wouldn't shame me started when I was probably about 8 or 9. I'm better about not sneaking food, but it doesn't mean that I'm not still embarrassed when I eat way more than I should, like this past few days. The gambling had been much better, but I let it get the better of me a couple of weeks ago. I just want my life to be back in control! I am really trying to stay in control with at least my eating. I can stay away from the casino. Urg... I can do this. I keep telling myself :(

Leslie

  
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FRAN0426 10/22/2013 9:03PM

    Once your son leaves it should gt easier. Just try the best you can to not let him push you buttons, keep your hands busy by reading or if you have a hobby kepp busy so you won't want to eat, smoke or even gaamble. Tell yourself I will get through this.

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WILDFLOWERMA 10/22/2013 4:29PM

    Hang in there! Life can really send us spinning sometimes, but you have all the tools you need to succeed. emoticon

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Week 5 Summary

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

There is no way that I have gained 6 pounds since yesterday. The scale is not always correct. One day of going over calories this week will not destroy my week of hard work. Weighing in after dancing a lot, knee is swollen, hands puffy, ate a late night snack because I burned off a lot of calories yesterday and needed something, and then didn't get a lot of sleep because I got to bed late and still had to go to work today. But, I still weighed even though I knew it was not the ideal circumstances. I know that those 6 pounds aren't "real" weight. I know that my jeans are looser yet and I am still feeling better. So, my weigh-in next week will be even better :)

I learned this week that you can come back rather quickly from what could be a disaster. That felt phenomenal! I am continuing to use my SparkTracker. I like that it tracks my steps even if it isn't the most accurate thing about tracking what is actually my walking workouts. Therefore, it doesn't track properly how many calories I burned during those workouts so it appears that I have less available than I do. But, if I track the rest of the workout, it warps my fitness minute totals, which feels dishonest. So, I just know in my head that I have more calories and don't feel bad when I go over on those days, which I usually don't anyway. I'm still learning :)

Have a great day!
Leslie

  
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CAROL494 10/16/2013 1:12PM

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An Off Day Corrected

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

I have been doing fairly well at making healthy and filling dinners. I generally eat the same thing for breakfast, and I like that. However, I've been having difficulty with lunches this time. I'd been eating the same things over and over; cheese sandwich, hot dog or brat on a piece of bread, yeah, that's about it. Also, I've been spending way too much time hungry lately. I wake up hungry and go to bed hungry. I got sick of it yesterday and decided to eat until I was full all day. Unfortunately, this meant eating what was available at work, so 2 Snickers bars and a bag of Cheetos were my snacks. I had healthier snacks, but I didn't want them. After a healthy dinner I really didn't go too horribly far over my calories, and it felt good to actually feel full.

Halfway through that day of eating I decided that I was going to pre-cook some food so that I had healthier and more filling lunches for the rest of the week. Oh, and TASTY options, too. So, I made a pot of beef chili (297 calories for a 2 cup serving) and cooked up some chicken breast with garlic and Mrs. Dash tomato basil garlic seasonings and portioned it out into 2 oz. servings.

Today for lunch I had 2 oz. of chicken with 2 corn tortillas, 1/4 c. refried beans, 1/2 c. red peppers, 1/4 c. fat free mozzarella cheese, and 2 T black bean and corn salsa. Yummy! It was a lot of food, too, so I feel full! Low fat, low sodium, high protein. Good stuff :) Tortillas are so versatile and low calorie. A serving is 3 of them for 90 calories. I usually only eat 2 because 3 is a lot! So, yeah, back on track in a big way :) Tomorrow is weigh-in. Let's see if I completely threw myself off.

Have a great day!
Leslie

  
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WILDFLOWERMA 10/15/2013 4:07PM

    Mmm...I love Mexican Food so much. Great that you created a filling & healthy option. Kudos to you for turning the day around.

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KHARRIETOFF 10/15/2013 12:34PM

    It's like you've reached a major milestone; you went off track, got back up, dusted yourself off, and got back into the race. That is one of the hardest things for any of us to do - and you DID it. Good for you! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Hurting Back and Week 4 Summary

Wednesday, October 09, 2013

My back has now been hurting since Sunday. It may be time to head to the doctor because it's in one specific spot and it's not getting better. It's not getting worse, either, so that's good. It feels better after my walks, so that's also good. I have to make a doctor's appointment anyway to get a prescription renewed.

I'm figuring out the SparkTracker. I did just over 7,000 steps yesterday, so that was good. I started using the stairs at work again yesterday, which is also good :) I now know that, in order to get my SparkPoints for exercise and have the calories burned count towards calories left to eat for the day, I need to add my mileage in a new spot on the Fitness screen. I didn't find that yesterday, so I was frustrated and felt like I went over even though I knew I didn't. Problem solved! Let's see if I can top those miles today!

I was only down .2 pounds this week for a total of 9 down, but I'm okay with that. I have more energy and my jeans are fitting better. Those are both really good things! Progress is progress :)

Have a great day!
Leslie

  


Feeling Better

Tuesday, October 08, 2013

After 2 days of feeling completely drained and having a fever, it's good to be feeling better. My back still hurts, but hopefully that will pass soon, as well. After taking a nap when I got home from work yesterday I took the dog for a 20 minute walk. We only have a few days in the 70s left this year, so I want to take advantage of them :) I got 10 minutes in before work today and my boyfriend and I are planning a hike with the dog tonight after I get off of work. It's supposed to be 76 today! Gorgeous :)

I started using my SparkTracker today! I'm super excited for the more accurate reports of my activity. I'll let you know what I think after I've used it for a bit. So far I like how fancy and hi tech it is :)

Have a great day!
Leslie

  
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JACKIE542 10/8/2013 11:07AM

    Glad you are feeling better, hope you have a great day too. emoticon

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