Thursday, November 07, 2013
I'm back at a gym, after a long time away. I put in about an hour overall, and got in some good cardio and strength training. It has a sauna, which I love to use after a workout. It gives me some time to relax and listen to some slower music.
Between the sauna and the pickle juice I drank when I got home, I hope I am not too sore tomorrow, as it will be a long day. A girl at the gym said something about whey protein being good for that, and I will look into it. At least I no longer have a job where I have to be on my feet all day long. It means I feel a little more comfortable to extend myself during workouts, because I've wound up in a lot of pain at work. I once got a free session with a trainer that left me barely able to walk afterwards, and ever since I have been careful that my exercise doesn't go that far again.
I loved getting to work out at the gym again. It feels really good. I probably won't go tomorrow, but Saturday is a definite possibility. I am going to try to go every afternoon on days when I get off work early in the day. On days when I work later, I may or may not. That will still give me at least 3 days most weeks, and even on days when I don't go, I have a trampoline and weights here at home to work with. It's good to have a variety of exercises. I especially tend to get into a routine, which is good in some ways but bad in others.
Anyway, long story short: yay, gym!
Tuesday, November 05, 2013
Overall, it went well.
My A1C is still in check, which is a relief. I haven't been watching my sugar and carb intake like I should, so I was expecting to see that number higher. It's good that it was within limits!
My thyroid levels were supposedly normal, but a lot of my symptoms have come back over the last month or so -- low energy, being cold, no appetite, light period, and so on. I explained this, and my doctor agreed that while it was technically normal, many people don't feel right if it was as high as mine was (4.4). She has increased my medication a little, so we will see how that goes. I am relieved she listened to me, as I was afraid if the levels were normal, she might go by that alone.
My cholesterol was good, except for the really bad one -- triglycerides were high. Got to get that one down.
My platelets were high, as well, and she wants me to start taking baby aspirin.
But my weight is down a little, which makes me so happy. It's not much, but it is movement in the right direction. Very encouraging.
Very happy to be a new job as well. This job is much less stressful, and has a much healthier environment, emotionally. It also pays more, and I feel like there could be a future for me with this company. I feel much calmer, and more able to handle making changes to my diet and other habits now that I am away from the negativity of my old employer. I feel like I will be more likely to have the energy to work out now, and to meal plan. Before it was taking everything I had to keep slogging away at my job. I feel like my life is far more in balance now.
Made turkey legs for dinner. They came out so good. Now I just need to wait for hubby to come home from work to eat dinner with me.
Wednesday, August 21, 2013
It's been a long time since I was here. I fell off the Spark wagon while dealing with the fallout of abnormal paps. The changes in my diet seemed to make me spot, which skyrocketed my anxiety levels, so I stepped away for a while.
After having a cervical biopsy come back clear, and two more paps come back fine, I am more relaxed about that situation. But in the meantime, I have discovered a new wrinkle in my battle with weight loss and living healthier.
A few months ago, I came down with a bad cold. This wasn't strange, as every few months I was coming down with something bad enough to keep me home from work -- fever, infection, what have you. But this time, it scared me because it fell like the beginnings of a lung infection. As an asthmatic, it scared me bad enough to find a GP and make an appointment.
After blood work, I was found to have . . . thyroid disease. I know I had it for at least a year, because that is when my period started to get very light and short, and when I started to have no energy and was getting sick every few months. But I really do suspect I have had it since I was a teen, as a couple other issues I have had since then have either gone away or lessened a great deal.
In addition to thyroid disease, my first test showed high cholesterol, very low vitamin D and a slightly elevated A1C.
Months later, my A1C has come down to normal, my thyroid is still in flux and meds being adjusted, and cholesterol is still high. I am caught in an uncomfortable spot. I need to bring down my cholesterol. I need to lose weight. But my appetite is higher than ever. I can eat the same amount as my husband, and ten minutes later be hungry again. Not "bored" hungry, not "I want ice cream" hungry, not "drink some water" hungry, but real, honest hungry that does not go away with water or waiting it out or doing something else. It is driving me crazy, as I want to lose weight and lower my cholesterol.
I am coming back here in a renewed attempt to actually see what I am putting in to my body. I want to pinpoint where I can change my diet to get rid of the hunger that is always around me now and to see what I am doing for my cholesterol.
In addition, I am trying to keep an eye on my calcium, as my older brother was just diagnosed with osteoporosis at 47, which is about the same age my mother was when she started breaking ribs. I am taking a supplement and increasing my milk intake, but want to be sure I am hitting the goals I need to.
Time to start taking responsibility for my health and well-being. I do not want a heart attack in five years. I do not want broken bones in ten. I want to feel good about myself, be happy to go shopping for clothes, and have lots of energy. I face new goals today, with new complications. But I am determined to succeed!
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Back in February, the same time I started on here, I had an abnormal Pap smear. I also started spotting before my period at the same time, which really, really freaked me out because it was not usual for me, and with the abnormal Pap . . . .
I had to wait until this month to get a follow-up Pap to see if the abnormal cells were still there. I was sticking to Sparkpeople pretty closely, but eventually I felt I had to back away a bit, to see if going back to my "normal" (read, bad) eating and exercise habits would maybe help the spotting to stop. I was getting too scared every time I saw it. I didn't completely fall off the wagon, but I did take a step back. I didn't want to, but I had to see if that was contributing to the spotting. I had dropped 10+ pounds, quickly, and was under a lot of stress, after all.
On my follow-up visit, I talked with my doctor about it. She said that I had been right to think my efforts to lose weight were contributing, and that it was normal and nothing to worry about. But it's hard to get back on the horse, and I was under even more stress then, waiting to find out if the cells were normal or not.
So I waited. And waited. And waited. The doctor had promised to call when she got the results, whichever way they went. The time came, one day shy of two weeks later, for my husband to have his usual visit (he has to have blood tests every few months for diabetes and other conditions). We see the same doctor, and I usually go with him. At the end of the visit, she turned to me and said the Pap had come back, abnormal again.
She had known Friday, and waited until my husband's appointment Monday to discuss it with me. Grrr. But at least I got to have a face-to-face talk.
Atypical Squamous Cells of Undetermined Significance is the term. And it required a referral to an OB-GYN for further care and possibly more invasive tests.
I make an appointment to the new doctor. Go to see new doctor. Appointment is at 2:40. We are there 15 to 20 minutes early. Fill out paperwork. Wait. Wait. Wait. Wait. Add about a dozen more of those, and with each one, get more and more anxious. More scared. Not really sure what is going to happen.
Finally get to see the doctor. Guess what? She doesn't have my test results! Regular doctor and staff have not sent them to her! Grrrr, again.
I tell her what I know. ASCUS. Two paps. Not HPV, according to my doctor.
What I come out knowing: I will have a test called a colposcopy IF it turns out I have HPV, or if my type of ASCUS is "high grade", which is actually a different result -- ASC-H -- and might mean precancerous changes. Otherwise, I will have another Pap next year, and if that one is abnormal again, then we go to colposcopy (she said it was a bit like a Pap, but with cramping because they actually take a piece of cervix instead of just a scraping).
She also says the spotting might be a sign that I need a stronger birth control pill, and she wants to test my thyroid function because of the weight gain I had when I moved in with my now-husband. I have my first blood draw in years knowing it will come back fine, because I just like to eat and that is why I put on so much weight in such a short period of time. I had lost it rapidly while living with my aunts, and put it back on just as rapidly after I moved out. Also, I need to follow up with my regular doctor because my blood pressure is high. Of course it is high! I spent the whole time in the waiting room getting more and more anxious, then scared, then terrified. My blood pressure is usually good, so I am not worried about that, either.
We get out of the doctor's at almost 5, not having eaten all day. We had slept in, and did not have time before the appointment. And I just didn't have the stomach, anyway.
In short? I'm probably just fine, and can get on with my life. I am still waiting for my test results to reach my new doctor, and she promised to call if she got them and they were worse than simple ASCUS. I have a follow-up scheduled in July, anyway. Will probably go even if it's okay, just to find out about my thyroid (not worried) and to see if she thinks I do need stronger birth control. It's worked very well for four years, so I'm not worried about that, but I'd rather be safe than sorry there. Worth a discussion, at least, when I'm in a less frantic mood than I was in her office the last time.
I feel much calmer now than I did before her visit. For the last few months, this hasn't left my mind for more than few minutes. It's always been there, worse at times than others, and every little thing down there has freaked me out. I am hoping now to get back to a more normal life, and to return to my weight loss efforts without this black cloud over me.
Should have known something would happen. Every time I make a strong effort at losing weight, I seem to get very sick within a week or two. This was way worse. But it is hopefully over now.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Maybe I just have expectations that are just too high? I don't know.
Lately, I've been scheduled to work closing shifts followed by opening shifts like it's nothing. Last week, I had two of them, and that's one reason I have been so quiet here lately. Being at work until 10:30 or 11 at night and then having to be there at 7 in the morning is exhausting.
Worse, it's sabotaging my attempts to get healthy. I get so exhausted, and I have no time to log on here, and so tired I don't have the energy to care. And I have a tendency to get severe depression if I am sleep deprived for several days. It's like static in my head, and I cry very easily. And I end up relying on high-calorie caffeinated drinks to get going. (Mountain Dew Code Red is a tasty danger drink for me.) After those, it's like, "Well, I know I went way over on calories because of that drink." I don't just have a free-for-all after that, but I don't record, either, because I know it's going to be bad. And forget exercise. It just ain't happening.
Last week, when I had two of these monsters, I went to HR, and was basically told, "We don't care. It's not about you. It's about what we need. You have open availability, and most of our people don't." So I'm getting punished because the company only hired one open person in my area?
And believe me, HR made it very clear I would lose my hours if I continued to complain. And of course, they did it again this week. Tomorrow, I close, and then have to be back early the next day. And I'm afraid if I say anything, I will lose the one day I have off with my husband.
I'm scared to make a change, but maybe it's time. The raise freeze is bad enough (yeah, I'm getting abused like this on minimum wage, with no hope of anything more), but this is ridiculous.
I picked up an application for another retailer after work today. Much smaller one, but maybe that would be better. I don't know. I just know this isn't good for me right now, and the company refuses to do anything differently.
Maybe this is as good as it gets. Maybe I should just shut up and be glad I have a job? I don't know.
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