Monday, November 03, 2014
On Halloween night back in 1974, I was at a friend's house eating from a large bowl of her children's candy and downing homemade rice krispie treats. The following day, I went to court and cried when I arrived back at my lonely rented house. At twenty-six, I was a divorced woman. At the time, I weighed forty-four pounds less than I weigh today. Although I looked good on the outside, the fact that I had no kids and was divorced made me as miserable as I've ever been in my life.
Flash forward to today. A chubby, retired, mother of six, grandmother to five.
If only I had been able to trust that my life would get better. A thought that I still struggle with at times, but that is getting easier through the years.
Thursday, October 16, 2014
Three weeks ago I had gum surgery. For the first week, I allowed myself to eat ice cream every day. Normally, this is a special once-a-week treat during the summer. As I ate it every day, I felt afraid that I had broken the good habits that I had established.
Last week, I spent 7 days visiting my kids in Chicago. Although my gums were still healing from surgery, I stopped eating ice cream and continued to eat protein shakes, Greek yogurt and applesauce, and soups. The combination of not being at home and having to choose soft foods was challenging. Walking and climbing the stairs to their apartments was my exercise.
When I came home, I weighed what I had when I left despite eating out more and exercising in a different way. The best part was discovering that the choices I have learned to make to stay healthy stayed with me even under different circumstances.
Wednesday, September 17, 2014
By using the tools on this site, I discovered that I now weigh within a couple of pounds of my weight in 2009. Back in 1997 when I weighed 283, I would never have believed that I could maintain nearly an 80-pound loss for five years. So, 204 it is. Nothing to brag about except that I have maintained for five years. I have struggled to stay under 204, going as low as 195 at times. In a perfect world, I would have met my goal by now. This is not a perfect world, but it is a world that I am proud to be in. Maybe the next 5 years will see a loss.
Saturday, September 13, 2014
Yesterday I weighed what I had before my anniversary and birthday celebrations. It feels good to find out I can regain control after eating sweets and having wine. More importantly, my cousin and two friends reminded me that being home is good. After I leave my five kids who live in Chicago, I often feel sad that we're three hours apart. Today we're off to help with my daughter's kids. It's time for me to get over my fear of being alone with her son without her. He is 2 and a half months old and in daycare. If he can go all day, we should be okay while she runs some errands.
Monday, September 08, 2014
My anniversary and bday are only 4 days apart. I have been on a non-stop overeating, wine-drinking celebration for the last 10 days which obviously means I pre and post-celebrated the events. My weight is nearly 3 pounds more than it's been.
The good news is I spent 8 days at my daughter's babysitting her child who was home from daycare due to a rash. Each day after my daughter got home, I walked two miles. Some days, I also pushed the stroller to the park so her child could get some sunshine and fresh air.
Yesterday, a friend gave me a special bday gift of help digging in my yard. I am unable to dig easily due to the surgery on my arm 10 years ago for bone cancer. We had fun talking and working together.
Unfortunately, I ate over 2500 calories. Today is a new day. I am determined to get this weight off before it becomes permanent.
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