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frightened by weight gain

Tuesday, December 02, 2014

Today I weighed more than I have in 5 years. My weight has held steady and now it isn't. My husband's mother had been in the hospital for two weeks and ended up in a nursing home last Monday. During this time, I have relived my mother's death 4 years ago and been upset more days than not. The scariest part of the gain is that I have stayed away from my usual triggers of sweets. Despite that, I weighed 204.8 last Wednesday. I didn't record it, hoping to lose by this week. This morning, I weighed 206.

I have consistently exercised throughout the stress. I've been writing daily for a writing challenge that I attempt each November. Now, I am in a panic. Obviously, what I am doing is not working.

Stress over my situation is getting to me.

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~THERESA 12/3/2014 3:41PM

    I'm sorry to hear about your mother-in-law. I don't think we ever stop grieving our mom's death but times like what you're experiencing make the grief that much stronger. Dealing with stress can be difficult but I believe you're on the right track by exercising and avoiding sweets.

And as for you weight gain, fear not, my friend! You must know by now that you have the skills and knowledge to deal with this bump in the road. Feel your feelings, then put the weight-gain into perspective and move on from there.

I don't mean to sound flippant, I certainly recognize the fear and panic - I know how easy it is to feel like you've lost your grip and can only watch the scale move upward - but those days are over, sweetie. As we've lost weight, we've grown in self- confidence. You can rest in that confidence, have faith in yourself. All you have to do is not give up!

God bless,


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Memories of years ago

Monday, November 03, 2014

On Halloween night back in 1974, I was at a friend's house eating from a large bowl of her children's candy and downing homemade rice krispie treats. The following day, I went to court and cried when I arrived back at my lonely rented house. At twenty-six, I was a divorced woman. At the time, I weighed forty-four pounds less than I weigh today. Although I looked good on the outside, the fact that I had no kids and was divorced made me as miserable as I've ever been in my life.
Flash forward to today. A chubby, retired, mother of six, grandmother to five.
If only I had been able to trust that my life would get better. A thought that I still struggle with at times, but that is getting easier through the years.

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IAMNOT61 11/5/2014 4:38PM

    Congratulations on making it through the tough times. Be sure to share this story with your children/grands so they can hopefully learn from your experiences.

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~THERESA 11/4/2014 12:38PM

    Don't you wish you had a time machine so you could give a hug to your 26-year old self - let her know there are better days ahead! God bless,


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RAPUNZEL53 11/3/2014 6:16PM

  You seem to have a good life!

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maintaining in different circumstances

Thursday, October 16, 2014

Three weeks ago I had gum surgery. For the first week, I allowed myself to eat ice cream every day. Normally, this is a special once-a-week treat during the summer. As I ate it every day, I felt afraid that I had broken the good habits that I had established.

Last week, I spent 7 days visiting my kids in Chicago. Although my gums were still healing from surgery, I stopped eating ice cream and continued to eat protein shakes, Greek yogurt and applesauce, and soups. The combination of not being at home and having to choose soft foods was challenging. Walking and climbing the stairs to their apartments was my exercise.

When I came home, I weighed what I had when I left despite eating out more and exercising in a different way. The best part was discovering that the choices I have learned to make to stay healthy stayed with me even under different circumstances.

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IAMNOT61 11/5/2014 4:43PM

    Great job on lifestyle changes/choices. I hope your gum surgery was successful and you are back to chewy foods now.

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~THERESA 11/3/2014 3:38PM

    Good for you! It's a good feeling when making the healthy choice becomes the default. We've been working hard to re-program the old grey-matter and it seems like you're making good progress. God bless,

Theresa emoticon

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Looking back 5 years

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

By using the tools on this site, I discovered that I now weigh within a couple of pounds of my weight in 2009. Back in 1997 when I weighed 283, I would never have believed that I could maintain nearly an 80-pound loss for five years. So, 204 it is. Nothing to brag about except that I have maintained for five years. I have struggled to stay under 204, going as low as 195 at times. In a perfect world, I would have met my goal by now. This is not a perfect world, but it is a world that I am proud to be in. Maybe the next 5 years will see a loss.

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~THERESA 9/19/2014 4:10PM

    It's interesting to look back - those tools are great!. Congratulations on maintaining your 80lb. loss. To my mind, keeping it off for five years is greater accomplishment than the loss it's self and (believe me!) losing 80 lbs. is a huge accomplishment!



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GRANJERRY1 9/17/2014 9:35PM

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IWANT2DOTHIS1X 9/17/2014 7:36PM

    Great job! You haven't given up. You can do it!

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Saturday, September 13, 2014

Yesterday I weighed what I had before my anniversary and birthday celebrations. It feels good to find out I can regain control after eating sweets and having wine. More importantly, my cousin and two friends reminded me that being home is good. After I leave my five kids who live in Chicago, I often feel sad that we're three hours apart. Today we're off to help with my daughter's kids. It's time for me to get over my fear of being alone with her son without her. He is 2 and a half months old and in daycare. If he can go all day, we should be okay while she runs some errands.

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~THERESA 9/19/2014 4:11PM


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GRANJERRY1 9/13/2014 1:19PM

    Good luck & God Bless

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MM11113 9/13/2014 8:55AM

    Have a great day!

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