Wednesday, November 17, 2010
OK, my attitude began to change a good while ago, but I've finally decided I should 'fess up publicly.
Esther's blog today hit me like a big two-by-four. She was talking about how she feels when under the scrutiny of those who don't know how much weight she's already lost and how hard she has worked to get there. I can in no way convey how accurately she portrayed her feelings -- please go to her blog (@CALLIKIA)
and read what she has to say. Other spark friends have written eloquently about this issue too, and their stories have moved me also. But somehow, Esther's blog made me think, "SAY it!"
So I will.
I used to be somewhat like those people.
True, I was overweight myself, but not as noticeably.
And when I thought critical thoughts, I was a complete hypocrite, since I wasn't making much attempt to control my own weight. But for the grace of God and fortunate metabolism - plus the fact that singing came along and woke me up to the state of my own body when I was nearly 30 years old -- I could easily weigh 200-300 pounds or more.
Well, I just want to say, NO MORE, NEVER AGAIN will I think hurtful things. I know that even if we think them, somehow they are felt.
Spark has made a permanent change in me - in this as in many other ways. At this point I think that people who tend to gain weight are some of the world's MOST WONDERFUL PEOPLE! They (we, if you will allow me to include myself) are sensitive and caring and intelligent and often have a wonderful offbeat perspective that has possibly made it hard for them to fit in/blend in/conform in life. And perhaps that is part of the reason why they (we) have all gained weight in the first place.
BUT THE WORLD DESPERATELY NEEDS WHAT THEY (WE) HAVE TO SAY AND OFFER AND DO!
And we should NEVER forget that.
Sparkfriends with a lot of pounds left to lose are at this point my heroes (or heroines!) and when I see a large person walking on the street or in the supermarket, or riding one of the carts, I am now much more likely to perceive their beauty.
I am much less likely to judge them.
I am more likely to say a little prayer that they be strengthened to know their own worth and protected from patronizing or hurtful remarks.
I haven't heard anyone making nasty remarks -- but at this point, I think if I did, I would stand up and PICK A FIGHT. At this point I do have a few muscles...
Anyway, you get the idea. I know this does absolutely nothing to smooth the way of heroines like Esther who are running 5Ks and 10Ks and still braving people's rude stares and still keeping on keeping on, even though the way seems incredibly long and rough. And working at it much harder than I have been able to...
But I thought I would just go on record that at least ONE of those people has changed, fundamentally and deeply. And it's because of YOU.
Friday, November 12, 2010
I just thought of a great reward for me. Not too expensive but something I really do want. When I reach 135 lbs. I will shop for a black pencil skirt!
And this brings me to the history of me and MY BUTT.
I remember the exact moment I became self-conscious about my butt.
I was lying on my stomach on a neighbor's bed, talking to our neighbor and her daughter who was somewhat older than me, and all of a sudden one of them said, "Now THAT'S a rear end!" Until that exact moment, I had not really known I had a rear end bigger than anyone else's!
I knew that I was a couch potato and that I read all the time to escape having to listen to my mom's monologues and my dad's silences. It also helped me escape the teasing on the school bus, since after a while of vanishing into a book, most of the kids got bored with teasing me. I knew that I was different because I liked to find out about the world far away from where I lived, both in space and time. Most kids didn't give a crap. And I didn't give a crap about most of their preoccupations, so we were even.
BUT I did NOT want to have a BIG BUTT!
So I learned how to tuck it under, but somehow that didn't really help. My butt still looked big every time I walked past a storefront window and saw my own reflection. There were no full-length mirrors in our house...
I will spare you the long in-between journey of struggle with my butt.
BUT I will simply say that it has been a real joy, as I have walked with my camera, with Leslie, with weighted vest, and as I have learned to run intervals, to watch MY BUTT SHRINKING!
In fact, at this point, my tummy is a bit bigger than my butt, but IT IS SHRINKING TOO!
Pretty soon I will be in balance, top to bottom, front to back. That is all I care! I do not have to be skinny, or wear a bikini. But I would like to be non-bulgy, and have a butt proportionate to the rest of my self.
And you know, my SELF has been such a part of that journey. The me that loves to sit on the couch and read is still very much alive! But now she is more peripatetic and she loves to take breaks from reading and she loves to plan to MOVE! She is altogether happier because she has found friends, both here where I live and online, who share her interests and don't consider her odd when she doesn't particularly want to watch football...
BUTT SHRINKING, SELF EXPANDING!
Maybe that's how it works!
Thursday, November 11, 2010
All you folks who were interested in the Intensity Walk DVD (which may be hard to get now), listen up! The final segment of the Ultimate Collection is the same 4-mile super challenge walk that is on the Intensity DVD. However the other two Intensity segments that I liked so well are NOT here, and I don't know if they've been reissued or not.
However, this DVD is WORTH THE MONEY!
Even if you already have the other one, what it adds is great!
I the first 1-mile segment. BEST arms workout I have found on a Leslie DVD! She uses weighted balls but I used 2 lb. hand weights & by the end, my arms KNEW they had worked!
I like the fact that all these miles begin with warmup that's not too long (impatient me!) and end with cooldown that's equally time-efficient.
PLUS I like the bright blue tops that they're all wearing - AND I am happy that this is a different group of people. (Oh, I'm so judgmental - there's always one who irritates me & this time it's Mary Kay. But she's worse on the Intensity Walk DVD - or maybe it's just the goofy shorts she has on in that one...anyway, maybe you will like her!)
Second segment is 2-mile brisk walk, and they're all wearing hot pink. (Mary Kay is there!) This mile is not super-intense, just moderate -- good for a day when you're a little tired. They use the stretchy band for arms toward the middle of the 2nd mile, but they skip the triceps kickbacks. Some days, I don't WANT to do triceps kickbacks!
You can pump this mile up by doing the kicks with a boost - first time I did this segment, I found myself just doing that for fun! Amazing!
Third segment is 3-mile advanced walk. Aqua tops, and this one is from an older DVD, you can tell by the location. It's definitely advanced. Mile 2 really pumps it up. Pace slows down a bit in mile 3 where you get triceps kickbacks with the stretchy. Whew. Plus some deep chest work which could help your pushups... By the time she starts double kickbacks, you think, "Oh NO..." but and you usually survive! Slower pace helps.
Fourth segment is the 4-mile super challenge that I like so much from the Intensity Walk DVD. They're wearing black with a bit of white. This IS a challenge.
All in all, this DVD is a BEST BUY! You get 10 different miles, in very use-able combinations. Mile 1 is now my absolute fave mile for arms, which was my focus today.
Another plus is that some of the walkers chime in with remarks on this one, it's not just all Leslie. Although her patter on this one is mostly very much to the point and helpful - not quite as "folksy" as it can get.
The only down for me on this one is that stupid "WalkPowerWalk" song which begins segments 3 & 4. I'm glad she put that one to bed on later DVDs!
Leslie for another DVD!
Saturday, November 06, 2010
This one's for CHIPPEE! I made this a few nights ago and she asked how it was done. Turns out there are lots of different variations.
I used a recipe on Eating Well but changed it somewhat - maybe not for the better - but the peels still turned out yummy!
Here is a link to an even more complete recipe, with variations for peels in syrup and dried peels coated with sugar.
My approach was a bit easier and quicker.
I used 3 pink grapefruit, approx. 2 cups sugar, and 1/4 cup liquid (half reconstituted lemon juice, half water).
The original recipe said to use only 2 tsp. lemon juice - but I was afraid this would not be enough. I'll try this small amount the next time...
Scrub the grapefruit. Divide the peel into quarters by scoring the peel and then peeling it away from the fruit. I left the white pith since I like to eat that too, but some like to remove the pith. Save the fruit for breakfast!
Cut each quarter into 6-8 lengthwise strips.
Put peels in a large saucepan or wok and cover with cold water.
Bring to a boil, blanch for 1 minute, then drain. Repeat this 2 more times.
Here's what the blanched peels look like.
Then combine 1 cup of the sugar with lemon juice mixture and peels in the same pan.
Cook, stirring, over low heat until sugar is dissolved.
Simmer, stirring fairly often, until most liquid has evaporated - 30 to 45 minutes.
Let peels cool for several hours, on either a wire rack or wax paper. Wire rack would be better but I don't have one. so I layered wax paper in a square pan.
Roll in remaining sugar. You can do this after drying them - or after cooling them overnight in the fridge - or you actually could just eat them as they are!
I like the tartness that remains when you blanch them for only one minute. Others might prefer to cook them longer to get rid of that taste.
I think they would be very nice dried, but I am afraid to leave them overnight to dry, I think I might have a counter full of bugs feasting on the sugar!
Calories per piece: 25. 7 g carbs. 2 mg potassium.
I must admit they don't last me very long!
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