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Day 24: Where are the whistles, the wolf calls? Hello? I'm right here!

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

(or..Is it wolf whistles & cat calls?)

Yes it is silly. But it's my silly, so it's ok. I miss being LOOKED at. I was exploring my new Spark Team and one of the post was Why do you want to lose weight? And one of my reasons is not being seen any more. I know that may be shallow, but it's true. When I was younger I used to get smiled at and a little flirt here and there by all different colors, ages, sizes, etc. Not any more. Sometimes I feel invisible. I DO still get a smile here and there but it's normally just a courtesy smile. It's not that, "I wish we weren't married so I could grab you smile." lol!
AND YES, I am married. AND YES I DO love my husband. I have no plans to run off with "Jose". BUT I do appreciate a good ogling from a passer by. I never realized I did until it didn't happen any more. 10 years and 60+ pounds really puts the invisibility cloak on. It used to gross me out when a greasy guy would walk by and be like, Hey baby. Now even the greasy guys walk right on by. lol!

OK, enough of that. That IS only a wee part of me and my journey towards being a hot momma. lol! IT IS all about honesty right? :)

I have been SO tired this week. I have NOT been sleeping well. I wonder if it's the whatever kind of infection I have. When I went to the Dr. last week my levels and functions were good but I had to go in again so they could do a full urine analysis because I have white blood cells and other fun stuff in there. It's probably just a bladder infection or UTI. I should probably know today, but I wonder if that could be having an effect on my sleep. I don't know, maybe I'm grasping at straws. All I know is, I'M TIRED! I have not been sleeping well. You're supposed to sleep better not worse if you eat right, exercise, get on a routine, etc., etc. but it's SO much worse. emoticon
Again, hopefully they will fix me so at least I can see if it is the infection or not. If it's not, I don't know. I'll.. I don't know. I'm too tired to think. lol!

I was going to also talk about the other topic in my new team forum, but I think I will wait a bit.. Until I wake up some more. :) Have a Good Morning!!! Off to rally the troops for another day!

  
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SILVERBIRCH65 1/25/2012 9:58AM

    I think part of it is that when you are "older," it's got so much less of a scary edge when some guy comes at you with a big noise--so it is easier to sass back and enjoy it.

So, yeah, the wolf whistles are enjoyable at this stage--when one gets them! *g*


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TWINKIEQUEEN 1/25/2012 8:49AM

    nothing wrong with wanting a wolf whistle once in a while...whatever it takes to get you to where you want to be! good luck!

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SARASMILING 1/25/2012 8:00AM

    very true! Now I won't feel so bad one day (not too far into the future) when I'm thin and gorgeous about being a little conceited. lol!

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RUBY_TUESDAY21 1/25/2012 7:41AM

    How many of us can honestly say, "I want to be able to run a marathon/power lift/swim the English channel but I don't give a flip about what I look like in a pair of jeans..."? Not me! I want to be healthy, but I want to buy cute clothes, too, lol. And a wolf whistle once a while wouldn't be bad, either... ha

Hope you feel better soon and can get some sleep!

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Day 23: Digging Down Deep!

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

I'm really trying to dig down deep this morning for some pep and motivation. I woke up at 4:30am and couldn't go back to sleep. Needless to say, I'm not feeling too peppy this morning. I've been doing my normal looking for motivation by looking around SP, looking at blogs, possible new spark teams, etc. I'm starting to wake up. If I didn't have to be quiet I think I would do my new Wii game to wake up (the GG's Dance Workout). I will do that later though. I've gotta get moving though or I'm going to crawl back into bed just to lay there. I CAN DO THIS. NEW day, NEW start. I CAN DO THIS!

emoticonTODAY I WILL.. WAKE UP! lol!
emoticonTODAY I WILL.. drink 12 glasses of water
emoticonTODAY I WILL.. sweat!
emoticonTODAY I WILL.. not lose control to the munchies!


"It is never safe to look into the future with eyes of fear."
Edward Henry Harriman

  
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RUBY_TUESDAY21 1/24/2012 10:39AM

    Sounds kind of like my day yesterday... The 3 year old woke me up at 4:30 and wanted to play. No amount of coffee seemed to be enough. Looks like you've got a good plan in place, though :)

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SUPERMOUSE35 1/24/2012 8:03AM

    Best of luck meeting your goals today!

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Hey! It's nice to veet you! (no, not a miss spelling, just a corny introduction)

Monday, January 23, 2012

I ran out of time yesterday, so this morning I'm having some Pretty Me Up time!

I have conditioner doing some magic (hopefully) and I did a clay mask (the first time in AT LEAST a year)..


(Look, I'm all crackly!) :)

I EVEN veeted my legs!!



On another note, I also started taking some advice from the Flylady when it comes to my water bottle. First I filled it with the measuring cup to see how many cups it holds (a little over 3). Then I got 4 colored hair bands and put them on the bottle so after I finish drinking one bottle of water I'll take off one hairband. I didn't used to have a problem keeping up with how many I was drinking until I started going over 8 and drinking more and more easily. I want to get up to 12 8oz cups a day so I put 4 hairbands on this bottle. I LOVE this bottle! I love how much it holds without being huge and I LOVE the top, how it opens and how where you drink out of it it's not a sucky thing but a hole. (if that makes since) :) Plus, it's cute.



And on ANOTHER note. :) A Proud of Me Moment!
I've been a horrible bed maker. I get up early(5-5:30am). Marc gets up late (10:30-11:30am) because he works late. So by the time he gets up it would even cross my mind to make the bed (and apparently his either). But I've been making a point to make it lately. I've made it 5 out of 6 of the last 6 days! Go me! It's becoming a habit and I LOVE when things start to become a habit and not such a chore.

Here's the proof in the pudding..


Off to go kick some more chore butt! emoticon

  
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SARASMILING 1/27/2012 6:18PM

    IT IS SO GOOD TO SEE YOUR FACE!! We did get it at Kohl's! I love it.. a little too much. It took a long time to actually use it when company wasn't coming, but then I thought.. If I died in a wreck or something I would kick myself thinking I should've used that damn comforter! lol!
I just jumped back on. Hopefully it will stick a little better this time. I need it to. My knees hurt. lol!
I hope you're doing good. :)

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MELBINNC 1/27/2012 8:47AM

    LMAO Sara!! We have the same bedding!!! I bet you got your set at Kohls though, huh? We bought it when it was still at BB&B. Grrr.... I'm trying to get back on the Spark Wagon!!


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SARASMILING 1/24/2012 6:25AM

    Thank you! I'm actually pretty proud of our bedroom set. We got it at a great deal from this lady. It wasn't something that I would have gone into a store and picked out but I'm a sucker for a deal. All it took was polishing up and painting the hardware and it was like new!

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ME-N-MY-SHOES 1/23/2012 12:38PM

    That is a BEAUTIFUL BEDROOM! WOW. So relaxing...

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MINNA72 1/23/2012 10:56AM

    Way to go! Pure inspiration! Love your pretty bed, too.

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NED333 1/23/2012 10:36AM

    You inspire me!!

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Day 22: I WIN! I WIN! I'm in the overweight zone!! Take that Smirky Boy!

Monday, January 23, 2012

LOL! I win the race! I am officially in the overweight zone and out of that dirty word "O" zone. I actually got there the morning after the contest started but I wanted a few days to pass just to make sure it wasn't just a fluke. SO now I get to be smirky! LOL! And of course after I weighed in this morning and my numbers went down again, my new theme song started playing in my head.. "I am the champion, I am the champion, No time for losers- Cause I am the champion - of the world!!!" (Yes I changed we to I but I'm allowed. It's MY theme song of the day)

I already got my prize yesterday. I bought the Wii Gold's Gym Dance Workout. I needed to add some more sweat and interest to my exercise. AND it worked. It really makes you work harder for your calories burned then Wii Fit Plus does. It's fun too. Some of the dance things were harder for my non rhythm feet to keep up with, but I especially liked the boxing part of it. That was fun and you feel it too.
I want to slowly build up a little bit of a variety. I'm not sure why, but I seem to do better with a game than I do a video. Somehow either I fell less alone, or more accountable because it's keeping up with your time and calories, but I do. We can't afford a gym membership right now so I'm going to make the most of what we can. (Or what I can sneak in every now and then.) Shhh! :)

I only have a little under 3 pounds left to get to my Feb. 12th goal. I don't want to get cocky though because I know how I can go a week or even two without losing even one pound. BUT I'm getting there!!

It's SO nice being excited instead of depressed about your weight! So nice. :)

I read a testimonial in a Flylady email (I normally hate getting the million a day but this one stuck out). I thought I would share a little bit of it with you.

It's was talking about how when we are losing weight and adopting an all around healthier lifestyle, or as Flylady likes to call it, getting rid of Body Clutter, we are also losing..

"Weight of depression

Weight of anger

Weight of perfectionism

Weight of fear

Weight of stress

Weight of anxiety

Weight of `not being good enough'

Weight of not being perfect"


I just loved that, because it is so true. Because to go through this journey successfully you need to not only lose the body weight but to also lose the weight of those things listed above. And it's nice to know that it is all part of the journey.. YOUR journey, MY journey. And even though Marc and I had a little race.. The big picture is not a race, it's a journey that you take in your own time.



emoticonTODAY I WILL drink my water!
emoticonTODAY I WILL sweat!
emoticonTODAY I WILL not lose control and over eat.
emoticonTODAY I WILL conquer my fears because...

"I am the champion, I am the champion, No time for losers- Cause I am the champion - of the world!!!"
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"I care not what others think of what I do, but I care very much about what I think of what I do! That is character." Theodore Roosevelt

  
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RYDERB 1/27/2012 8:38PM

    I just stopped by to see how you started off your week! I LOVE your blogs! Thanks for the inspiration, and for adding me as a friend.

Marki

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NED333 1/23/2012 10:34AM

    So exciting!! Congratulations!

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SHRINKING_SARA 1/23/2012 7:57AM

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RUBY_TUESDAY21 1/23/2012 7:51AM

    It never ceases to amaze me how much the emotional and mental aspects of adapting to the new lifestyle seem to eclipse the physical challenges of it. And a big congratulations to you!!

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HELOVESDOTS 1/23/2012 7:26AM

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Day 21: Soulful Sunday

Sunday, January 22, 2012

(I am so proud that I have been blogging straight for 21 days! Yay me!)
Today is Sunday. This morning we will go to Faith Formation and then church. We also go to my MIL's house on Sundays for lunch. I really hate to say this but, I don't look forward to this. She makes big meals with fried meats, mash potatoes and gravy, and a table full of desserts. And she's not even from the south. She also constantly asks, "Have you lost any weight? Has Marc lost any weight?" And for some reason when she asks, I take it negatively. There's no, "Wow, you look great. Did you lose weight?" It's always just, "Have you lost any weight yet? How much?" I KNOW I take things she says too personally a lot. A LOT. Actually most of the times we go over there I don't leave feeling good about myself. She's always talking about how big my SIL is and I think I may be bigger than she is. How Joey is too skinny, how Jacob needs to lose weight. Nothing is ever positive. I can't take it! Marc is a lucky boy that I put up with going over there EVERY Sunday. Sunday is supposed to be a Renew your Soul, Renew Your Spirit day, NOT a smash your spirit like a bug day.
I'm really going to try and walk in there today though with an open mind, and an open heart. I can do this. I'm also going to try and not get stuck there until 4pm. I need to get home so I can get my exercise in and a few chores done before tomorrow.
I want to have enough time to get everything done in time to have a Pretty Me Up time. :) I REALLY need to give myself a pedicure and manicure. My toes are awful! Who am I kidding, so are my finger nails. :) Maybe even a face mask? That would be fun! :)

I came down .2 pounds again this morning! I really need to step it up though if I'm going to meet my Feb 12th goal. I've been slacking a little here and there and letting in a few treats that should not have been allowed. I have been doing good though on drinking my water like a fish. I need to step up my exercise though. I KNOW I DO! I've been taking the easy road on that and just telling myself, well at least I got my 10-60 minutes in. I NEED to sweat! I CAN DO THIS! I CAN DO THIS!
I wish I could just go to fat camp for a month. A food and exercise rehab maybe. Something out of this house, out of this town where you have people there watching you, pushing you until you get the hang of things.
BUT, stepping back into reality, I CAN DO THIS. I CAN DO THIS! I CAN DO THIS!

TODAY I WILL drink my water.

TODAY I WILL be mindful of what I put into my body and why.

TODAY I WILL put some effort into sweating.

TODAY I WILL DIG IN AND FIND PEACE WITHIN ME AND FIGHT TO KEEP IT THERE. I WILL NOT LET WORDS OF DISCOURAGEMENT AFFECT ME. I CHOOSE WHAT CAN HURT ME. ME. IT'S UP TO ME TO MAKE THIS HAPPEN, AND TO MAKE IT HAPPEN IN A POSITIVE WAY.

TODAY I WILL let love get me through, love for myself and for my husband to put up with his mother. lol!

I CAN DO THIS!!





"Be wise in the use of time. The question in life is not how much time do we have. The question is what shall we do with it."
- Anna Robertson Brown, author

  
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SARASMILING 1/22/2012 3:32PM

    Thank you! It wasn't too bad. It helps when my B/SIL have to go somewhere afterwards then it's pushed along. :) And I do have to remember that, that she is a depressed person. I really need to start feeling more sympathy instead of hostility. Now to get my stuff done! :)

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ME-N-MY-SHOES 1/22/2012 8:53AM

    You can do it! When I read your blog, I couldn't help feeling for you! And it may be time to have a talk with DH about maybe having an agreed upon time to leave... It's horrible that you don't get to spend much of your Sunday relaxing! One thing that has also helped me in the past is just remembering when I am around negative people that they are obviously not so happy as they put on if they are so concerned about everyone else all the time... Just take a deep breath and make the most of it. Then enjoy your Pretty Me Up time! I just love that! emoticon

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