Wednesday, October 16, 2013
Every week when I look at the scale go down, I always think "I wish it was a little quicker" but I'm really glad the weight is coming off even if sometimes it's only half a pound at a time!!
This week I reached the 50 pounds "mile stone" and I'm feelling pretty good, no cravings, no temptations.
Last winter I was allowing myself a few treats here and there because I was thinking that going for the long run, I might need to avoid frustration (I lost 30 pounds last year) but I think it's actually easier in my case to just go cold turckey and not eat chocolate any more....well until Christmas, I will have a few pieces that day, and that's it!.
I've been reading several books about food adddiction in the past months, and I'm tryin g to combine all informations useful for my case, and after a few decade of lost battles against chocolate....I'm finally winning one! Even if I gained most of the weight with the pregnancies and several health issues, I didn't lose the weight because my extra calories did feed the extra weight...it came from sweets.
Younger I was a smoker (I know it was stupid, but I was young and in an environment where everybody was smoking) and I stopped the very same day I got my lab results : I was pregnant!
It was more than 17 years ago, and I never smoked again. Yet, I had cravings for ten years!! The powerful chemicals infused my body for a very long time....what a shame...
Whith chocolate, it seems easier. I don't buy it, my kids eat some outside with hubby, I don't smell it in the street ....no cravings!! so far so good...
I bought a few pieces of clothing this month, the size I will wear when the weight loss will be over, next year. I did put it in display in my bedroom, to think about my goal each day.
Looking at those lovely colors and shapes day after day, I don't feel like eating sweets, I just try to focuse on thinking it will look good on me....and that may be for Christmas I will be half way there...
Little by little, the goal comes closer!!
Monday, September 02, 2013
Hello my friends!
I was not very active on SP for the past six months, the main reason being that I came back from Hawaii with a bad case of dengue (a kind of tropical flu but that stays for weeks...or in my case months...I was a real ghost..). And when in June I finally got better, we had visitors all Summer!
With all those major changes (being sick I lost weight, but then we traveled accross the country for almost two months so eating in restaurants all the time put me back where I was at the end of my " serious dieting".....even if I was careful!)
So no gain, no lost....starting fresh....almost!
This Summer we did renew our vows, even I was still sick a few days before...and with the issue that my dress was too big, I had to order one two weeks before the day...
Great memories, we really had fun for our "funny kitch ceremony with Elvis".
There is always a down side to everything....my besti was with us for that part of the trip, with his family. I know him for 22 years, one of my closest friend since Uni.
To make it short, I discovered his wife, that I know for 15 years, is actually homophobic and racist! unbelivable! I was so shocked!
I never really thought much about her, she is "nice" we talked about kids or cooking, but since I do not leave in France for more than 10 years now, we only saw each other for holidays or week end when we are in France. So I guess that's probably why I never realized before....that or I must be blind/stupid....who knows!
At some point I had a big fight with her, since she actually started to argue for no reasons with me. I think she saw the way I looked at her and she found a way out.
In the back of my head was the fact that I couldn't believe my friend would actually choose someone like her to have kids with!
They left early, I was sad thinking that I probably lost my friend....but he actually doesn't defend her, wants to stay in touch without her involved....and made clear that he doesn't share her ideas, and that he realized what she thinks when it was too late, he was already attached to her.....he thought (or hoped) he could change her....but he didn't...so sad!
Anyway, after all that turmoil, kids are back in school, and I'm ready to go back to a routine with work out and counting calories!
I hope you all had a great Summer!
Sunday, February 10, 2013
I got all my results yesterday for my last big check up. It was covering many aspects (heart, cholesterol, liver, diabetes etc) and I got better results this year than two years ago. Yet it doesn't explain why I still lose my hair like crazy because everything is good...but at least I'm not borderline for diabetes and that's huge!
It's amazing how only six months of diet can change all those numbers, and that's a big push to continue in the right direction.
I'm in a better place now than I was two years ago, and I know that reaching a decent size/weight will make exercising much easier, because today it is still a struggle sometimes. My injuries come and goes, I have good weeks and very bad weeks, so I do not exercise as much as I really want and my weight loss is not as fast as I wished. I lost the weight gained during the holidays, but then plateau again....of course I could try to eat less and see if it makes a difference, but I think that if I start to starve, it will trigger compulsions, so I prefer to wait and try to exercise more when possible.
I was reading a magazine about a French website where you can calculate your "weight goal" with other tools than BMI. The size of you wrist, the number of pregnancies, your highest weight, the weight you stayed the longest in, your age etc....it was interesting to see that from that doctor's chart, my goal weight should be 86 kgs, and not 72...anything under 100 will make me happy anyway, so I will see when I get there....but knowing that somewhere I could be in my highest pre-pregnancy weight and still be in an healthy range was nice, because it seems more reachable now...I could reach that goal before next Christmas....that would be nice..really really nice....
Friday, January 18, 2013
My 4 pounds gained during the holidays are finally gone! Glad I didn't even change my weight on SP, I was determined to go back to my last "plateau", so it's done. I must say that after so many restaurant meals and too much chocolate, I was glad to be back to my normal food/routine! And I have no craving at all, which is really nice.
Now I can't wait to go under that very same weight that has been stuck with me for November and part of December.
I know I exercise a little bit more lately since my injuries are better, but unfortunately I'm not sure I can get ready for that race in March.
It's only six weeks away and I feel "weak" when I go over 3 miles....which is only half of the 10k!!
I don't know if I'm am still too heavy, or it's because of the weather, or all those sick people around me and my immune system is fighting hard, but I'm not pushing right now, last time I did that five years ago, my lungs got so infected that I had three rounds of antibiotics, and several scary visits to the emergency....My specialist did warn me at that time to go easy during work out...lesson learned!
I will be sad if I have to miss that race, but at the same time I'm trying to look at the good side : I'm more than 40 pounds lighter than I was in July 2012, and I feel so much better!
One side of being tired, and I know it's winter, it could be the diet also even if it's really healthy...but I'm loosing my hair a lot again. My hair started to thin when I had hormonal changes : I tried the pill, I had my first child, and after each pregnancy, but during my treatment for PE, with the blood thinning medication, I was almost bold for six month. I was unlucky to suffer from one of the side effect of the medication, but at the same time I was alive! so I didn't really care. I was wearing large headband to cover the balding area (mostly the crown).
My hair did grow back eventually, but not completely. I saw several doctors, had several treatments, but they all said that unless I put Minoxidil all the time it will continue to fall because it's also in my genes (and I didn't try Minoxidil because I know it was a heart medication at the beginning, and the idea of using a medication even if it's on my skin, didn't feel right for some reason....I would be unlucky with some other side effect probably). May be cosmetic surgery (hair implant) could be an option, but only when I will be back in France, it's a lot cheaper.
So right now, I'm considering a hair piece or even a wig. I wear hats, berets, large headbands, but when I'm indoor, I have to take out my hat!
It's a sensitive subject because changing my hair style doesn't really please my kids, they say I look funny. My husband is nicer and says that he only need to get use to it (translation : you look funny)....
I'm wondering : what do you think about it my Spark Friends?
I never actually tried those in public, only in my bathroom...
The photos are not great, I used my phone because of the larger screen to look in the mirror. I tried on two wigs, one brown that I bought for me, one blond I bought for my mother in law (she is in chemo, I bought it on sale so she would have a spare) but I wanted to try it to see how short hair would look.
Is it obvious it's a wig?
Does it look that fake?
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