Wednesday, September 21, 2011
So I went to the doctor today for my annual exam, got on the scale as usual, but wasn't dreading it this time, I was actually looking forward to it. The nurse looked surprised and asked me to step on again. Apparently I'm down 54 pounds since July 2010! I couldn't believe it. 35 of those pounds has been since the end of May when I decided I finally was ready to change.
Speaking of change, there has been plenty of that this year. My year started with a divorce and losing my dream house in the process. They say when one door closes another better one opens. I've found that to be true so far. Since February I've moved into my newly built home, got a new car, earned a raise at my job and am feeling more confident than ever in my abilities as a single parent. I'm not saying it's easy, cause it has been a rough year to say the least, but I'm amazed at my ability to manage and juggle everything. My son seems happy and healthy and I know I'm doing everything I can to make his life a good life. More than anything in this world I want him to be happy, proud and to succeed. I want him to look back at his childhood and say, "yup, my mom did a great job and I wouldn't change a thing."
I hope by setting a good example with my eating and exercising, that he will never know the shame and discomfort that comes with being overweight. I want more than anything for him to know the value of hard work and setting goals. That sometimes you reach for the moon, and although you may not reach it, you will at least come up with some stars.
I've never been happier than I am now, which I never thought I'd get to this point. I have a wonderful man in my life who supports me no matter what and is the missing piece of me that I'd been searching for for so long. My son is my world and my reason for living, I have my health, a good job and own my own home. I'm on my way to my goal weight and am now within 20 pounds of that goal and my future has never looked brighter. I've finally realized and accepted that I can't make everyone happy and am confident enough to do what needs to be done for myself and my son and I don't care what others think. If they don't support my decisions, then I don't need them in my life. It feels great to finally not care what others think, and not just say it, but actually mean it.
Here's to closing out this year in my new body and ringing in the New Year a thinner more confident me.