Thursday, April 17, 2014
Still trying to keep the main focus on the smaller goal, yet my mind still slips into looking to far into this and what if I just lose one more pound here, or lose 3 pounds a week instead of 2...or this, or that, ya know?
I just want to be happy and CONTENT with a loss and reach a goal. I have not set a time limit on it. I just want to reach it.
Emotional week for me this past week. Crying over stuff. I wish I were a stronger and more confident person. I wish I were someone that could be a leader instead of a follower.
Easter is almost here. It wont amount to much in this house. My son is in the Army and is out in Kansas (Ohio here). My daughter is splitting her time between her dad's and her boyfriends and I MIGHT get to see her and my granddaughter sometime Sunday night, big woop. I probably wont, or it will be nearly bedtime.
My parents are both gone, they made a big deal about family Easter dinner. Just sort of depressing.
My husband said something about going to his brothers, which I don't really want to do. I am tired of every family get together being about his family that Id just rather be alone and probably cry over not having any family. Childish? Now that's a whole other issue. lol.
On the upside. 45 minutes on my bike this morning. Have to get ready for work in a little bit. Water *check*.