Monday, October 05, 2009
so today I weighed and measured myself, truthfully. Funny how even to yourself you try to lie. I put my weight lose against my weight to lose and saw that at this rate it will take me to next year to lose all the weight I want to lose. You know what? When I get to that milestone, great. Weather it takes 1 year or less. The point is to lose the weight.
I have been feeling down a bit lately. Not to sure why. Perhaps the fact that my feet have been hurting so much and it makes it difficult for me to get out there. Wondered last night if it is time to go to see my doctor. Have not done it because was so sure that the chemo has caused some nerve damage in my feet. Maybe I do not want to hear that. Push on.
Also I seem to be stuck everyday. The day ends and I wonder what I have done. Seems like less and less each day. I will get my food diary under control. Have missed a few days in the last couple of weeks. If I am the one who has to be the strong one, then I will just have to do it. I am strong.
So, this is the new month and just think. Even if I only take off the amount of weight I took off the first month. I will be that much closer to goal. So get out there and walk
As best I can. Be happy and love life. I know how much I want it. I love myself and only want what is best for me.