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Feeling down today.

Tuesday, June 09, 2009


I'm just down about my weight today. It just doesn't seem to want to come off in a timely manner these days. I know it's my own fault too. If I could just stay on track with healthy eating, I know it would come off. I stay within my calorie range most days of the week. Occasionally on weekends, I slip up. My food choices are not always healthy even though I'm staying within a healthy range of calories. I also know that I need to exercise each day. I get really lazy about that. I'm one of those people who HATE to exercise.

Now that I'm 55, my metabolism has slowed way down so I know exercise is more important than ever!

I am, however, going to start being a friend to myself which was the motivational or inspiration of the day that I received in my email today.
I need to treat myself as I would my best friend. I'm always nicer to others than I am myself. Being nice to myself means to give myself some slack in knowing that I am human while also treating my body with respect and eating healthier meals.

I think it also means that if I have issues that I can't seem to deal with by myself that I seek help from a doctor or professional if need be. I do not feel like my current physician is helping me at all. I still have the same health problems I have had since I started seeing her 8 years ago. I think it is time for change.

Before I eat or drink anything, I am going to try to remember to ask myself, "is this healthy for me?" If the answer is 'no' then try to find a healthier substitution. I just have to be conscious of what I am putting into my mouth, my brain, my body, my emotions and so on.

I am tired of making my body the garbage disposal.

I am seeking balance in all areas.


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    don't be down!

you are succeeding in staying within your calories - this is good!!

one step at a time, feel good about the achievements and know that in time it will all come together!

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HOT_FLASH 6/9/2009 11:11AM

    I know exactly how you feel. I find that I get really down in cycles - hormonal, probably - so I just try to endure those days by doing what I can, let it pass, then the next day comes along and things just seem brighter. Of course, the weight fluctuations accompany those hormonal days, so that really adds insult to injury. :-/
Some of my coping strategies: Get outside and soak up a few rays if it's sunny - 20 minutes of sun exposure is said to improve mood! Or spend 15 minutes doing something you love, like reading, playing a game, listening (even better, dancing!) to your favorite music. You've already taken a VERY positive step by blogging about it!
Remember that being your own friend requires being kind to yourself, so speak to yourself like you would a cherished friend.
Last thought - Yesterday is history, so just do your best with today - it can be liberating to stop looking in that rear view mirror!
Hang in there!!!! We're creating healthier futures with the steps we take today!

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CINDYHOUGHTON 6/9/2009 11:09AM

    Welcome to the wekend destryers! Many of us have problems on the weekends. It took me ten days to lose the pizza I ate on a Sunday. Your mind is already beginning to change so you are on your way. Do what you know to do and congratulate yourself on what you know you did right and don't beat yourself up for the mistakes. Tip the scale in the area of the good and you will begin to see what you want to. If nothing else you can have the stisfaction of knowing you are eating healthier. Hang in there.

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Going through my old blogs

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

I was reading old blogs and they left me with mixed emotions. I'm trying to stay positive and move forward without looking back. I am so sick of yo-yo dieting and here I am again. How did I get here again? I was healthy and about 50 pounds lighter this time last year. Now, I can barely get out of bed in the mornings due to a stiff and sore lower back.

This aging thing sux but I guess it's better than the alternative. Do I know what I did wrong? yes.

If anything is going to help, then I need to make it a lifestyle. So, I have to re evaluate all I do and pay attention to me again.

When I was working out with weights and actually taking a weight training class where I work, I felt better but he almost killed me (at least I thought so) at every class. I won't even walk down to the gym because I'm afraid he will see me. hehehe.

But after a year of eating badly, drinking badly, not exercising and being under tremendous stress, my body is now talking to me and fussing loudly.

So, here's to June, 2009 and my second day of the YOAD challenge.

Wish me luck!


  Member Comments About This Blog Post:


    you don't need luck - you need to cut yourself a bit of slack!!

you can do this, there is a website in front of you that has all the practical and emotional tools and support you need!

embrace the new way of life one step at a time, work slowly through the spark stages and use the forums as much as you can

we are here for you!


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Bit off more than I can chew

Wednesday, April 08, 2009

Well, here it is April already. I'm making small changes but nothing has caught on yet since I lost focus last year. I will get there though. I'm just doing too much with working full time, being a mother and wife, and going to school full time to try to finish up a bachelor's degree that I have been working on since 1986.
In the meantime, life stills goes on and I tend to reach for the quick-fix when it comes to my diet because I'm so short on time these days. That is not an excuse; it's just what is happening.
I will get back to me. I'm taking the summer off from school. I will be busy trying to get my daughter off to college (which i'm stressing about) and get me and my husband transferred to another college. All this organizing and paperwork is driving me nuts.
As soon as this semester is over with, I'm going to get outside again and make time for me and my health.
I feel old and ragged and stiff....all the things I was NOT when I was working out and eating right. I will get there again. Right now, I'm taking baby steps.

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MARIADALE 4/8/2009 3:09PM

    You will get through it all!

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A new page and new me.

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

I was bored with my spark page so decided to give it a new look and in the meantime decided that it was time for me to get a new look also. I've been struggling so long and been so wishy washy about my health. I'm going to use this site for my blogging and monitoring.

I am not going to weigh myself since my new weight is liable to depress me too much. I am just going to measure my waist for starters as a way to measure my progress. After all, the scale is not the only measure of success and for me it plays a mindgame that I'm tired of.

So my new program consists of healthy eating of lots of veggies and lean meats like chicken and turkey and fish. I will strive to post my progress as a blog along with all my difficulties and successes.

Hopefully, I can help me and maybe others who are struggling just like myself.

I'm not striving for perfection; but I'm striving for a more balanced life and a healthier one in all areas...mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually.

Ok, that about sums it up for today. To be continued.....

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TERRMOR 8/20/2008 7:54PM

    Way to go. I changed mine too. It helps. It is kind of like the first day of school. A start over of attitude. Good luck. I will check it out.


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BIGNOMOREIN09 8/20/2008 9:57AM

    What a great idea. Isn't it wonderful that each new day presents new possibilities? You can do this! What's that old saying? Winners never quit, and quitters never win! You are a winner!

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KALISWALKER 8/20/2008 12:45AM

    Make changes to your SP is a good way to refocus. Keep going, we can do it!


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SPARKLEMAMMY 8/19/2008 4:06PM

    emoticonon your first step to a new you Noeleen

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SKINNYNANNY 8/19/2008 2:25PM

    we all need motivators to help you re focus. I am glad that you found something that coud re motivate you! I look forward to seeing the new you shining through!

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What does your conscience tell you?

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

Well, today's quote hit home to me and I rarely pay attention to them for long. But this one was definitely for me.

Conscience is the inner voice that warns us that someone might be looking.

- HL Mencken, author, critic and newspaperman

First of all, as far as my health is concerned, the only person looking is me. I know when I'm not doing right. I know exactly what I should be doing. I would never ever ever turn out a half-@ssed project in my professional life or towards anything I do for my family and friends. So, WHY do I do that to myself?! When you wake up feeling guilty about something, then it's time for a change. I am so sick of whining to myself about my failures. So, today, my message back to myself is:

"SMACK! Snap OUT of it. Behave yourself and stop whining unless you are going to make a conscious effort to change!"

Ok, I heard that. I am DONE with the whining. I am ready for change and I am ready for the me inside that wants to get out!!!!!!!!

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BIGNOMOREIN09 4/1/2009 2:57PM

    EXACTLY what I needed to hear to day. THANK YOU!!!!! You're a great motivator.


Comment edited on: 4/1/2009 2:57:45 PM

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JAEAV4178 6/4/2008 12:28AM

    hello my name is jessica and i can relate to your blog. I have done my best at raising two boys alone, got promoted at work, maintained a balanced life for my children.----BUT i forget that i am important too. I should be my own motivation to my own success. An that is how i got here to this site..looking for help and support from people who are going through the same thing.
I have a long way to go. and i am happy to say that my friends are getting involved in my success.... I CAN DO THIS...

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JIBBIE49 6/3/2008 11:42PM

    I was checking back to see how you are doing and I'm SOOOOOO happy you are doing so great. emoticon
You can do this, if you will just stay with it to the end. Keep going.

I'm reading "SHRINK YOURSELF" by ROGER GOULD, M.D. on stopping emotional eating. If you have a problem with that, I would say to read his book as it is the best I have found for help in that area. He says "If you can't manage your stress, you will never be able to manage your weight." emoticon

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KALISWALKER 6/3/2008 8:28PM

    I really like your quote, we all have that inner voice.


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