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trying to get back on track

Tuesday, September 03, 2013

Well, I've gained weight back and want to nip it in the bud. I'm totally frustrated with myself but I know circumstances and life get in the way sometimes. Even my own self-sabotaging habits keep me from being who I really want to be. So, with that said, I am starting over to lose the extra 30 lbs I put back on. It seems like it came on overnight but I know it was in the past year so I should not expect to lose it overnight. I'm going to be positive about this and I am using the new sparkcoach feature to help me get back on track. I want to be healthy also; not just slim. I have had complications with my gastric bypass operation in that the opening from my pouch to the small intestine has gotten large so I'm hungry a lot of the time. That is frustrating because my food empties out too soon. Probably even sooner then it did before my surgery. I'm not blaming anyone but myself and I know I can do this. I'm just going to keep going forward and pushing for my goal again.

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CORTNEY-LEE 9/4/2013 12:36AM

    have you done the 5 day pouch test? That might help get you back on track.

I know you can do it!

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HINK2013 9/3/2013 2:13PM

    You can do it.... one step at a time!!! emoticon

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'You is kind. You is smart. You is important.

Friday, February 22, 2013

My oldest daughter recently wrote this to me in a graduation card. It was my graduation from college with my bachelor of science degree. I graduated summa cum laude which is highest honors. I am 58. I have been working on that as a personal goal for my whole life. I had many stops and starts given how life sometimes gets in the way but I kept on trudging along a little at a time when I could because it was important to me. I always felt inferior to other people. I always felt that I was fat and stupid. That's hard to overcome when you have been told that as a young child. I still struggle with it but I still trudge on through life. I'm happy to have lost all the weight that I have and have gained my educational degree. But, I still have a lot to learn. I want to learn and to keep going and hopefully help others along the way.

When I read that on my card, I cried because she knew that's how I was feeling. At the graduation ceremony, someone walked across the stage and her sorority sisters yelled that out to her. I was in tears again. The girl next to me said, "Awh, let me give you a hug!" It was sweet.

We are all connected in many ways. We all have the same insecurities. But, we can all be strong women with support from our family and friends.

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SAMSMOM60 2/28/2013 11:44PM

    Thank you everyone. I so appreciate all your support. I'm just now reading this but this week I really needed your comments. Thank you.

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FERFER74 2/24/2013 12:54PM

    I love you mom! And remember... You is beautiful too!

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KOSHIE1 2/24/2013 3:25AM

I couldn't find the right words... and I can't even find the right emoticon....
we are ALL proud of you!

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MAIZEY 2/23/2013 9:45PM

    Congrats on your achievements! Your hard work got you here!

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PATTYR81 2/23/2013 11:09AM

    Nice! Made my day!!
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WATCHMEGO! 2/23/2013 8:32AM

    That made me cry, in a good way! We are all so loved by so many but we tend to focus on the times we felt unloved and cling tight to those instead. At least I do. Working on it, and sounds like you are, too.


You have done a wonderful job raising a wonderful daughter! Now, THAT'S important!


And congrats on getting your degree!


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GRAPLEIRIS 2/22/2013 10:25PM

    Isn't it amazing what others readily see in us we can't see in ourselves?

Repeat it.

Believe it.

It's hard to build a solid house when you start off with a crappy foundation but...with work, anything can be fixed!

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NORWOODGIRL 2/22/2013 9:55PM

    Here, here! Well said.

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Trying to get back on track

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

I went to see RNY gastric bypass team today. I had a metabolic test done. It shows how many calories my body is actually burning at resting stage. It was better then I thought it would be which means I've been a bad girl. I was hoping to blame it on a slow metabolism even though I'm taking meds for hypothyroidism.

To be honest with myself and with everyone who read my board, I know what puts the weight back on better than anyone. First and foremost, wine. I love it. It does not love me so much. I have been guilty of drinking it to reduce the stress in my life and that really does work for me but not for my belly or my weight. Then, I feel guilty that I "cheated" even though I'm allowed it at my stage after RNY.

Stress has also had a lot to do with my weight eking up the scale. Lot's of stress and lots of wine make for a bad mix. belly fat again. Add to that about 15 pounds and guess who can't fit into her clothes anymore!? aaaaargh.

So, I came back to sparkpeople for support and for monitoring myself again. It's going to be a constant battle for me...or maybe I should just call it a constant journey. I need to always watch and measure what I eat and have some things in moderation.

I'd like to lose at least 10 pounds from this point.
Wish me luck and I hope I can get back down into the wardrobe I have. I do not want to buy any more! Yuk.


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ALISHAB3 2/22/2013 10:35AM

    You and me both: alcohol is a big no-no for me, I've put on weight in the past 4 months, and I really need to lose weight to get back into my clothes. We can do it together emoticon

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SOFT_VAL67 2/21/2013 10:41PM

    im sure you will get back on track soon
wine isnt my weakness, but when i do indulge its beer
haha, so, ive been trying really hard not to indulge, and stress, yes, i have enough for me and you and three more right about now
well good luck and we can do it

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CORTNEY-LEE 2/21/2013 10:08PM

    Best of luck to you!

Time to get back to basics! You can do it!!

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SAMSMOM60 2/21/2013 12:49PM

    Thanks, everyone. I appreciate the support! emoticon

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WATCHMEGO! 2/21/2013 5:59AM

    Wine is one of the things I love that I really have to limit to just few times a year. I will gain big time when I drink.

You can do it!

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HEATHERSUEM 2/20/2013 8:47PM

    I've been off track too, but I finally returned and am doing well. Hope the best for you. emoticon

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KNYAGENYA 2/20/2013 8:45PM

    You can do it. I have faith in you.

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Being at goal is not the end of the journey.

Monday, October 31, 2011

It truly is a happier day than most. I don't participate in the treat-giving anyway although my hubby loves to. He is out of town this Halloween so I'm just going to be a real witch and not pass out the regular sugar-laden snacks.

If I could pass out whole grains, fresh fruit and veggies, then maybe I would. Nawh! I still don't like going to the door.

Now that I've surpassed my original goal weight of 130 and I'm at 120, I just don't see the need to perpetuate my enemy by handing it out to little children. I know most people do not see sugar as an enemy but to me it was and I'm not going to change that.

I've always done better on a sugarfree diet with whole grains and fresh fruits and veggies along with low fat dairy and meats such as chicken and fish. I've also had to watch my calories too since I'm older now. Alot of things have changed for me. I don't starve myself but I try to keep my blood sugar even and include healthy foods in my daily diet.

Being at goal is not the end of the journey for me. It's only the beginning I have learned. I have to keep watching it daily. I'm just thankful for the tools that I have now and I'm able to use. That is going to help keep me honest and aware! Awareness is the key! I am learning more about awareness now. I'm talking about the whole person. I still have alot to learn about inner awareness and how it got me to 230 lbs to begin with. I now seek peace and stability while trying to balance all aspects of my life.

We all play multiple rolls and it can be a challenge to balance it all. What I have narrowed it down to is this:

What makes me the happiest?
What stresses me out?
What can I eliminate?
What is going to matter to me 10 years from now?
Who do I want to spend time with?
Who stresses me out?
Are there any emotional vampires who need to be avoided?
What is my passion? Include that in a daily routine!

I love art and can not imagine a world without it. I love to create it and read about it and view it. There will never be enough time to do everything I want to do so I have to just do something every day!

My goal is to have and give joy!
Ok, I have to shut up now or I will write a novel!
My best wishes go out to all of you!


Below goal weight!

Monday, May 23, 2011

Well, it's been awhile since I posted here so I just wanted to update everyone.
I am now at 127 lbs which is 3 lbs below the goal I set for myself. I'm going to keep eating healthy and just see if I can get down to what I was in high school which was 120 lbs. We'll see.

The main thing is i feel better and healthier. I am so happy about that.
Another thing is that from my highest weight, I have lost a total of 103 pounds and never thought that I would ever see that happen again.

My fears? gaining it back. scares me so I know that it's going to always be a battle for me. I must work at it every day as if my life depends on it, because it does.

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JO*ANNE*IE 6/1/2011 1:51PM

    This is **exactly** how it's done!!!!!!!!!!!! emoticon

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APRILSHOWER555 5/30/2011 11:08PM

    Congratulations! You look great!!!! Keep at it!!!!

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COLUMBINE2 5/24/2011 12:05AM

    Wow...below goal weight!!! 3 words few people can say! Congratulations! You can maintain, you can, you can, you can!

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PRETTYNPLAYFUL 5/23/2011 11:20PM

    AWESOME JOB MEETING GOAL!!!! You are right, it will be a lifelong struggle but well worth it!

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SAMSMOM60 5/23/2011 5:21PM

    Thanks. I guess it's time to add new pictures but I still hate the camera. :-)

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