Wednesday, June 19, 2013
Today was day 2 of exercising! I am doing Jillian Michaels 30 day shred. I've started week one I don't know how many times now, I usually do it 2 times then I take a day off because I'm sore and then I don't start again for another few weeks. So I plan to get up tomorrow morning and do it again!
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
Well I did it.... after almost a year of not getting on the scale, I got on today. I didn't ball my eyes out either. I wasn't shocked, sad, mad, glad, because it's just a number. I feel the way I do about my body and that's that. For the record it said 264.5... I am up 11 pounds from last August, the last time I got on a scale and recorded it. I also exercised today, as I was about to put on my shoes this morning to workout I thought of the scale and I just went and did it. When I was exercising today there were a couple of times I had to push myself a little more and I did but I noticed I really pushed myself after I looked at pictures I have on my wall of my twin boys. I think I am finally realizing I don't so much care about the way I look but I care more about being here for my kids. I want to see them grow up and I want to see them have kids of their own. I don't want to be in my 30's, 40's or 50's saying why didn't I lose weight when I was younger. I am 29 now and I don't want to go into my 30's being unhealthy. I am truly grateful I got that letter yesterday saying I was to overweight to qualify for insurance on my mortgage loan. I have always been pretty aware of how fat I am but reading it on paper made me realize how unhealthy it is to be this fat.... yeah I knew before I wasn't healthy but to be turned down for disability insurance makes me feel like I am a ticking time bomb and could just blow at any moment..... a heart attack or stroke, or something else. so yup, I plan to get up tomorrow and exercise too..... I don't want to die.
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Well I haven't blogged on here since 8/8, and I had said I was going to come on every day. Oh well, all that matters is that I am blogging again. I haven't been exercising in a while, don't really remember the last time I did. Sad I know, I just haven't been inspired to do so. But feeling sick of my body, I want to feel better about me. So I went on Amazon and just typed in exercise DVD and Pilates came up.... I used to do Pilates, every day for months, I loved it, and I remember how it made me feel, so I bought some new DVDs. I can't wait for them to come in so I can get back to something I loved doing for so long. I just can't wait to feel good about me again. Here I come.... it's going to be for good when this happens!!!!
Wednesday, August 08, 2012
OK so today I got up and exercised and feel good that I did. I haven't been on the scale in months because well I didn't want to see what it said, so yesterday I figured I would get on and Wow!!!! 253.5, I said I would never get back here, yet here I am again! I said I would exercise forever, yet here I am again just starting on day 2 of exercising. My title says it all, screw the scale.... I am done weighing myself in, I am done getting on the scale, daily, weekly, and monthly. I am done with the scale. Why????? I was looking back at my old blogs and every time I started to lose my spark and get off track it was because of the scale. It was because I got on it daily and I wasn't seeing what I wanted. I am done letting the scale rule my life. I am going to determine how my body feels each and every day and not let that number on the scale make me feel bigger or smaller. I know how my clothes fit, I know how my body looks and that's all I need.....NO MORE SCALE!!!! I haven't been weighing in because I haven't been exercising and there is something freeing about not getting on the scale every day to see what it says and to have that determine my mood. I would like to feel how I feel and not be influenced by a number that can fluctuate daily, hourly, even minutely (is that a word?). Haha well anyways here I am on my day 2 and I feel good, I feel happy and I don't know how much I weigh today, all I know is on August 7th 2012 I was 253.5, so lets see how long I can go without getting on that scale!!!! Well I guess that's all I have for today, I will be back tomorrow and I am going to blog daily, it is so therapeutic so I am going to do this daily along with some sort of exercise. Have a great day!!!!
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