Wednesday, June 08, 2011
Although I don't care for Dr. Phil, he does have some very good quotes----one being "How's that working for you?"...Apparently it isn't or this weight would be dropping off. So if what I stubbornly hang on to doesn't work, why don't I change it? Am I just too lazy to put forth the effort? Deep down, do I really want to lose this weight? Why do I continue to ride the down a pound/up a pound roller coaster? Do I have enough energy and motivation to do this for the long run? What do I see in the future? These are some of my questions I will be dealing with over the next year or so.
Question 1. How's that working for you?
It isn't so why don't I change some things? This I don't know------I get set into a rut and don't want to dig myself out. Not a pity rut or an I don't care rut, just a all is familiar rut. Most of my life has been spent doing what other people have told or instructed me to do. For the past 6 years (hubby passed away in 2004), I haven't had to answer to anyone but myself---I like this. I am not ready to give up this notion. I still haven't wrapped my mind around making good food choices. My main problem is moderation. When I find or see something I like I go way overboard with it---not good on a food plan ( not a diet but a food plan). I don't make menus because I don't seem to be able to or want to make food choices for a week at a time---I like the sponteanaity of deciding each day. If someone calls and wants to go out--I g--not always good choices at small mom & pop cafés. I do fairly well at buffets because I stick to the vegetables and fish. I don't eat deep fried hardly at all anymore because it makes me sick. I can't tolerate much grease anymore. My biggest problem isn't what I eat it is how much I eat, which is way too much. So why don't I cut down? I don't know----I use small dishes and eat with a salad fork so if or when I go back for more it is less that what I used to eat.
Problem number 2---getting up and moving
I know this is good for me so why don't I do it? I start out each morning with resolve---that's as far as it goes---resolve. I get up early each day and start posting here and there and before I know it it's 3 or 4 PM and I haven't hardly moved. Then I'm still and sore and I don't want to move...next day I'm on the same train...esp in the cold, wind, rain or heat...I don't like schedules so that won't work because I won't stick to it---no reason for not following one I just know I wouldn't.