Sunday, October 30, 2011
Note to self: be careful what you ask for. You might get it.
I told my spiritual director that I was looking for ways to help out my hard-working husband. All the overtime makes it hard for him to keep up with things. As I mentioned in my blog SO WHAT'S WITH THE YARDWORK???, I watched him from the kitchen window, working away to plant a fall garden in his overgrown neglected patch. (We are in Florida, in case you wondered where he'd be planting a garden at this time of year.) Much as I dislike working outdoors, I thought, "I can at least help him put the piles he's cleared into trash cans." And, resisting all the way, that was how I got into a great form of workout that I REALLY REALLY would rather not do. You have to realize that my idea of camping is a good B&B. I do NOT like things that bite, sting, buzz, slither, etc, and getting hot and sweaty and dirty is NOT my idea of fun.
In spite of all that, I've been putting in some time out there almost daily, with visible results in the yard, and I'm sure it's helped keep those numbers dropping on the scale.
Last week, I was browsing through a retreat center library, and as so often happens, a book practically jumped off the shelf at me, The Sanctuary Garden. Given that the gardening genes completely missed me, and that I can't even grow a houseplant, I have no idea why the title was so gripping, especially since my backyard, even with all the work done so far, looks nothing like the inviting picture on the book cover.
However..., what it did for me was give me a glimmer of a vision. A sanctuary garden? in my backyard? Hmm. We have a nice deck my husband built before the job with the overtime. I have a great swing out there and a birdbath, frequented not only by birds, but by urban raccoons and the cat next door who thinks a bird-flavored drinking bowl is wonderful.
The overgrowth needs lots of work, a dying orange tree needs to be replaced, and looking at the whole makes me want to run screaming back into the house. But... a sanctuary garden--what would it look like? It wouldn't look anything like that book cover, any more than my typical Florida block house will ever grace the pages of Southern Living magazine. I'm reminded of our very first home, where "fixer-upper" was an understatement worthy of a Brit, and how, over the years, it truly became a sanctuary.
So...what might happen with this backyard in dire need of fixing up if it was destined to grow up into a sanctuary? I think it would have low maintenance hardy plants, especially flowers, that don't mind lots of sun and heat. I can see a couple of benches in addition to the swing. An herb garden, in pots? I already have a thriving, currently out of control patch of rosemary. I can imagine a collection of fresh herbs to add to healthy meals.
I'm so new at this that that's as far as I can envision just yet. But I gave the vision a start when I bought a lovely little fountain at a thriftshop yesterday. I can hear it flowing from my rocker by the back windows. My husband was so pleased. He misses the little pond he had at our last home. I racked up some great wife points; he thought I bought it for him. He was partly right, but mostly I bought it for me, to celebrate a change in outlook and a new vision of A Sanctuary Garden.
Friday, October 28, 2011
DON'T WAIT UNTIL YOU FEEL LIKE IT - More inspiration from Messies Anonymous, apropos to everything we're doing with SparkPeople! Here goes:
JUST DO IT - do not wait till you feel like it. Just move your body through the motions like a robot if that is all you can do. Face the fact that some things do not inspire. It is nice to want to. But do not wait for the humor to hit you. Just do it. Set a timer for 10 or 15 minutes and say to yourself what someone in the group has said, "Only 15 minutes and then I can quit."
--from Messies Anonymous' daily email
Yes, there are days when I have to push myself to get moving, tackle some yardwork, work on a put-off project, clean a corner of my closet, go take a walk. Do I always "feel like it"? NO, absolutely not. But this not so gentle reminder tells me that I can choose it anyway, at least for a limited amount of time. Often I find that once I'm in motion, I can keep going. That 10 min walk around the block becomes a half hour around the neighborhood because I love it once I'm out there. The 10 min attack on a patch of weeds becomes another corner of the yard that looks great.
If I wait till I "feel like it", I could be waiting a very long time. Which reminds me: I don't feel like getting started on today's strength training. Do I say, "Oh well. I'll do it...those fatal words...LATER? Or choose to get up and do it now? I choose to move. NOW!
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
My daily email from Messies Anonymous is one of my prime motivators. Today's message is so apt for both my ongoing project of simplifying and organizing my home as well as for my SparkPeople goals, so I'd like to share it with you.
NEW MESSAGE OF THE DAY: JUST DO IT - BUT HOW?
People who succeed do three basic things. They act on
What EXACTLY is your goal? Can you write it down in one sentence?
Make sure you have a goal that is strong enough to make all your work worthwhile and that keeps you going over the long run. Resolve you will keep going without wavering, will not stop until it's done. Participating in an online group like Friends of the Organizer Lady will help.
Everyday, organized people go about their activities in some kind of pattern. They don't have to waste time and energy making decisions each day because they already have a predetermined plan to follow. Use the Flipper or any other system that works for you to keep you on track.
With thanks to Messies Anonymous.
Do these sound familiar, fellow Sparkers?
My goals need to be specific and realistically achievable. One sentence? The Triple Threat Team says it perfectly for me: Over 50, want to lose at least 50, and aim to do it in 50 weeks.
I'm in for the long haul. I'm not losing weight for a specific event; I want a lifestyle change that will help me reach and maintain a healthier weight for a healthier me. I'm determined to use the tools that support me in reaching my goals, such as staying connected all you wonderful Sparkers who so honestly share your stories and are so generous with your support.
Use those trackers, girl, use those trackers--daily! Let them keep me conscious of my food intake and my activity level. No more mindless munching! Off that sofa and move! My new habits are being reinforced every day. But they won't be if I'm haphazard about it.
Manifesto: a public declaration of goals or intentions. Here they are--my choices, my manifesto for success.
Saturday, October 22, 2011
This site is truly amazing. The thing I'm noticing most at just over two months and 15 lbs down is how full and satisfied I am within my 1300-1600 calorie range. I'd never have believed that I could eat so well, so much less in some ways and more in others, and not be wanting more and more and MORE. I've just had a delicious and healthy dinner and other than a cup of herbal tea, don't need/want anything else.
When I showed my doctor my meal tracking print-out, she pointed to my calorie range and asked how much I'd been eating before. I grinned and said, "I have no idea, but it sure was a lot more than that!"
Today I've had generous meals and even had a few treats such as three dark chocolate covered coffee beans. When I was hungry half an hour before lunchtime, I said, "I can wait"--and did.
I've worked hard in the yard, used my long-neglected handweights, and gotten in a brisk 15 min walk around the house while on phone with nonagenarian mother-in-law.
A gratitude list today is really easy:
For SP and all the inspiration I get from all you out there
For food in my pantry and refrigerator
For a husband who's easy to cook for
For a husband who NEVER NEVER criticizes me over my weight
For the friend and daughter who shared SP with me
For being physically able to do as much as I am
For the motivation to get those lbs off before I have serious problems
For this time without a primary job so I can focus on myself
For being able to shop for "new" clothes right in my own closet
And last and definitely least...for all the YARDWORK that's giving me such a great workout!
Thursday, October 20, 2011
After two days, I gave notice at my new job and feel very good about having done so. I was concerned from the first about air quality--lots of dust, probable mold. Asthma runs in my family, and I already have airborne allergies.
On the way this morning, I asked, What does your heart say? "I want the money." No, that's not your heart speaking. What does your heart say? My heart immediately gave me the image of what it was like to walk through the door into the prospective workplace. The musty smell hit me right away. I was aware of the low ceilings and the few small and not very clean windows that made me feel oppressively shut in. What does my heart say? My heart said no, I don't want to be here. This workspace is not healthy for me.
I'm grateful that I can listen to the wisdom of the heart and say yes to it, even though it leaves me jobless again. My health is too precious, and I am the one responsible for it.
On a lighter note, I am REALLY pleased with myself that when I was anxious about whether or not I'd get the job, I didn't hit the food; when I was anxious about whether to keep it, I didn't hit the food; and today when I came home without the job, I had a nice comforting cup of herbal spice tea--and didn't hit the food. That's pretty outstanding for a heretofore emotional eater!
My health is too important to me to risk.
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