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My Big Fat Gratitude List

Friday, June 08, 2012

1. I'm wearing a pair of SHORTS and matching top that haven't been wearable in ages!
2. I feel a lot better than I did yesterday, no more upset stomach, much more energy.
3. For sticking with this site for 9 1/2 months!
4. For the nearly 30 lbs that's stayed off
5. For the 30 or so I'm going to lose
6. For the nice haul of thriftshop clothes I got last weekend
7. For mini-challenges that have done the trick to get me back to staying within my calorie range so I start losing again
8. For being so much stronger than I was.
9. For SP challenges that keep me motivated and accountable
10. For my Sparkfriends without whom I'd surely have dropped out by now
11. For the free SP videos that take all the planning out of exercise. Just turn on and do!
12. For my wonderful supportive husband who never never criticizes
13. For all the rain we're getting this week. Husband's organic garden (and the grass) is thriving!
14. For dear friends and family
15. Especially grateful that most family is nearby
16. That my daughters have a great Father's Day planned
17. For a much needed retreat in April
18. For a much needed vacation in May
19. For an exciting choir trip in June to sing in NYC and the National Cathedral in DC!
20. For 9 years in my current home. I love this neighborhood!
21. For SparkGuy for doing all this for us
22. For my various faith communities--the church I belong to, the church I sing at, my Quaker F/friends, and the lovely folks at the Franciscan Center of Tampa Bay
23. For my entertaining cats
24. For my large library; no boredom here, ever!
25. For this day, for life and health. Amen!

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ROXYZMOM 6/10/2012 12:32PM

    I love it! Optimism at it's best!

Thanks for sharing!

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CHICKYBEE 6/8/2012 8:14PM

    You have been a wonderful inspiration to me, and your gratitude list brought a few almost-tears to my eyes! Lots of things on this list that I take for granted in my own life, thanks for the reminder... and congrats! on the up-coming choir concert! emoticon

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CHANGING4ME49 6/8/2012 6:06PM

    What a wonderful list. You have a lot to be truly thankful for. I am so glad you hung around this site. You have been a blessing in my life. Thank you for your continued friendship!

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KAI_ZEN 6/8/2012 5:25PM

    This is awesome! Thanks for sharing your list. Gratitude is contagious!

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ANGGEL40 6/8/2012 3:12PM

    emoticon I love it...doesn't it feel good to be able to wear something that you hadn't in years...Keep Sparkin' my friend! emoticon

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GRANDMA_STATUS 6/8/2012 2:13PM

    Congratulations! I LOOOVE gratitude lists like this. The little things can give us so much cheer. ♥

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Support and Motivation: A+

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

emoticonI could stop right there; that emoticon says it all! Thanks to MAMAWLINDALOU, I just realized I too have just had my emoticon. In that time, I've lost 30 lbs, regained 5, and am back on track to lose the next 30. My recent blogs reflect a level of fitness and activity that I never thought would be "me". Since January, I've been doing SparkPeople Officical Challenges and videos. I so appreciate the free resources here, since my budget does not stretch to include a gym, personal trainer, Curves, expensive equipment and the like. With so many videos to choose from, I don't get bored, and I know those things have made a huge difference in my strength and stamina. How else could I have biked over 26 miles in two days without being winded and without sore muscles?

I've had a several months stall foodwise but am ready now to get seriously back on track. I'm doing the 10 Min Daily Fitness Minutes Challenge, and two other little challenges. One is with a couple of members of the Triple Threat Team. We've committed to tracking our food for the next three days. My personal twist on that is not only tracking, which I do anyway for better or worse, but to stay within my calorie range and get myself solidly back into that habit so the pounds will start dropping again. The other little challenge is a 60 sec fitness challenge from one of the daily Sparkblogs. 60 seconds sounds like nothing, but I've already added two minutes to my fitness tracker just by moving while waiting for my computer to come on, reading my email, etc. Any minutes however small add up and reinforce my fitness habit.

Friends, you are the best! I know if I were doing this on my own, I'd have quit by now, another possibly short-term success followed by another failure. Reading your stories, receiving so much encouragement, staying connected with others who face the same daily challenges I do, swapping goodies for fun and support, accountability--all these are what's keeping me going. I could look at those 5 lbs I regained and say, Aw, I knew I couldn't sustain this forever--but it's not true. I really believe it's not's true. You, friends, keep me here. I want to be one of SP's many success stories. I already am, having dropped 30 lbs and 2 sizes, and having gone from obese to overweight. I'm going for the rest of it, whatever it takes to get to NORMAL/HEALTHY. Together, we can do it!

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CHANGING-TURTLE 5/30/2012 3:59PM

    emoticon emoticonNine months wow how time flys. you have lost 30 lbs that is really some thing. Gaining 5 lbs back is nothing you have gotten back on track that is the real wow. emoticon

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BACKTOTEN12 5/30/2012 3:27PM

    We are doing this and will attain our goals.A little side trip now and then will not deter us. Thanks for being a great sparkfriend. Every day is a new start on our road to health and fitness. You have accomplished so much. Keep it up!! emoticon emoticon,too!

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ROXYZMOM 5/29/2012 9:48PM

    I love this blog!! You have such a positive attitude -- you are a success story!!


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BLUE42DOWN 5/29/2012 5:13PM

    HAPPY HAPPY emoticon!

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KAI_ZEN 5/29/2012 12:27PM

    You said it - you ARE a success story already, and you're back on track to reach your goals. What a good feeling to set challenges and then meet them day by day! That's a great way to build confidence and momentum to achieve - and maintain - the normal/healthy weight (and lifestyle) you're heading toward.

"Together, we can do it! " You bet! Let's do it!!

Edited to add, I think that shift in thinking you mention, the belief this is sustainable, is KEY. I know I've been working on making that shift from thinking this may end up being another round in the gain/lose, gain/lose routine, to believing making permanent change is possible - not just possible, but possible for ME. That old, negative thinking creeps in from time to time, and I'm working on reinforcing the belief this CAN be my life now. Like you, staying connected and seeing others succeed is very helpful.

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CHICKYBEE 5/29/2012 11:29AM

    See! You are doing so well, and I appreciate your fortitude. I am still trying to reach that important goal... going from obese to overweight! Thanks for the reminder that just getting to that point is possible, and will be a huge success. Congrats that you are already there! emoticon

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COOKIE_AT_51 5/29/2012 11:21AM

    Great post Sableness! I "joined" SP on May 1st and I feel that I am really "starting" today. I am also doing the 10 minute challenge. I have adjusted my weight loss goals to something that I can truly maintain and I am trying to "connect" with other SP to make sure I have accountability. I added you as a Spark friend :) ... I need all the help I can find on here ... I just need to "use" this site! ~ Cookie emoticon

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MUSOLF6 5/29/2012 11:01AM

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HOW many miles???

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Husband and I are enjoying a wonderful vacation on one of Georgia's barrier islands. Yesterday we climbed a 129 step lighthouse, climbed to a captain's walk, the last bit of which was a ladder--ugh! and did a fair amount of walking. Today's plan was to rent bikes and ride a couple of miles to a fort where we intended to picnic. The fort was great, the moquitoes were not. So, SABLENESS says, "We passed a park yesterday in this direction; let's try there." Hm. It didn't seem that far in the car. But it was less buggy than the marshland around the fort, and after lunch, we walked a short nature trail. OK, now what? Ice cream sure would taste good. That shopping area down the road surely has an ice cream or frozen yogurt shop. ARE WE THERE YET??? Finally--and...there used to be an ice cream shop there--grr. OK, where is the nearest ice cream? We were told down at the roundabout by the grocery store. OK, another mile...and this one was no longer there either. SO--look! Burger King! The mocha thing I had was really good, and I'm sure I worked off every calorie. We could hardly wait to get back and cool off in the pool. Fast forward to after dinner and a long walk on the beach at sunset. Driving back, we looked at the odometer, added up what we'd done earlier on the bicycles--and found we'd ridden not sixteen, but EIGHTEEN miles! Granted, we were on relatively level bike paths, not as challenging as the bike riding I did while on my retreat a few weeks ago, but that was a lot of miles!

I am pleased beyond measure that I'm physically able to do what I did today--and still trek up and down the three flights of stairs to our room instead of using the elevator, except for the last time today. I feel tired but not exhausted, no part of my body is screaming, and I am pleasantly relaxed after walking on the beach. I looked at myself in the full-length mirror this morning, wearing shorts and a tank top, and thought, "Yes, I'm overweight, but a lot less than I used to be," and no way last year could I have managed 18 miles of biking and still have energy to spare for a long walk on the beach. YAY, SPARKPEOPLE!

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POETLKNG2LOSE 5/27/2012 8:12PM

    That is great! i am not even to that stage yet. i am still scared of heights and haven't ridden a bike in years. What an inspiration you are! emoticon emoticon

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CHICKYBEE 5/25/2012 7:34PM

    Oh that is so fantastic! Sounds like you are energetic, enthusiastic, and as strong as a teenager! Heck, I know several teens who could not keep up with you! You should be so proud. Great going! And to top it all off, you got to have guilt-free ice cream! emoticon I am so jealous!

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ROXYZMOM 5/25/2012 6:06PM

    What an absolutely awesome day!! It sounds so perfect.
Did ur husband have a hard time keeping up with you :)

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MAMAWLINDALOU 5/25/2012 9:48AM

    emoticonYou are doing such a good job. You continue enjoying your vacation you will be ready for a rest when you get home after doing all your exerciseing on vacation.

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BLUE42DOWN 5/25/2012 12:24AM


Not only that, but a year ago might have even seen a very different attitude about going up the steps or renting the bikes in the first place. So nice to see changes like that!

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SRBSRB26 5/24/2012 9:22PM

    That's wonderful that you got so much exercise!

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7 mo Sparkversary!

Thursday, May 17, 2012

It came and went yesterday without my noticing. OK, friends, it's time for me to get moving again. I've done great with exercise, am a LOT more fit than when I started, have done lots of things I'd never done before SP, but these last several months, have not done so well with my food, and it's shown in my weight-loss stall. Granted, I'm not gaining, and some of the weight has got to be muscle!!! but it's time to get serious again and get that scale moving. I have 20 pounds to go in the next five months to reach my original goal. Whether I make it or not is less important than making progress, and that I'm determined to do.

Some thank yous are due to

PRAIRIECROCUS for being a world-class encourager
SparkGuy for this wonderful free site, a real boon for us financially challenged folks
ROXYSMOM for introducing me to SP videos
My loving husband who never once said anything unkind about my weight
All of you who share your ups and downs with painstaking honesty
INDYGIRL for being such an incredible inspiration
Everyone who takes time to read and comment on blogs and feed; it really helps

Much later...I can't count! Starting in mid Aug is NINE months! Where did the time go?

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ROXYZMOM 5/22/2012 8:59PM

    Your welcome, you have helped me too! Love having you as a Sparkbuddy.

One of the things I love most about this site is it's ability to keep us on track. We may slide a little bit, or "stall" as you so nicely put it, but we remain accountable and don't go to far off track because we are on here, using the tools and supporting eachother.

You will lose the last 20 pounds, I know you will!!

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CHICKYBEE 5/22/2012 12:51AM

    It is a great accomplishment! Just not gaining is a wonderful testimony that you are learning new behaviors. You go girl! One thing I have noticed, when we reach that - I've had it - moment... things begin to happen again. You'll get there. You are too much of an inspiration yourself not to.

********** emoticon on 7 months !!!! **********

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MAMAWLINDALOU 5/17/2012 4:18PM

    Hope your next 7 months are as successful as your last 7 months have. You have done an amazing job! Keep up the good work!

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BLUE42DOWN 5/17/2012 1:01PM

    Happy emoticon + emoticon! (They don't have a 7-month emoticon. emoticon )

It's such a nice feeling to know that even when we're not heavily focused, if we've learned healthier habits and stick to them, we continue along this journey of a healthier and fitter life. Then when we do focus, we can move right along because we don't have to rebuild the basics.


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SLIMMERME13155 5/17/2012 12:50PM

    Sometimes you need a wee rest to consolidate, before you move on. Time to move on now though before consolidation becomes more comfy, cuddly then cranky because the good work has become undone. Oooooppppsss.
Lets go for it. We could lose 4lbs each by 8th June if we put our minds to it. And I need a kick in the btm to get me off today's sweetie nibble. Way over my cals for today

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Post Retreat and Pics

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

I am SO grateful to have had the opportunity to make that retreat so soon after my mother-in-law's passing. In spite of much to do when I got home, I continue to feel more rested and centered.

Throughout the retreat, I kept thinking of Isaiah 40:1-11, beginning with "Comfort ye, comfort ye my people". It was hard not to sing it except in my mind, that and the following verses that are part of Handel's MESSIAH. I did a meditative walk across the cove with part of verse 11, "He shall feed his flock like a shepherd...and gently lead those that are with young." It served to measure my breathing and my steps, gently, slowly, aware of ocean, rocks, gulls, beach flowers, and a large shell I picked up. For Christmas, my mother had given me a top quality travel set of watercolors. I spent an afternoon painting the shell with little purple beach pea flowers, an orange crab shell, and a dandelion. My art journal often served as my prayer.

That last one is a collage icon, loosely based on the Holy Trinity icon by Andrew Rublev. There was a large one over the fireplace, and it reminded me of the meal my husband, our two daughters, my mother, and I shared on the evening of my mother-in-law's passing. It was so good to be surrounded by loving family, sharing what was truly a sacred meal together. That Trinity icon had the same feeling of loving community and communion. When I told my spiritual director about it at our daily meeting, she suggested that I might want to make my own icon. I didn't have the time or materials to do a formal one, but the silhouettes in collage form serve as a visual reminder of a very special time.

For those who've never tried it, eight days of silence may sound pretty intimidating. I find that silent directed retreats like this one have a strong sense of community even in the silence. I kept meeting the same people, those who also enjoyed the outdoors even though it was cold and wet most of the time. The prayer requests offered during mass told me something about the concerns of my otherwise silent companions. There were whispered exchanges here and there, such as when I found the name of a yellow wildflower that I and another camera-toter were taking photos of--or a question from another retreatant, "WHERE'S the laundry???" In the dining room with wall to wall windows looking out on the ocean, I might be greeted with a smile--or not, if someone happened to be deep in thought. Mass and the daily 30-45 min meeting with a spiritual director offered opportunities for sharing out loud. I looked forward to that daily time to verbalize what had been going on inside, where I was feeling uncomfortable, where I sensed a need. My director asked thought-provoking questions and made suggestions and comments that helped a lot.

It took about half of the retreat for all the stuff on my mind to settle down and to take care of loose ends from having had so little time before I left. I had forgotten, for instance, to reschedule a piano student and had to make a call. Now that I'm home, I'm taking time to sit and savor the peace I felt as I slowed and rested.

As I mentioned in my last blog, I haven't previously taken my computer, but this time it was important to me to stay in touch with my family. Phones were to be used outside where you couldn't be heard by others, and with the rainy cold weather, that was not often a good option. I'd also taken it, hoping to keep up with my Spring Into Shape Bootcamp Challenge videos. I had internet access in my room for only 3 of the the 9 days. However, I got PLENTY of exercise. All the activity--hiking, biking, rock climbing, walking--balanced the quiet times, and I was SO pleased that I was physically able to do all that I did. Here are the promised pics of Brace Rock. I do wish I knew who was taking photos when I was on top of it!

Brace Rock the night of Super Moon!
Brace Rock at low tide. You have to climb over all those rocks first.
Brace Rock in thick sea fog; it's out there somewhere--and I climbed it!

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PRAIRIECROCUS 5/16/2012 3:19PM

    Thanks for sharing !

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CHICKYBEE 5/15/2012 6:33PM

    I know that time alone is so important when recovering from and assimilating the loss of a loved one. You were so very blessed to spend time doing just that in such a beautiful place and under the perfect circumstances - no interruptions from well-meaning strangers. Sometimes, it is more difficult to try and find something right to say, and an excuse of silence would be welcome. It is wonderful to be allowed to be sad when you are sad.

Expressing yourself in your art is a beautiful and peaceful way of getting feelings out too, and it sounds like a perfect activity for you to have brought along. I love your watercolors.

I'll bet you renewed your spirit, and came home in a better condition for helping your family with their feelings. Such a lovely opportunity.

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ROXYZMOM 5/15/2012 5:46PM

    It sounded so relaxing and peaceful. Was it hard not to talk to others? I think I would have a hard time with that! Your watercolor sounds beautiful - so therapeutic. We're you able to play the piano while you were there? I bet that would have relaxed you - and others, too.

Your husband is wonderful to recognize that you needed that time to yourself. Thanks for sharing your experience with me.

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