Saturday, December 10, 2011
Even though I have more schedule space than usual, I have LOTS to fill it up with. This weekend, for example: last night I went to Thai dinner & a beautiful beautiful Chicago A Cappella holiday concert with a friend; tonight I'm going to a Colombian party; tomorrow evening a friend & I will be going to another friend's flamenco recital.
At work I've been putting in as much time as possible on one huge project to get lots done before another huge project has to be addressed this next week.
I had a VERY time-consuming commute home last week: part of the L train was closed down because police were trying to get at four gang members barricaded in a nearby building. Exciting for them (they did eventually arrest the guys), boring for us, as we had to wait wait wait for shuttle buses to arrive & pick us up, or we had to walk a couple of blocks & wait wait wait to catch a regular northbound bus. I opted for the latter, & it took me 2.5 hours to get home. Whooooooooo . . .
Then there was the gas leak crisis yesterday: our basement was smelling of gas, & I ended up working from home so I could be here to deal with the gas company guy who came to identify the leaks & put up temporary fixes--he found SIX leaks in various places!! Then I had to wait for someone from the heating company to come & start to permanently fix those problems. I could get work done while waiting, but while the guys were here I had to spend a lot of time talking with each of them.
And along with all this busyness, I'm fighting depression. It's definitely related to winter cold/darkness, & doubtlessly also related to my lack of time to exercise--yeah, because of needing to get to work early & juggle all these other issues, I've not been getting in enough sweaty movement! Badly, badly needed. Even today it's been hard; I've been super-busy getting my office components ready to move, & making my batch food for the week (chili in the crockpot! yum! & cooking chicken pieces in the other crockpot), & baking muffins to take to the party tonight. The cooking/baking does help fend off depression, though--it's so good to work with my hands & smell/taste yummy things.
I AM going to squeeze in a bit of exercise too: I'll at least fast-walk to the grocery store to get a few items that I'll need to cook dinner tomorrow for friends who just had a baby. And tomorrow afternoon I'll also take a 3.5-mile brisk walk to return a library book.
Throughout the coming week I'll eat more mindfully & get in at least those 10 minutes of exercise each day--& hopefully the scale will notice.
Monday, November 28, 2011
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I had been thinking about getting a pair of Yaktrax Pro, for extra security on ice & packed snow, & this discount helped me make up my mind. You may want to get a pair too! They go on over your shoes/boots & give great traction on hard snow/ice, so you could even run over a frozen pond if you wanted. Here's a link:
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I'm not getting any personal benefit from plugging this deal, just wanted to share a product that has made my winter life MUCH less stressful.
After Thanksgiving I'm up 1.4 lbs, not bad. I'll work on getting that off by the end of this week. I had a wonderful time with my granddaughter--Bea is 8 months old now & SO energetic! She quickly gets impatient when we hold her, & wiggles to be let down so she can crawl off to her next adventure. But she loves people--is always ready to interact with smiles, waves, & vocalizations. She also loves music, especially Peter & the Wolf!
Monday, November 21, 2011
Thanks, friends, for your kind responses to my previous post. I really appreciate your solidarity!
Saturday I had a good long talk with one of the key church folks. We fully agree on the basic thing that needs to be done; the only difference of opinion has to do with when. She sincerely apologized that no one had let me know that it wouldn't be done by the time I had proposed. We came to a good mutual understanding of where to go from here. It was a relief.
I had my condo reappraised this weekend too. It has lost TONS of value, & my mortgage is now far underwater. I fully sympathize with the many folks who are losing their homes because of the crazy things that happened in the real-estate market . . . but in my special circumstances this news is good. It will make the divorce settlement a lot simpler--my exploitive ex can't plunder my resources any further, because there ARE no resources. I have no interest in selling the condo at this stage (I hope to stay here at least till I retire), I'm not having trouble making my payments, & I expect that over time the value will rise again. So for me it's just a figure on paper, & for the divorce it's helpful.
Last night I worked on the carpet remnant covering the ugly linoleum in the little den off the kitchen. This was ex's daughter's room when she lived with us (about 7-8 months a few years back), & ex had slept there when he stopped sleeping with me. Between them they had ground a lot of dirt into the open area of carpet. It was REALLY therapeutic to scrub it out! In morning light today it looked great; it had already dried & there's no more visible dirt.
I'm going to move my office into that room--it's going to be lovely, with its spring-green walls/carpet & with plants against the south-facing windows. I have ordered a stand-up desk & am super-excited about it! My work requires me to be at the computer almost all day every day (including a lot of evenings & Saturdays, since I do freelance editing as well as my regular job), & all that sitting is not good for me. I got a good discount on the desk from Overstock.com, yay! It will be another symbol of my new, healthier, happier life.
Saturday, November 12, 2011
My weight/fitness work hasn't been consistent or focused lately. I'm dealing with really hard stuff surrounding the divorce--not just my husband's unjust & unreasonable demands, & the real possibility that a judge may "impartially" but unjustly accede to them, but also lack of support that I had thought was there. Nearly two months ago I asked my church's leaders to take an action on my behalf before early November, & it appeared that they had done so, but today I found out that they haven't.
People fail each other for all sorts of reasons, & these are very good people, so I'm not going to demonize them. But unless/until they remedy the situation & let me know they've done so, I'm going to attend church elsewhere. This means I will have to let go of a dearly loved project that I had just begun in the church. It's disappointing but can't be helped. I have to be able to feel safe in my faith community.
I have shed a lot of tears this week, & I'm sure there will be more in the coming days. I'm not eating like a pig & packing on the pounds, but I'm not losing either. It's tempting to eat for comfort. I'm dealing with various physical aches & pains that I'm sure are expressions of my emotional distress. It's not possible yet to get myself reorganized to eat & exercise properly.
I do think that soon I'll be ready to get back in the saddle here at SP. I will want the release of hard exercise & the satisfaction of losing these last few pounds. Without all my church activities, I will have more time! I will receive it as a blessing & try to make good use of it.
Tomorrow evening I'll take my husband's pretrial motion to my sister's & go through it with her, & pray over it. Sometime in the coming week I'll see my lawyer & discuss strategy. Wednesday afternoon I have my regular therapy appointment, & I'm in touch with my sisters & a few other friends who understand the gravity of my situation & are with me unequivocally. I'm grateful not to be alone in this nightmare.
Hugs to you all, & may those you trust never betray you.
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