Wednesday, December 01, 2010
* How do you want to look?
Not skinny, not perfect (which is impossible), but slim & healthy. I want all of my size 10 & 12 clothes to fit me comfortably or loosely. I want my arms to be more toned.
* How do you want to feel?
I want to feel like myself--alive, light, active, curious, contemplative. I want to have energy & to sleep well consistently. I want to be stronger & enjoy being able to carry heavy things as needed!
* What things will you be able to do in the future with a slimmer healthier body?
--- Climbing more flights of stairs quickly without becoming short of breath.
--- Hiking uphill without undue strain (living in Illinois, I don't get many chances to do this, but when vacationing in California & elsewhere I do)
--- Rearranging furniture more easily
My soon-to-be-ex-husband is 7 years younger than me but looks older because he hasn't taken care of his body. He overeats & doesn't exercise much & smokes off & on. When we used to go places together on foot, he would complain because I always wanted to walk quickly--I love walking so much! And nowadays I'm in touch with an old friend, a guy who is 3-4 years older than me (I'm 56), & he is already talking about himself as OLD! He is quite overweight & has been for years. I'm sure if we take a walk together next time he visits the US, he too will not be able to go at my pace.
I'm not interested in denying my age, but I don't want to be that kind of older person! Being around these guys & noticing how they're just giving in to lethargy & not challenging themselves physically has helped motivate me. Because of my lifestyle, I expect to have a long life--& I want to keep my body awake & resilient & strong just as I want to keep my mind alert & functioning well. That's why I'm aiming to shed 5% of my current weight in the next couple of months!
Monday, November 29, 2010
It has been way too long since I last blogged here! I can report that I survived Thanksgiving pretty well--I enjoyed all the food but didn't stuff myself. I guess it helps that I had a mostly vegan holiday! It was with my son & daughter-in-law. Since Graham became vegan he has been very skinny. Going vegan myself would make weight loss a lot simpler--but I'm not ready to make a total change. I already eat mostly vegan most days . . . but I do love skim milk on my homemade muesli, & I have low-fat cheese &/or eggs fairly often. Chicken, fish or other meat is only occasional.
I changed up my exercise recently! I'm not doing it every day, but based on Lindy's recommendation (you can visit her here: www.sparkpeople.com/mypage.as
p?id=LINDY2202 ) I bought & have been using the 30 Day Shred (Jillian Michaels). Thus far I haven't lost more weight, but according to my scale my fat percentage is inching down, & that is much needed!
With my current life changes, I'm susceptible to occasional waves of sadness, but for the most part I'm feeling hopeful & blessed. Still in therapy, still figuring things out, writing poems, talking things over with friends & sisters. Lately a friend in Bolivia & I have been chatting online practically every day! He has known me since we were teenagers, & I really value his perspective. Plus we always make each other laugh out loud--it feels soooo good to laugh!
When my husband first moved out I thought I would try to find someone to rent the room he had been using as his office. But I've been able to start paying down my debt without getting an apartment mate. It's the first time in my life that I've lived alone, & it turns out that I'm loving it! Now I'm thinking about how to use that room. I may get an old-fashioned rollaway bed to use for guests, & when there are no guests I could use the room as an art studio! Or I could move my own office into it.
I finally managed to clean up the little back room where my husband slept from early February to early June. The futon frame had broken under him & he had just left the pieces standing around the mattress on the floor. I lugged them out to the alley. He had neglected to use sheets for all those months--yuck! I still need to remove the futon cover & wash it; I'll need someone's help getting it off. But meanwhile I got the floor & walls all clean, & I brought in the fern & geraniums & coleus from the back porch so they can overwinter under that south-facing window. The room is looking bright now!
So I guess there WAS stuff to write about! Life is never dull around here.
Friday, October 15, 2010
It does make a difference to get back to the "no-S's" (no sugary food, no seconds, no snacks except on S days) & to stay consistent with exercise. As of this morning I am down 4 pounds since the beginning of September, when I weighed myself for a Slowest Loser team challenge. Four pounds in a month & a half--that's a "slowest loser" pace, enough to make me feel this is worth it.
It did help to blog on Monday about my struggles. Thanks as always for your encouragement, friends.
I now have 23 pounds to go. If I maintain this rate of losing, I'll be back to my slim self in early May 2011. Of course it would be nice to reach my goal sooner; I'll step up the effort whenever I can.
Tonight I'm going out for Caribbean food with a Colombian friend. I am hereby committing myself to eat 1/2 cup or less of the rice. I will get more nutritional bang for my buck from beans, meat, or fish plus veggies.
Monday, October 11, 2010
I really want to lose this excess weight. But, as proven by my day-to-day behavior, I also want the frequent & immediate comforting that I get from sweets & online word games. I am having a hard time actually abandoning these two things.
Today I keep telling myself that I can make it through the workday without either one. I did play a couple of games at lunchtime, but otherwise I'm sticking to the plan.
It probably helps that my colleague who organized the presentation I made to about 60 editors on Saturday posted this praise from one of the attenders on Facebook: "Try as I might, I can't come up with any way you could improve on Saturday's meeting. You can't improve on perfection." Makes me feel SO GOOD!
This week I want to eat suppers of just veggies + protein. My refrigerator is bulging with veggies from the CSA box & they need to be eaten before they spoil! So it's going to be tilapia or eggs + veggies every night.
Thursday, October 07, 2010
Figuratively speaking, of course! I'm happy to report that my fighting-insomnia strategy really worked last week & most nights I've gotten long, deep sleep. Friday-Saturday I was away on an overnight retreat with a small group of church folks, & there I did NOT sleep well at all (someone across the hall had the weirdest high-pitched wheezy snore I've ever heard! I had on my earplugs but it penetrated those, & even when I dragged my sleeping bag downstairs & lay down on a futon in the lounge, it took forever to get back to sleep). But I was up in time to go for a fast walk before breakfast, & ever since then I've been sleeping deliciously.
I've been doing great at including exercise--at least a short round--nearly every day for a month. On the sugar front I haven't been so consistent, but I've definitely eaten less than I would have if I weren't trying to avoid it. One of these days I need to weigh myself again to see how I'm doing with that.
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