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Friday, October 03, 2008

I haven't posted for a while because I've been back to fighting insomnia. It must be hormonal & related to menopause. A week ago I saw my doctor to get some vaccines in preparation for our Cartagena trip in mid-October, so I told her about the insomnia resurgence. It was discouraging to hear her say she didn't think my Amitriptyline should be increased again (desensitization), to the contrary she thought I should take weekends off it, other sleep aids are habit forming, & really "we don't understand very much about insomnia."

I can't face taking weekends off, because I need to be alert on Saturdays for freelance work & I don't want to skip church on Sundays. Earlier this week I slept in & went to work late because of insomnia, but starting Wednesday I have gotten up at the normal time (normal if I'm not exercising) & dragged myself to the office. Yesterday the insomnia was not quite so extended, & this morning it was much diminished. I can't expect it to stay that way, but I'm thankful for any respite.

It takes a lot of emotional energy to deal with life when I'm battling insomnia, & I don't have energy to track my food right now. I'm really, really hoping that I'll be able to get back to running & strength training soon. But I don't know how long it will be before I have the energy/motivation to track my eating & diminish my calories for the sake of weight loss. It has slid rather far down on my priority list.

We'll see.

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SHANSHE 10/7/2008 3:46AM

    When you do not sleep well, the desire for much of anything except surviving is about all we can muster sometimes. i will pray for you dear friend.

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DECAROLIFIC 10/5/2008 12:02PM

    Has your doctor told you about good sleep hygiene? I've found that to be a good starting point to battling insomnia. Things like setting a time for bed and keeping to it, getting up and doing something if you wake up in the middle of the night or early morning rather than lying there counting the hours as they pass. Not drinking any alcohol within 3-4 hours of bed or caffeine within 8-10 hours- sounds extreme but sometimes necessary. I also found that when I was really depressed or worried about something then my insomnia was really bad- If I get up and pray about the problem rather than ruminating over it in bed then I would rest more easily- even if the problem was not being able to sleep. In my professional experience, menopausal sleep disturbances are sometimes quite difficult to deal with though.
You probably already know about all of this but I hope something is helpful.

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CTEMPLE 10/3/2008 6:43PM

    Sorry to hear that Ruth, but as an insomniac my suggestion is, take another kind of pill and sleep. I wouldn't be able to function otherwise. There are so many that are effective and you don't become a drug addict because of that, sleep is too important to think about habit. Your quality of life depends on that.

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Something has to change

Sunday, September 21, 2008

It was very discouraging to get on the scale yesterday morning & have it show a big JUMP--4 lbs up from the previous day! I haven't changed my ticker yet; I want to see whether that's real or a fluke.

Friday night we'd had a rare treat: a five-course dinner at a very posh restaurant, each course accompanied with wine. (It was a thank-you from a friend from my other online community, who had just arrived from Finland with her husband; I had been able to give her some support while she was waiting for her visa, & she wanted to make an extravagant gesture to express her deep thanks.) It was a wonderful experience--something that we would NEVER have done for ourselves--& our friends proved to be amazing conversationalists. An unforgettable night. And not a meal that I would have any way of tracking! emoticon

But one night of splurging should not wreak havoc. I think my failure to lose weight must have some more systemic cause. Maybe my metabolism is changing due to menopause. Maybe I'm going overboard too much in general every weekend.

This weekend I've been brooding on it. Some people would probably tell me not to fuss; after all, I'm still within healthy BMI. And some think I look just fine. On the sidewalk outside the restaurant Friday night, a man called out to my husband, "Hey, what'd you do to get that supermodel?" And I had gotten whistled at the night before. emoticon BUT I JUST DON'T FEEL LIKE MYSELF. I want to be SLIM again.

I'm going to try a couple of small things. (1) A Sparkfriend read that increasing one's water drinking by a lot can help give one's metabolism a jolt. This week I'm going to try drinking at least 12 cups daily. Can't hurt, right? (2) I'm going to try to track 6 days/week instead of just 5, as I have been doing.

Let's see if those steps help.

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CTEMPLE 9/26/2008 3:37AM

    Dear Ruthie do not weigh yourself every day!!!!! Only once a week. It's a terrible habit, seriously. It is the weekly average that counts. It's a self defeating strategy.

Log log log, I know ( by doing SP ) that if I want to loose a bit I must eat 1500 a day average in one week. If I want to maintain it's 1700 and if I eat 2000, I put on one pound a week. It's mathematical. Find your loosing range by logging every day for a month. Do it in a practical way and not every little bit.

When I go out for a special dinner I just log 2000 calories as "dinner out" and compensate the following days or following week.
Be consistent for a month and find your values, I've been doing it since January and I can assure you it works. Weight loss is 80% diet and 20% exercise. I lost 14 kg in 3 months during menopause and it was easy,just a bit time consuming but worth every penny.

Sorry about the advise, I thought you wouldn't resent it being the lovely person you are.

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I found that really tracking my calories and adding in the 6 days of exercise really worked for me. You keep at it and you will certainly start noticing a difference. Don't worry about the big meal. Everyone deserves something special. Drink the water, most likely it is salt retention.


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SHANSHE 9/22/2008 12:35PM

    You were called a supermodel AND whistled at??? WOW! That would go right to my head and I would just get a big head! LOL

I say you gotta be where you are comofrtable at though, for real! I will support you all the way!


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Hydrated & soon to be monitored

Thursday, September 18, 2008

My Camelbak is a Slip Stream--here's a link for anyone who isn't familiar with these "hydration packs":

I went running this morning & very much appreciated being able to gulp water when I slowed down or had to stop. It's a great invention.

Next I need to sit down & figure out the heart rate monitor. It will be good to find out whether I'm exercising in the right zone; I have never had an easy way to check before.

I really, really want to start dropping some pounds again--it's just not happening these days. I guess I'll have to start tracking food EVERY day again instead of taking weekends off.

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SHANSHE 9/19/2008 11:34PM

    So glad you are enjoying that Camelbak and those pounds willstart coming off again...

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Tuesday, September 16, 2008

"Estrenar" es a Spanish verb that means to wear/use something for the first time. Today I broke in my Camelbak! It's trim & doesn't bounce when I run--really a great design. Unfortunately I was spacy--I forgot to drink water before leaving the house, as I usually do. That mistake was compounded by the fact that I had filled the Camel with mostly ice, as my husband suggested--but his is larger & he takes it on two-hour bike rides. My ice didn't have much time to melt, so I didn't get much good from it. Next time I'll know better & fill it with mostly water--& drink my usual 8-10 ounces from a GLASS before leaving the house. emoticon

I'm also "estrenando" new clothes today! Last night I again tried on the size 10T jacket & suit I ordered a few weeks back in preparation for fall. I have not lost weight or inches since then, but I realized that the two jackets do fit me OK, or will very soon, so I shouldn't return them. I'm wearing the suit today. It's double-breasted, which is said to make one look fatter, BUT it's nicely nipped in at the waist, which counteracts that. I think I look good. emoticon

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FITGIRL15 9/17/2008 2:50PM

    I have 3 Camelbaks. They are invaluable to me! I think they would even be a good investment when strolling around an amusment park, or the zoo... then you always have fluid when you need it!

What model did you get?

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SHANSHE 9/16/2008 3:14PM

    glad you like that camel thing and as long as YOU think you look good, who cares what is "sadi" right?
Take care!

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Learning the ropes

Thursday, September 11, 2008

My new scale & heart monitor arrived today! After supper my husband & I played with the scale & figured out how it works. Once you've created your personal profile (age, height, gender), besides weight it calculates BMI & also sends a pulse that supposedly reads your body fat percentage. You, my Sparkfriends, probably already have a cool scale like this, but we are just now entering the 21st century of bathroom gadgets. Heh.

I will officially weigh myself in the morning, & tomorrow you'll see my weight zoom up on my ticker. We already compared the new scale with our old one & found the new one weighs us both 6 pounds more than the old one. I'll probably adjust my goal weight too, though, since my original goal was based on the old scale.

Tomorrow morning, after finding out my REAL weight, I'll go running with the Camelbak--yay! I haven't had time to figure out the heart monitor yet, though, so that will have to wait. Hopefully over the weekend I'll have time to read the instructions.

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SHANSHE 9/12/2008 3:47AM

    Cool!!! Sounds so neat and I do not have one of those new fancy schmancy scales. another friend got one and her old scale was off 20 pounds, can you believe that?

I felt so sorry for her!


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