Friday, October 03, 2008
I haven't posted for a while because I've been back to fighting insomnia. It must be hormonal & related to menopause. A week ago I saw my doctor to get some vaccines in preparation for our Cartagena trip in mid-October, so I told her about the insomnia resurgence. It was discouraging to hear her say she didn't think my Amitriptyline should be increased again (desensitization), to the contrary she thought I should take weekends off it, other sleep aids are habit forming, & really "we don't understand very much about insomnia."
I can't face taking weekends off, because I need to be alert on Saturdays for freelance work & I don't want to skip church on Sundays. Earlier this week I slept in & went to work late because of insomnia, but starting Wednesday I have gotten up at the normal time (normal if I'm not exercising) & dragged myself to the office. Yesterday the insomnia was not quite so extended, & this morning it was much diminished. I can't expect it to stay that way, but I'm thankful for any respite.
It takes a lot of emotional energy to deal with life when I'm battling insomnia, & I don't have energy to track my food right now. I'm really, really hoping that I'll be able to get back to running & strength training soon. But I don't know how long it will be before I have the energy/motivation to track my eating & diminish my calories for the sake of weight loss. It has slid rather far down on my priority list.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
It was very discouraging to get on the scale yesterday morning & have it show a big JUMP--4 lbs up from the previous day! I haven't changed my ticker yet; I want to see whether that's real or a fluke.
Friday night we'd had a rare treat: a five-course dinner at a very posh restaurant, each course accompanied with wine. (It was a thank-you from a friend from my other online community, who had just arrived from Finland with her husband; I had been able to give her some support while she was waiting for her visa, & she wanted to make an extravagant gesture to express her deep thanks.) It was a wonderful experience--something that we would NEVER have done for ourselves--& our friends proved to be amazing conversationalists. An unforgettable night. And not a meal that I would have any way of tracking!
But one night of splurging should not wreak havoc. I think my failure to lose weight must have some more systemic cause. Maybe my metabolism is changing due to menopause. Maybe I'm going overboard too much in general every weekend.
This weekend I've been brooding on it. Some people would probably tell me not to fuss; after all, I'm still within healthy BMI. And some think I look just fine. On the sidewalk outside the restaurant Friday night, a man called out to my husband, "Hey, what'd you do to get that supermodel?" And I had gotten whistled at the night before. BUT I JUST DON'T FEEL LIKE MYSELF. I want to be SLIM again.
I'm going to try a couple of small things. (1) A Sparkfriend read that increasing one's water drinking by a lot can help give one's metabolism a jolt. This week I'm going to try drinking at least 12 cups daily. Can't hurt, right? (2) I'm going to try to track 6 days/week instead of just 5, as I have been doing.
Let's see if those steps help.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
My Camelbak is a Slip Stream--here's a link for anyone who isn't familiar with these "hydration packs": www.rei.com/product/733673
I went running this morning & very much appreciated being able to gulp water when I slowed down or had to stop. It's a great invention.
Next I need to sit down & figure out the heart rate monitor. It will be good to find out whether I'm exercising in the right zone; I have never had an easy way to check before.
I really, really want to start dropping some pounds again--it's just not happening these days. I guess I'll have to start tracking food EVERY day again instead of taking weekends off.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
"Estrenar" es a Spanish verb that means to wear/use something for the first time. Today I broke in my Camelbak! It's trim & doesn't bounce when I run--really a great design. Unfortunately I was spacy--I forgot to drink water before leaving the house, as I usually do. That mistake was compounded by the fact that I had filled the Camel with mostly ice, as my husband suggested--but his is larger & he takes it on two-hour bike rides. My ice didn't have much time to melt, so I didn't get much good from it. Next time I'll know better & fill it with mostly water--& drink my usual 8-10 ounces from a GLASS before leaving the house.
I'm also "estrenando" new clothes today! Last night I again tried on the size 10T jacket & suit I ordered a few weeks back in preparation for fall. I have not lost weight or inches since then, but I realized that the two jackets do fit me OK, or will very soon, so I shouldn't return them. I'm wearing the suit today. It's double-breasted, which is said to make one look fatter, BUT it's nicely nipped in at the waist, which counteracts that. I think I look good.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
My new scale & heart monitor arrived today! After supper my husband & I played with the scale & figured out how it works. Once you've created your personal profile (age, height, gender), besides weight it calculates BMI & also sends a pulse that supposedly reads your body fat percentage. You, my Sparkfriends, probably already have a cool scale like this, but we are just now entering the 21st century of bathroom gadgets. Heh.
I will officially weigh myself in the morning, & tomorrow you'll see my weight zoom up on my ticker. We already compared the new scale with our old one & found the new one weighs us both 6 pounds more than the old one. I'll probably adjust my goal weight too, though, since my original goal was based on the old scale.
Tomorrow morning, after finding out my REAL weight, I'll go running with the Camelbak--yay! I haven't had time to figure out the heart monitor yet, though, so that will have to wait. Hopefully over the weekend I'll have time to read the instructions.
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