Monday, September 08, 2008
I'm wearing a belated birthday present from my husband: a hydrating Camelbak backpack to wear while running! It's the smallest size, quite sleek & light, with a flexible liter container for water & a connecting tube that I can drink from. Isn't that a cool idea?
Last week during my two-hour walk/run in the forest preserve I didn't see a single drinking fountain. This despite the fact that in several places the trail goes through large cleared picnic areas with shelters, volleyball nets, restrooms, grills. My water bottle is too heavy to carry when running, so I drank from it before leaving it in the car . . . but of course I got QUITE thirsty. I stopped twice in bathrooms & managed to drink a bit by sticking my head into the sink as far as possible. This will be MUCH MUCH better--yay!
The other two new toys haven't arrived yet, but they're on their way: a digital scale (ours has been terribly unreliable as of late) that estimates body fat as well (I have my doubts about that part, but we'll see) & a heart rate monitor & timer to wear while running. I'm really looking forward to both.
I haven't been blogging much lately, but I've been working hard on a challenge with a private team. I don't feel like I'm in the groove yet--too much craving going on--but hopefully it will get easier soon.
Saturday, August 30, 2008
The party last night was fabulous. The folks who arrived (50-60, I think) were so lively & attentive & fun; the music was fantastic; & my readings came off well. It was wonderful to share the celebration with my husband this year (last year he was on a work trip to California). I dedicated two poems to him, & he was very moved.
I am down a pound this morning! Yesterday I just worked worked worked & drank tons of water & ate very little. (I took the day off from work.) My exercise was to jog a little over a mile to the grocery store & then to walk home briskly lugging at least 20 lbs. of last-minute groceries.It was really fun to do a bunch of baking, though it was a fairly hot day.
I'm unreasonably happy about the herb bread recipe that I found & altered. I used basil & chives from my back-porch flowerboxes, plus dried rosemary & thyme, & I substituted white whole wheat flour & wheat germ for some of the white flour the recipe called for. Ended up with two SCRUMPTIOUS loaves, & people raved about it. I'll have to run it through the Sparkrecipes calculator to find out the nutritional values.
Late this afternoon, after the heat of the day has passed, we'll put away the lawnchairs & folding chairs that are still set up in the backyard. Happy party aftermath . . .
Friday, August 22, 2008
Thanks, everyone, for your encouraging words & ideas about my obsessing. It's not that I'm actually hungry; I'm going higher than my calorie range pretty much every day (where it looks as if I have not gone over, usually it's just that I quit tracking when I saw that I would be over). It's something in my head. Or it could be that hormones are making me feel weird.
I have not been cutting back much on sweets either, even though I did bring low-fat cottage cheese to the office this week & have had 0.5 cup of it every afternoon. Sigh.
Some clothes I ordered arrived a couple of days ago, & last night I tried on the two jackets. Both are too small! They are size 10T; I'm going to have to exchange them for 12Ts. I know fit varies with clothing style/cut, but it's a bit demoralizing. I don't look like a size 10 in the mirror either.
On top of all of this, my husband is mad at me about a really minor thing. I don't seem to be able to reason with him about it. We are supposed to work on some bookkeeping stuff together tonight, but since he hasn't chatted with me all day I'm sure he isn't planning on it--but he'll say it's my fault we had to postpone it. I hate those vicious cycles.
A list of good things to make me feel better:
1. I went running this morning & continued experimenting with intervals.
2. I am rereading To Kill a Mockingbird & loving it even more than the previous times I'd read it.
3. This week I wrote a poem (about a rainstorm in Colombia) that I'm really happy with.
4. The break in my freelance project is continuing, & I was starting to get a bit worried about cash flow; but the project coordinator just wrote to propose that I take on another editing project for this church, which would be sent to me in short segments. That will really help!
I wonder whether I should keep the 10T clothes & use them as further motivation to lose weight. They are fall clothes, so I wouldn't be wearing them till later anyway.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
I find myself kind of obsessing about food these days. I don't like it.
Before lunch I'm thinking "oh good, it's almost time to eat!" After lunch I start thinking about my upcoming snack. Then I start yearning for supper.
I'm trying to figure out why this is happening. The first time I ever dieted, back in college, a friend recruited me to do it with her. We counted calories & I lost more than 10 pounds. But I was perturbed one day when I sat down to pray & found my mind wandering to calculations of the calories I could have at lunch!
The happiest, most successful weight loss I've ever had was back in 1999. I was a single mom, not dating anyone, & my daughter was off at college while my son was busy in high school. I just did one thing: cut out supper (my son would fix his own). I would eat anything I wanted for breakfast (usually cereal, banana, OJ & skim milk) & then have a regular-sized lunch/supper in the afternoon, around 3:00 or 4:00. I had starting exercising regularly the year before & at this point I was starting to go running. So my metabolism was up. I ate supper out with friends occasionally, or cooked for guests, & it didn't mess me up; I just went back to my two-meals-a-day regime the next day. I did not obsess about food, & I lost weight really easily--25 pounds in about 5-6 months. How I wish it were that easy now.
Part of my struggle to stay within the calorie range these days is the fact that now I'm married & supper is the main connection time with my husband. Another change is that I'm working in an office again, with a long commute.
Tracking helps me keep my nutrients balanced & I do eat more lightly when I'm tracking. But I want to stop obsessing! Maybe it's happening more right now because my work is really peaceful at the moment & my mind gets restless--? At other times I am juggling all sorts of projects at a time, & it keeps my mental energy engaged elsewhere.
It probably doesn't help that the book I'm editing now is a WONDERFUL study of food in Bologna, Italy--what families eat, how they prepare it, how they divide up the chores of meal planning/preparation--& it's based on dinners the investigators had with a number of different couples. Maybe that's what is triggering my cravings. Could be.
Still, I want to get out of my present plateau NOW, & I want to do it without obsessing.
Get An Email Alert Each Time RUTHXG Posts