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Job done

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

I slept deliciously last night, & today I finished a rather demanding freelance project. I took a personal day from work for the purpose--I certainly DON'T want to make it a habit to use vacation time for doing extra work, but this was necessary & knowing I had this day helped me not to panic over the weekend.

It would have been nice to get in some exercise too, but I started editing right after breakfast, kept at it all day with only a short break for lunch, & just completed it a little bit ago--too late for anything vigorous. I think the watchword of my life right now is "live within your limits." That will honor my Creator, my body & spirit, & my family.

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PJBOKC 2/27/2008 6:15PM

    I believe it's so true that we'll have deeper peace if we "live within our limits"....... moderation, moderation, moderation ..... with time, money - everything. In the past, I've been guilty of overextending with my time, working too much, doing too much for others. I've been less that way since my husband retired over a year ago. Slowing down a little has allowed me to observe others who don't overextend, and try to follow some examples. It's a hard habit to break. I'm sure there can be many different motivations for overextending. For me, I think it's the "people pleasing nurse" mentality.


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SHANSHE 2/20/2008 9:07AM

    I agree. we all need to learn to live withing ur limits...

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Insomnia, my old enemy

Monday, February 18, 2008

This morning I was afflicted by the insomnia that used to be a nearly constant companion. It's a blessing that nowadays it strikes only occasionally, usually due to overstimulation or stress. I'm also blessed to have flexible work hours, so this a.m. I was able to reset my alarm clock for 8:00 (for some reason I can usually get back to sleep after around 6:30) & come to work an hour later than usual. I'll stay a bit late tonight to make up for it.

I did take my medication (Amitriptyline) last night as usual, so hopefully the sleeplessness will prove to be just a one-night hormonal glitch. Generally I'm feeling better now that I have decided to go on a personal retreat soon. No dates yet, & I'm still waiting to hear about the KY convent from my pastor, so I don't know where it is. Maybe I will be able to add on a little jaunt to meet you, Shannon & Linda--that would be fun! We'll have to see whether I'll be in your general area.

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SHANSHE 2/19/2008 12:31AM

    It would be fun to meet you! I hope you are sleeping peacefull tonight and that you wake up feeling rested in the morning.

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Kentucky dreams

Sunday, February 17, 2008

I realized a couple of days ago that what I really need is a few days to just rest & be refreshed, far away from responsibilities. So I'm now looking into monasteries & convents that welcome guests. I have done personal retreats like this before, but it has been a long time since the last one. The solitude & prayerful atmosphere are very nurturing, often the grounds are lovely & there are walking trails, meals are provided, you can participate in the Daily Hours (prayer observances at regular times of day), & the suggested donation is usually very reasonable.

I want to head south so as to be in a place that's warmer. It's looking as if I may go to Kentucky, which I hear is beautiful. Don't have dates or any details yet, but I'm pretty excited!

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PJBOKC 2/23/2008 11:00AM

    That sounds like just what you need! Maybe you can plan some mini retreats at home for a few hours at a time to reward yourself for accomplishments - both with fitness, all the special work projects you've completed, etc. Then your trip to Kentucky will be a big reward.

Ruth, you work so hard and participate in so many activities for good causes. You deserve some time just for RUTH. People who work in healthcare (especially women) can become so giving they don't take care of themselves. We have a saying about that in healthcare. It's something like - you must take care of the caregiver if the caregiver is going to be able to care for others.


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LINDAMARIE56 2/18/2008 1:06PM

    Lake Cumberland is a beautiful place, and if you come to Ky. anywhere close to me and Shannon, it might be cool to meet a couple of Spark buddies!

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SHANSHE 2/18/2008 2:46AM

    Ruth, come on to KY gal! It is a beautiful place. not sure where in KY you are going, but where I live, it is awesome!

Give more details when you figure them out.


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Winter hunger

Thursday, February 14, 2008

I find myself thinking about food a LOT . . . craving it at times. Good food, not junk. I haven't been depriving myself or going hungry, so I know the craving reflects something else. It's stress--too much to do, too many responsibilities, relentless winter weather, snow snow & more snow, having to measure my steps because of treacherous ice on the sidewalks, feeling as if the world isn't welcoming when I leave my home each morning . . . & aware that the turbulent weather is probably a sign of global climate change, a long-term problem for all of us.

And it's also a lack of endorphins & well-being from exercise, since I haven't had much of that for a while. I've had to meet some deadlines & prioritize rest.

A very challenging time.

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PJBOKC 2/23/2008 10:52AM

    Ruth, I'm so sorry for all the stress you're feeling from so many different sources. Cold weather is ok if you don't have to get out in it, but it's certainly not pleasant to be in. Be very careful walking on the slick walkways - you certainly don't need an injury added to everything else you have going on. I know what you mean about the cravings - I've been experiencing the same thing for about 3 weeks (since I broke my ankle and arm).

You mentioned on our team page about using the mini stepper inside. That might be very good for you - even if just a few minutes a day.

I pray you'll find some things you can eliminate from your "to do" list, and have some relaxation time - time to just sit, do something relaxing and peaceful.

Remember the scripture that touched your soul a few days ago - Matt 11:28-30.

I just said a prayer for you!

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SHANSHE 2/17/2008 2:14AM

I know you are going through a very challenging time right now... Is there any way you might could "fool" your brain into thinking it is summer? Warm the house up, close the windows/curtains so you don't see the snow, turn on some beach music, turn the lights on wear a pair of shorts, and just tell yourself it is sunny and warm outside? Just for a little while? Maybe read a book that has a summer settting?

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Back to tracking

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

I made a deal with myself: as long as I'm in the 140s I don't have to track, but if I get to 150 or above, it's back to tracking food & liquids. Having enjoyed a number of treats & second helpings lately, it's not surprising that this morning I was at 150. So I just tracked & will do so again tonight.

Hopefully it won't take long to return to the 140s. But I am not going to pressure myself too much, because I need to take account of the hard toll this winter is taking on me physically & emotionally. As I write this it is snowing yet again . . . surely Chicago has surpassed another record by now. What I need is to go into a kind of hibernation--not going incommunicado but lowering my self-expectations. Work, family, church, & Colombia work are enough to juggle; I need to stay healthy but not obsess over weight & calories; if I get any writing & art done, I'll consider that a bonus. I think the weekly art session that I had envisioned as a Lenten discipline will be made an Easter discipline instead.

It feels really good to let go a bit more.

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PJBOKC 2/23/2008 10:43AM

    Ruth, when I was reading your 2/11 blog, I was thinking how you are always so busy. I think "slowing down" is definitely something you could consider. You seem to have a "lot on your plate".

Your plan to track above 150 is a great idea. WHEN I get to goal, I'm going to consider that as part of a maintenance plan as well. Thank you for sharing your great ideas.

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SHANSHE 2/12/2008 3:15PM

    You can only do what you can do Ruth, and yes, it is hard trying to make it through winter when it is so cold and dark. but God will get you through this!

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