My ear hurts - cue violins

Monday, August 13, 2012

I have an ice pick in my head. Or at least it feels like it.

The super boring details (feel free to skip this paragraph) is that I have essentially sprained my jaw. Actually, I'm pretty sure my 3 year old sprained my jaw by running and jumping into my face on multiple occasions. Motherhood occupational hazard. So anyway, the sprained jaw presents itself as ear pain. Migraine headache level ear pain. All. The. Freaking. Time.

So, it hurts to exist. It also hurts to eat. Waaaahhhhhh...(violins).

And you know what? It doesn't slow my eating down one iota. I know that this pain is going to keep me up at night. I know that the less chewing I do, the less it will hurt and the sooner I will get better. And yet, I eat.

I don't feel good, so I medicate with food, even when the immediate consequence is pain. This is not good. I need to get to the bottom of this.

Today I didn't have breakfast. It actually hurt too much. I had oatmeal for lunch. I'm on the senior citizen diet right now. Soft food only. And a steady diet of anti-inflamatories.

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The Best Laid Plans, Breakfast, and Other Random Thoughts

Friday, August 10, 2012

I got up at 5:45 this morning. It was dark.

I was going to run early because I had to be in town at 8:00. I even posted on SparkPeople about checking myself into the looney bin for being up that early.

I got in the car to go to the park. I drove halfway there and my car started doing the shimmy. Ooof. That was the end of my early morning running adventure. Lucky for me, I was able to get the car home, and it seemed to stop doing it's little dance. Of course, it didn't do anything out of the ordinary when my husband drove it. It reserves its weirdness for me alone.

Fortunately, my appointment took less time than I thought, and I was able to get home before my husband left for the office. I even had time to get out for that run before he left. Score.

It was an awesome run. And I think it was because I had breakfast. Not that I don't usually have breakfast, but my mornings usually go a little like this:

Wake up. Swear under my breath about it being morning already. Get up. Stumble to coffee. Find some clothes, possibly from the dirty clothes pile. I am going to run in them after all. Search the house for my keys. Go run. Drink water. Eat breakfast.

So, food in my belly, in addition to coffee helps. Such a novel concept. It takes a while for things to sink into this girls brain. Especially early in the morning.

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I am resisting Kraft Mac and Cheese right now. It is HARD.

Wednesday, August 08, 2012

My husband is going to a baseball game with a friend.

To ease the pain for my children, we are having a "picnic dinner." It's Kraft Mac and Cheese and a movie. The kids love it. We close the drapes to make the living room into a movie theater. The kids even got "dressed" for the movie. My three year old daughter is currently wearing jeans, a dress AND a sweater. It's 85 degrees out. She won't let a little thing like the temperature mess with her fashion.

Mac and Cheese. It looks so...delicious. Oh, so delicious.

In an attempt to not eat it, I warmed up some leftover fish, a couple red potatoes and green beans. Meh. Not really many calories either. So I went foraging in the garden and came out with cherry tomatoes and basil. Add feta, and PRESTO! Deliciousness.

The stinking kids are STILL eating the gooey goodness over there....gah.

So I'm on spark people attempting to focus and watching a fat Mr. Incredible not fit in the super-tube shooter thing. This is encouraging. I do not want to be fat Mr. Incredible. This shall help me focus. Mac and Cheese leads to less healthy Nikki. Especially since it is my kryptonite, and I can't just have a little taste. One taste leads to me making myself an entire box.

I will block the children with my computer, look at spark people and NOT eat. I am full. I am full. I AM FULL!!! Is there a Mac and Cheese Addicts support group on here??

Like I said in my last post, onward.

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A weekend recap

Tuesday, August 07, 2012

I failed.

We went away for the weekend. It was beautiful. I had a lovely time with my family. And I ate like a horse. I was too tender in my improved ways to hold up under the intense pressure of last weekend. Its an important lesson in having friends who encourage you to make healthy choices.

On the 10 hour car ride home, my most amazing husband suggested we have a "Week of Clean Living." Aka - gluttony weekend detox. It was rather brilliant, really, and just what we both need to get back on track. We set some goals for the next seven days:

1. Eat out three times or less
2. Exercise 5 times
3. Consume 3 alcoholic drinks or less
4. Eat one meal or less per day involving cheese

We talked about our biggest hangups with a healthy lifestyle. We both currently exercise 3 times a week, so upping to 5 isn't that big of a deal. His biggest issue is cheese. Mine is portion control. It was good to talk about this and set some goals together. It will be easier together.

I got on the scale tonight, and I'm up 4 pounds. Not as bad as it could be. I'll be interested to see what the scale says in the morning.

Onward!

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Success and a challenge

Wednesday, August 01, 2012

It's been one week since the fateful Cleveland weight in. I'm starting to think the scale may have been broken. I weighed in today. My scale says I've lost 9 pounds. In one week. What? That is awesome news. I'm confused, but also, I couldn't be happier.

I need to remember this if the scale refuses to move for the next month.

It's also good motivation to stay on track this weekend. Tomorrow we head out to stay with a friend at his cabin on Lake Huron. This is seriously my favorite weekend of the year. There is no phone, no email, no chaos, only fishing, peace and food. That's going to be the challenge. We've been doing this every summer for the past 5 years, and these weekends are characterized by overeating. In a big way. It will be tough because I won't have my food tracker and I won't have much choice over what I eat.

I'm going to try to do two things. First, I'm going to avoid seconds. Even if the food is super bad for me, I can control the situation by controlling how much of it I eat. Secondly, I'm filling my cooler with every piece of fruit and veggie in my house and taking it with me, so I have some healthy options.

I can do this. My goal is just to maintain over the weekend, and get right back on track when I return.

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