Thursday, March 01, 2012
Phew! This week & past weekend has been just another round in the seemingly ever-present battle with t-bug's general health since the new baby was born. We went to story hour at the library last Thurs, & Fri saw her with a cough & a clear, runny nose. Ugh. We wrote it off as allergies & flew into our busy weekend. Sun saw her nose running like no tomorrow, a worsened cough, & additionally, two exceptionally watery eyes. Definitely allergies, right? THEN, she started the fever. Uh oh.
Now, we have to take fevers, even mild ones, very seriously in this house. Last summer, t-bug had a fibreal seizure. (She gets them from me...oh, joy.) It was honestly the scariest moment of my entire life, even as I knew what was happening. I was actually holding her when she seized (which may or may not have been a blessing). Up until that point, I never gave her medicine unless her temperature reached 102 or so. Her temp climbed too fast, & she seized at 102.3. For those of you who've never dealt with a seizure, imagine that you're holding your 2-yr-old child in your arms, & her entire body goes completely rigid while her eyes go vacant & her face goes slack. You're looking at your child, but she's not there. Absolutely terrifying.
So, back to our topic, t-bug started running a fever on Sun, which means that I was busy checking her temperature (over & over & over) & dosing her with meds as needed. Lots of missed sleep (on top of having a newborn). Rough times. I absolutely loathe fevers now. This is the second or third fever t-bug's had in the 6 weeks since new baby girl arrived. I'm praying it's the last. We're all going stir-crazy trapped at home & not able to socialize.
But today, all is well! Her fever finally broke on Tues, & her cold's been steadily improving since then. We're still stuck at home, but I'm tracking my food again today. So far, so good! Working on plans for dinner (who here loves all the yummy recipes on Pinterest???). I've currently used up only about half of my allotted calories for the day, & the day's half over!
Still waiting for the all-clear from my doctor for exercising & housework (especially vaccuuming, which is apparently a no no when living with bladder prolapse). I'm pretty exhausted still, so although I was toying with the idea of attempting a short walk on the treadmill, I'm probably not going to do it today. Dr appt is next week (changed from the week, since t-bug had a fever, & I didn't have anyone to watch her), so after I see him, I'm starting my exercise routine with gusto!
It's soooooo good to be back. Even though I'm not doing much yet, I'm slowly getting my head back in the game. I figure that's an important part, too, b/c true health involves mind, body, & spirit. Getting my mind into "healthy lifestyle mode" is necessary. I'm getting there!
Thanks for all the support! May the spark be with you!
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
So I pretty much went into hibernation mode during my pregnancy. Once I started my classes last August, I just couldn't juggle everything. So sorry, & I missed everyone who's befriended & encouraged me since I restarted Sparkpeople last year!
But the baby is here! & classes are done! & I'm now a busy, tired mommy of a toddler & a newborn. Phew!
I'm approaching the 6-week mark since having the baby, which hopefully means I'll get the all-clear to return to normal. Unfortunately, after the baby was born (which was a long, drawn-out, excruciating process), it turns out some of my internal organs prolapsed. Oops. So I've been resting & taking it easy the last several weeks. What does that mean? No heavy lifting (sorry, T-bug, Mommy can't pick you up) & lots of reclining with my feet up...& just having my feet up in general. & Kegels...lots of Kegels. Can I just say right now that I've been bored out of my skull??? & lamenting my inability to start tackling my chunky, thunky thighs.
Fortunately, I'm not too much heavier than I was when I got pregnant, so I didn't undo all of my progress. Yay! & hopefully I'll be able to join the next round of the BLC (Ladies, send me info, plz???). Just another week or 2, hopefully, & I'll be shooting for 45 mins of exercise 6 days a week. & in the next couple of days, I'll start tracking my food again. (BTW, I've been eating a lot of crap the past week or so, so I'm dreading weighing myself to update my weight here. Yipes!)
So check my page to see a pic of my beautiful new daughter (we call her NBG). She sure is a cutie! Her big sister adores her, too. & shoot me a message! I'll try to catch up with everyone, but obviously, I'm pretty out of the loop...so help me out!
It's good to be back. :-) Can't wait to start seeing my scale go down again!!!!
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
I missed checking in & chatting with everyone here the past couple months! I've been still struggling with exhaustion & some family issues, & now I'm taking a couple more classes at the local state university. Yay!
So the pregnancy is going very well. I'm about 18 wks (almost 19), & my ultrasound is scheduled for just a few weeks from now. We'll hopefully find out then if we're having a boy or girl. I'm very excited! (As is my mother who keeps calling me to ask if I know yet, even though I promised her I'd call her first & then told her the u/s date. SMH.) I have HORRIBLE round ligament pain, but sadly that is normal for me. I had the same with T-bug. Not much helps it, either, so I just usually suffer through. I did a lot of walking for my first day of classes yesterday (about 3+ miles), & the pain was almost unbearable last night. Oy! Baby is growing well, though, despite the fact that I've only gained 2 lbs in the last 2 mos. And that very small gain was not b/c I was exercising or watching my nutrition! Now that I'm getting back into all of that again, I'm hoping I'll start to see a loss while baby bean continues to grow.
Yesterday I was looking at pictures with T-bug, & I was seeing myself from back in March of this year. It was horrifying. I still can't believe that's me. So I'm going to print out one of the pictures & post it on my fridge, so I'll be reminded of what I'm fighting against every time I go to fix a meal or grab a snack. It's amazing how I'm able to block the realities of my body from my mind when I'm not staring at a picture of my obese self. Wow.
In the last couple months, even though I haven't been tracking nutrition or exercising, I have still been making conscious efforts to be more healthy. The main thing I've been doing is continuing to buy & prepare natural, organic, whole foods instead of regular food full of GMOs & pesticides & lacking all of its natural nutrients. I am really starting to think that is why I haven't been gaining weight the past few months. I have discovered so many advantages to going organic, & one is that I am more quickly satisfied with less food. This also translates into a smaller bi-weekly grocery bill, which I did not expect. I really thought shopping at a specialty food store would result in a higher food bill, but I've discovered it's exactly the opposite. In the past 3 months or so that I've been buying organic food, I have saved no less than $500 on our total grocery bill. Whereas before on payday, I'd head to Wal-mart & buy all generic brands & spend b/t $250-300 every 2 wks, now I go to Trader Joe's & have yet to spend more than $230 for a 2 wk period (& most times I spend less). So if you're considering going the natural, organic, whole foods route, but you're nervous about the impact on your budget, take heart! You may very well find yourself eating & paying less like I did!
I guess I'll wrap this up for now. I'm sorry I've been gone for so long & not here to offer encouragement & support. Not to mention that I've just missed all of YOUR support. So I'm back, & I'll be tracking daily again while trying to lose a little more weight before the baby arrives in January. After s/he's born, I'll start my heavy duty training for Tough Mudder. And the less I weigh by then, the better, of course. I'd love to lose 20#s before the new baby arrives! We shall see.
Thanks for reading, & hugs all around! It's good to be back!
Thursday, June 09, 2011
Wow. So this week has been the week from hell, I kid you not. My husband's son is visiting us for 3 wks, & this is week 1. I cannot begin to describe SS's negative attitude or the huge chip he has on his shoulder. I mean, seriously, no one has ever told this child that if you don't have something nice to say, then don't say anything at all.
And don't get me wrong, the kid is thrilled to be spending time with his dad, which is the whole reason I agreed to this. It's a long, convoluted story, but SS is almost 10, & we've met him once before (about 5 yrs ago). DH has sent him cards & gifts (many of which he never got), & DH has paid (an exorbitant amount of) child support since SS was an infant. But our house has kind of avoided interactions with SS's house b/c of issues with SS's mom.
Don't think we don't take some responsibility for SS's problems, b/c we do. But if you've never had to watch your child be raised by someone else whose values & beliefs are the total opposite of yours & know that anything you do in a couple wks every summer will be completely negated within days of the child returning to his normal home, then you really have no idea how depressing, frustrating, gut-wrenching, & hopeless it leaves you. We did it once, & avoided it with SS...until now.
I finally started encouraging DH to deal with the BM, trying to support him having a relationship with SS, b/c I think not doing so has done a number on DH's psyche. And as time has gone by, it's been made more & more clear just how neglected SS has been & how unstable his life has been. (The kid has lived in 5 different states & hasn't maintained the same address for longer than a year.) With men in & out of his life, I figure he probably needs to know that there's one guy there who doesn't leave when the relationship with his mom fizzles out. Psych 101, right?
Anyway. I'm about to kill the little twerp! Ok, obviously I'm exaggerating, but OMG!!! I'm so tired of being made to feel like a peon in my own home! He doesn't thank me for anything, barely acknowledges my existence unless he wants me to do something for him. All I ever hear is how bored he is or how something he's doing isn't fun, etc. I mean, seriously? How can you get together with 300 other kids for organized activities & not have ANY fun? How can a 10yo boy hate playing outside??? Am I missing something?
Granted, DH has to work, so guess who's stuck at home with SS? Yep, me...& DD. So I try to set up activities for him to do while his dad's working...complain. Leave him alone to figure out his own crap to do...complain. Everything is a complaint. And don't get me started on how many times he's asked me to buy him something. OMWerd.
It'd be nice if the kid could remember my name. Or maybe answer a question without sounding like he's answering an idiot. Perhaps if he simply stopped pointing out everything he thinks is wrong with our house or with me or with DD, I would be less stressed. But the kid won't shut up, & he just focuses on everything that is negative to a point where I want him to go away. Somewhere. Anywhere. Just don't be here anymore!!!
I know things probably aren't as bad as I feel they are right now, & I'm sure I could even figure out how to get through to SS & try to build a relationship with him. The problem is that I don't want to. I'm tired of being a step-mom! I just want to gather my own babies close to me & know that I don't have to deal with any other person outside of my own home.
And knowing my luck, the BM will probably find this public blog & post a ranting, raving reply, but I don't even really care about that anymore. She blasts all her issues all over the internet, publicly airing her laundry for the world to see, & denouncing any person who crosses her in any way (real or imagined), so it's really hard to care about pissing off someone like that. KWIM? Oh, well.
So anyway. Thanks for letting me vent. I just needed to get it out of my system. I may post a few more in the next couple weeks. lol Say a prayer for me if you think of it.
Wednesday, June 01, 2011
We got back yesterday evening from our very long trip. It was a 22-hr drive each way with a toddler & me pregnant. Wow. I cannot express enough how glad I am that it's over. Phew!
Since I haven't exercised in two weeks, I'm pleased to say that I haven't done as much damage as I feared. I've gained 2.5 lbs in the past 2 weeks, & I'm thinking the bulk of that may be from not eating well or tracking my nutrition. I actually didn't do too bad with food on the trip up, but once we were there, we ate out most of the time, & then I was chowing down on fast food the whole trip home. Ouch.
What DID surprise me was when my ankles started swelling on the trip home. It was just like when I was pregnant with DD, only then the swelling didn't start until much later in the pregnancy. So I was thinking about it, & I think it's from eating fast food. Heaven knows it's filled with sodium, & I ate quite a bit of fast food during my first pregnancy. So I've committed to avoiding fast food (including Starbucks, sigh) to see if I can avoid any more swollen ankles. B/c seriously, it sucks. I'd rather not deal with it this time around.
This pregnancy is already very different than my last one. For instance, I was working out 3-4 times a week & enrolled in 5 classes at school when I found out I was pregnant with DD, & I started gaining weight like crazy. I remember being so frustrated & unable to figure out what was going on. I gained about 15 lbs in 3 wks at that time. Very upsetting. This time around, I was still losing weight even after I got pregnant, & since the exhaustion set in (about 2 wks ago), I've only gained 2.5 lbs. Quite a difference from the last time. So I'm hopeful that I'll still be able to lose some weight during this pregnancy, although not as quickly as I'd originally intended.
And yes, from everything I've read, it's ok if I lose some weight during this pregnancy as long as the baby is gaining. The main thing is to make sure I'm eating healthy foods & getting enough calories each day while exercising reasonable amounts. So I'll be continuing my Zumba & Curves (while avoiding ab machines), & I'm going to focus on eating organic whole foods with lots of fruits & veggies. If I do all that while avoiding fast food, I expect I won't gain a lot, at the very least. So today I'll be heading to Trader Joe's to stock up on yummy healthy food.
Another thing that's different this time around is that I'm struggling with nausea if my stomach gets empty & with indigestion when I refill it. So we're kinda hoping it's a boy! lol Obviously I have to keep something in my belly, so it's important I have lots of healthy snacks readily available.
So there it is. I'm excited & nervous & determined. I can't believe I'm pregnant again. It really hasn't settled in yet. My first appt is at the end of this month, so at that time I should get my first pic of the baby. Exciting! And as long as I can get to the end of this month, then it's pretty likely that this pregnancy will stick. The uncertainty makes me a little nervous, but I'm trusting God's wisdom. As for exercise & nutrition, I'm determined to eat healthy & exercise regularly, despite my exhaustion. I know it will pass, & I'm not going to gain 50 lbs with this baby like I did with DD. Yes!
Thanks for all the prayers & support. It means a lot. DH is also very excited about this baby, so I'm feeling lots of love & encouragement all around me. It's very motivating & makes me feel good. :-D
I'll still be doing the spark & staying involved with the BLC & all my wonderful new friends here. Yay! Thanks again!
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