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Retweaking the plan....

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Yesterday, after my weigh-in, I was feeling particularly sorry for myself. I've been at 136.5 since April 25th. That's four weeks. I can't break it. So I took at look at the amount of calories that I've been burning and, based on the average of the last six weeks, I reset my consumption calories.
Today, although I didn't exercise, was a success. I met all of my nutritional goals except calcium and iron. I take supplements for both of these. I went over on cholesterol. I have to make that a focus for me because it seems like I'm almost always over. Not by much but I imagine it adds up over time.
ANYWAY! I've got a great challenge for the weekend. It'll hit all the necessary stuff: nutrition, hydration and exercise but it'll be fun trying to get all the points that I can. Hopefully, I can smash this plateau I'm on.
Oh, and on a fun note... there was one of those email coupon deals for a kick-boxing bootcamp: $1/session for up to 20 sessions. I now have 20 classes to attend. I think I'll make the first one AFTER my Half on the 29th. Then it's game on. emoticon

  
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ANDIRUNS 5/24/2012 11:46AM

    I love kickboxing - it's great when you're super frustrated! ;)

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BOBBYD31 5/20/2012 8:12PM

    i guess i better not cross you next time we meet! give roo a hug from me

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BILLALEX70 5/19/2012 10:52PM

    I'm with Suezette; missing baby Roo (and you too).

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SAFARIBABE 5/18/2012 8:35PM

    You CAN do it!! Hang in there!!

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CASSIOEPIA 5/18/2012 8:09AM

    Have a great long weekend!

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A-STRONGER-ME 5/18/2012 6:00AM

    Stay Strong and you will have success!!

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ROUNDTOWNMOM 5/18/2012 5:57AM

    .......I like this plan........especially changing up the exercise a bit to "surprise" your muscles!! Please be careful that you haven't set your calories too low.....not sure what that part of the plan is, but our bodies are programmed to survive.

Happy Friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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ETTEZEUS 5/18/2012 12:10AM

    I miss Roo!!

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05/14/2012 - mind hamster of the day

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

My heart's not in the Spark tonight. My oldest son, Colin, did something pretty thoughtless today and I can't shake the aftershock. Back story - It's been 12 years since his dad & I separated/divorced. In those 12 years, I've rarely received a present that wasn't crafted at school, art camp or something like that and I've been very happy with that situation. However, in the last three years he and Logan, wouldn't have done anything if Paul hadn't pushed them to shop and/or actually put some thought into it. That all aside.... on Thursday, I got a phone call from him asking me if I would pick him up at school, take him to DQ for a birthday cake for his dad, and then drive him to his dad's house across town. I asked him if he pre-ordered, asked if his brother was giving him money for it.... all kinds of questions because, after 12 years of not being together, I had ZERO interest in helping that man get anything, much less pay for it, BUT I love my son and I'd move mountains to make him happy. I digress. The second part of the saga...in the last 12 years, I've had four Mother's Day Sundays with my sons. Their step-mother once told me that it was just another day, "nothing special" and that, if it fell on their weekend, I wouldn't get them for the day. That first year, when I countered with "what if I denied him spending Father's Day with the boys" she told me that "every day was father's day when they were together" ... has been a) getting breakfasts made for her b) receiving cards AND gifts and c) spending that nothing special day with my sons. Yesterday, as the step-mother was away... I got to spend 6 hours with them. I was over the moon. I was a little disgruntled that they a) didn't buy/make me a card, b) got into a video game battle with their step-sister and c) didn't help at all with supper prep or clean-up BUT I was very happy that they were here and we made a pretty good day out of those few hours otherwise. TODAY, I picked up Colin at school and, on the way to DQ, found out that he intended to borrow the money for the cake from me. He'd pay me back with the allowance that he earned at my house. I was crushed. I felt kicked in the heart. They'd already picked up a present, they were making him dinner and, regardless of whether Colin could see it or not, he was making ME buy my ex husband a birthday cake.
I'm so angry with him, mostly because he doesn't see where he did anything that should have made me unhappy. Despite that, he's apologized several times. I'm also angry with myself because I feel like I'm being petty and jealous.
And then there's just this indescribable ache. They barely recognize my birthday, Christmas or Mother's Day...... I think today I just realized how much they take me for granted.
ok, the hamster wheel is squeaking too loud for me to get any more thoughts down. In any kind of sensible matter anyway.....

  
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CASSIOEPIA 5/16/2012 10:17AM

    After sleeping on it, I also thought of this: When they are with you, they feel safe enough to be able to ask for your help with cakes/things for their father. Obviously, they don't have that luxury when they are with the other parent, or they would be asking Dad to buy a cake for YOU. You provide them with a safe place to be, safe enough that they can ask for things that are difficult.

I'll bet they aren't afforded the opportunity at Dad's house to work on things for you.

You are a great Mom. Never doubt that, even when things are not the way they should be.

Love ya, and hope you are having a better day.

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LIZZYP609 5/16/2012 8:26AM

    emoticon I wish I had some great advice for you. I don't. I know how it feels though even though the kids Dad and I are still together.
I have a feeling the boys know exactly what is "expected" of them from their dad. Maybe they think you don't have those same expectations or it isn't a big deal one way or another.
Don't ever feel bad for your feelings. Own them, deal with them and do your very best to worth through them. emoticon

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CASSIOEPIA 5/15/2012 9:54PM

    Love the advise and support already given.

I hurt for you Penny. Those "special" days bring emotions front and centre, no need to feel petty. When you hurt, it's real.

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PRIZM96 5/15/2012 12:25PM

    Oh Sweetie, you aren't being petty at all. First of all, let me give you a big emoticon emoticon
I agree with the wise words of the girls before me. Moms just often get the crappy end of the stick and it just plain sucks. I totally agree with the fact that it's ok to let them know about it too. Help them understand your point of view. They'll get it, but they may need a little push.

I hope a smile reaches your face soon. :-)

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CHEPRBYTHEDOZN 5/15/2012 7:29AM

    Penny-I have tears reading this blog! Wish I had some advice but I have lots of big hugs coming your way! emoticon

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ROUNDTOWNMOM 5/15/2012 6:06AM

    Ah, Penny..........I so agree with OneBusyMom! I'm going to add, however, a bit of a perspective as a divorced mother.

I have 2 older children......DS is 24 1/2 and DD just turned 28. Their father and I have been divorced for 10 years. In the beginning, while they both were older, they had some interesting takes on things from two different standpoints. They both love me without any doubt, but they both tried desperately to please their Dad and to keep him in their lives in one way or another. Yep, a step-mom entered the picture (and had been in the picture longer than I knew), but she was a very distant step-mom and still is. She has no idea what to do with kids no matter what their ages............and they are both fine with that. It's their Dad.......... DS and his Dad had a major "falling out" and they've not spoken now for somewhere around 6 years. DD, however, is a different story. Acceptance is everything to her, and she has yet to feel like her Dad accepts her as she is. So, while I'm the one closeby, (they live now in Kentucky - we're in Ohio), and while I"m the one who is the "do-er", he's the one she gets most concerned about "pleasing'. I am the recipient of cards (when they both can afford them!) and surprise planning................but that comes with age, I think. They have both gotten more thoughtful in those realms than they were in earlier years.

In our society, for whatever reason, we don't seem to think it's ok to talk about those things with our kids that hurt. We encourage them to talk to us and let us know what's going on, but we don't let THEM see the "human" side of us. Your boys love you beyond what you know. They are *boys*, however, and you need to help them *learn* to be thoughtful..................otherwi
se they will take you, and perhaps in later years, their wives/significant others for granted and not realize that they're doing something hurtful. It's encouraging that Colin apologized to you................ now help him *understand* the hurt.......not just see it.

emoticon Wish I could give you this in person!

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ONE*BUSY*MOM 5/15/2012 2:29AM

    Oh, Penny, you aren't being petty at all. You're their mom, and like most moms, you probably bust your butt doing everything you can for your kids. Of course you deserve some recognition and appreciation, especially on special holidays like your birthday, Mother's Day, and Xmas. And then to hear that their stepmother is getting pampered on what is rightfully your day, well, that would break my heart as well.

It sounds like you can't negotiate with their dad & stepmother to have your sons on Mother's Day, but can you talk to your sons about how you are feeling? While they seem generally unaware that they are hurting you, the fact that Colin did apologize today indicates that he's not totally oblivious and how you feel does matter to him. Maybe a heart to heart with your sons is all they need to realize that they've got to start showing you that they love and appreciate you, which I'm sure deep down they do.

Believe me, I'm not a traditional Asian mother, but in that controversial book "Confessions of a Tiger Mom", there was this one incident where her kids threw together a crappy card for either her birthday or Mother's Day, and she told them, "I reject this. I work hard for you, so the least you can do is put some effort into this one day of the year for me." And so they did. While I definitely don't agree with her philosophy on child-rearing, her response in this situation did strike me as fair. Likewise, I think it's fair for you to expect a little more out of your sons. And I think it's okay to tell them that.

And remember, you're a GREAT mom. Your boys and Roo are lucky to have you.

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PLAN & Friday's results

Saturday, May 12, 2012

P ~ PLAN healthy food & exercise ahead of time.

I have three weekdays a week when we can have dinner at home, calmly, as a family: Monday, Thursday and Friday. I've printed off three Spark recipes that I am going to attempt to create this week.
Monday - Chef Meg's super fast pork & veggie stir fry. I'll make it with brown rice.
Thursday - Chef Meg's orange miso grilled salmon w/veggies and couscous.
Friday - Coach Nicole's grown up grilled cheese which I'll make with low sodium tomato soup. I have about two hours between picking up my nephew and substitute instructing for the women-only learn to run clinic. Hopefully, this digests well.

L ~ LIFT your rear into gear.

Today I did 24 minutes of stair climbing. Six sets (up & down) of 159 stairs. The last set I chose to climb 3 (single) stairs and then take two at a time 3 times. REALLY got the heart rate up.

A ~ ANNOUNCE on your team chat your biggest time hurdle(s) and your plan to overcome it.

My biggest time hurdle is my six month old baby, Roo.

N ~ NIBBLE your freggies, the original grab and go fast food! Eat 5 (1 cup) servings of freggies each day.

Today I focused hard on this. I had a large banana at breakfast, yogurt w/berries for snack, a small salad with lunch and a bigger salad with dinner.


BONUS for streaking this weekend! Exercise at least 20 minutes each day of the challenge. emoticon

  
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BE-THE-CHANGE 5/12/2012 6:26PM

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CHEPRBYTHEDOZN 5/12/2012 9:35AM

    YAY!!! this will be a great week,Penny,b/c you're planning!!! guess I should check out some spark recipes...can't say that I ever have. HUGS!

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CASSIOEPIA 5/12/2012 7:33AM

    I'll bet absolutely nobody on your team has a sweeter time hurdle than you! I've been doing more planning lately too, and finding it is so helpful.

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ALYNNSELLNER 5/12/2012 2:17AM

    good job on being prepared for the upcoming week! sounds like you'll be successful!

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Plan....

Thursday, May 10, 2012

PLAN! To beat the excuse “I don’t have enough time”

“Don't say you don't have enough time. You have exactly the same number of hours per day that were given to Helen Keller, Pasteur, Michelangelo, Mother Teresa, Leonardo da Vinci, Thomas Jefferson, and Albert Einstein.”
― H. Jackson Brown Jr.

You are given 24 hours in a day and a choice in how you use those hours. PLAN to participate in your healthy lifestyle journey.

P ~ PLAN healthy food & exercise ahead of time! (100pts one time)

Mark on a calendar your busiest 3 days for the following week. Plan your main meals for those days. Check your pantry for ingredients and mark anything you need on your grocery list to purchase before the week starts.
Mark each day you plan to exercise for the following week. Include the time you will exercise and what exercise(s) you will be doing.

L ~ LIFT your rear into gear! 20-60 minutes of daily intentional exercise. (25pts per 20 min up to 60 min per day)
A ~ ANNOUNCE on your team chat your biggest time hurdle(s) and your plan to overcome it! (100pts one time)
N ~ NIBBLE your freggies, the original grab and go fast food! Eat 5 (1 cup) servings of freggies each day. (50pts per day)


BONUS for streaking this weekend! Exercise at least 20 minutes each day of the challenge.

  
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GAYEMC 5/11/2012 10:22PM

    Have a great weekend!

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BLACKROSE_222 5/11/2012 12:56PM

    I think you have an amazing plan in place, and look forward to seeing how you are doing!

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RUNNINGWILD 5/10/2012 10:16PM

    Good thing the boys are at their dad's this weekend and Roo's too young to be scarred for life, eh emoticon

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CASSIOEPIA 5/10/2012 10:03PM

    emoticon Watch out for that weekend streaking!

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Today, I promise....

Saturday, April 28, 2012

Today, I promise I will not quit.
I pledge that no matter, how many ups and
downs I pass through,
I will continue on my journey.
I pledge to make a NEW START today,
and forgive myself for my past,
and to stop being so critical of myself.
I pledge to take control of myself,
To Stop making excuses,
And stop blaming other people or situations.
I pledge to treat myself as I would my Best
Friend,
Because that is who I am.
I pledge to stay in the race
and to be a WINNER!

signed: Linda S. Jayne (Geminisue)
04/13/12

signed: Leisa (Sunflowergal40)
04/26/12

Signed: Chris (chriskenandkids)
04/26/12

Signed: Linda (scoutmom715)
04/27/12

Signed: Nancy (tedybear2838)
04/28/12

signed: Yvonne (travelnista)
04/28/12

signed: Ursula (Urleec)
04/28/12

signed: Sandbbar
04/28/12

signed: Sheila (SKFerebee)
04/28/12

signed: Penny (RUNNINGWILD)

****Original from blog of from Linda S. Jayne (Geminisue)

  


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