"if you're not puking, you're just not working hard enough"

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

I need to adopt a little of this attitude at work. I'm just not feeling like I'm going to get anywhere as a full-time PT. I'm confident with the programs but I am not good at selling myself. And people still make me nervous enough that I don't think my confidence is coming through. Maybe I just need more training & time?
Or maybe I need to go see Fedex about the Admin position they called me for. Just what I needed .... another employment decision to make.

  

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ONE*BUSY*MOM 10/22/2008 5:57PM

Penny, definitely give yourself more time. You love doing PT and I'm sure you're excellent at it. As you do it more and more, you'll develop that confidence and it will come through to your clients. Then your clients will tell others and suddenly, you'll have more work than you can handle. When I first started IT consulting, I HATED looking for work. It was so discouraging trying to find clients. Then I got one, then I got another, and now, I've had work with that same client whenever I've wanted it for the past 4 years. It's so hard getting started with any new career -- don't get discouraged! You're smart, you care about people, and you're so brave for even doing this. You're going to be just fine. Really. You are. Comment edited on: 10/22/2008 5:55:09 PM Report Inappropriate Comment

SMARA77 10/22/2008 3:42PM

I think as women we are especially prone to selling ourselves short and for not being good at bragging about what we are good at. Be patient with yourself and practice "faking" the confidence if your feeling nervous. You can do this and be great at it too! I don't know you that well at all but I know I have had similar conversations with myself that usually boil down to me being afraid to try and fail so its easier to decide to quit on my own terms. Just my 2-cents but I think you can do it and it sounds like others do to!! Report Inappropriate Comment

RACING4ME 10/22/2008 1:15AM

No, maybe you need to chat with me about how to market you!! YOu are an amazing girl with a ton of talent. Let's harvest that, and you can move towards the next level. P, don't sell yourself short - you have what it takes, you just don't know how to let others know that. Hugs, Trish Report Inappropriate Comment

Have you ever....

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

just been sitting around and the strangest pondering pops into your head? I was reading the comics this morning and Bucky mentioned that 'vegetarian's food is too boring' and it go me to thinking..... are the pets of vegetarians fed vegetarian food, too? I mean, they'd have to be, right? Otherwise, that'd be kind of hypocritical.

See I told you it was a strange pondering.

  

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BABEZ1 10/21/2008 2:38PM

That is some very funny pondering!! Thanks for the laugh!! Report Inappropriate Comment

GEOGIRL 10/21/2008 9:57AM

Very funny pondering, it reminds me of the cat food commercials where a person plays the part of the cat and wants to know "where the meat is." Not that I am a vegetarian but there is noway my cat would be one either, she may eat some plant leaves and cat grass but howls when I am late with the soft meat like substance, LOL. Then on the other hand our dogs love veggies and fruit, I had two big bad beasts begging for a piece of mandarin orange last night! Report Inappropriate Comment

Glenmore Reservoir (and the rest of my Sunday)

Monday, October 20, 2008

At some point this week, I must have completely lost my mind. How else would you explain my agreeing to do an 11 km run between two long walks?
This morning I met up with the walking half of my Half Marathon clinic and did a brisk 7 km walk. THEN I went back to the Running Room and met up with some of my buds to train for the "Last Chance Half Marathon" for a nice 11 km run. And THEN, I met up with some SparkPeople and walked another 11 kms. It was a fabulous day. I burned 1471 calories. Hopefully, it'll pay off in tomorrow's weigh-in.
It was definitely a good day, though. I love getting to spend time with my friends. I have to work harder at making it happen.

Tonight, I used every ounce of willpower I own not to call my ex's wife and give her a piece of my mind. We're ALL supposed to go camping this weekend with the JFWs and they don't want me to go. It'll be "awkward". Whatever. Regardless, the boys and my step-daughter have been looking forward to it. So have I. Tonight, the boys come home and tell me that my SD can go but can't participate in any of the activities.... she's not insured. So I call the head warden. Apparently, it's the ex's DW that pointed that out to the head warden. How insanely manipulative do you have to be and how much do you have to hate someone to hurt my children to get to me? ANYWAY, between the head warden and I, we found a way for my step-daughter to go AND participate. The ex's DW if going to have a conniption. Serves her right. The witch.
Oh and the point of this story: my emotional trigger is anger. When all of this happened, I didn't reach for the junk. I had a healthy snack. And posted to my blog. YAY ME!

  

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FITGIRL15 10/20/2008 6:05PM

I'm sory about your family drama! That stinks! I hope your kids and you get to go and enjoy yourselves, despite the evil tricks of "the witch" LOL (Great name for her, with Halloween on the horizon! lol) You are amazing! Logging lost of KM's walking and running! What a great weekend! I hope you enjoyed the time catching up with friends! Report Inappropriate Comment

SMARA77 10/20/2008 5:10PM

Good for you! You rock! Not only did you burn a ton of calories and make good decisions on food in the face of being super mad but you also put it to the witch! Its really not fair when people hurt the kids to get to the adults...not cool!! Report Inappropriate Comment

GEOGIRL 10/20/2008 9:52AM

I second the amazing restraint you have Penny! I can totally see how anger is a trigger and kudos to you for taking on the issue and sorting it out for your step-daughter. Congrats on all your walking/running, that is so impressive! I spent Sunday in bed with a migraine, I will get out with all you SP Calgary people someday! Report Inappropriate Comment

KWASYLIW 10/20/2008 12:28AM

Good restraint! Its better to bring it here! Report Inappropriate Comment

Today's Horoscope

Friday, October 17, 2008

I hate when they're almost bang on.. it creeps me out.

"Your current dilemma sets your need for stability against your desire for change. Unfortunately, if you try to force a resolution to this irresolvable conflict, you'll only make yourself more frustrated. Although you might be eager for something new today, it's important for you to also appreciate what you already have in your life. " By Rick Levine

I know that I love my job as a personal trainer but not having a stable (salaried) income makes my nerves shaky.
Yesterday's funk is lifting... I already feeling a little better. Thanks everyone for your words and support. It really helps knowing you're here.

  

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HEAVENLYCHILD83 10/17/2008 12:55PM

I agree about the horoscope thing. It creeps me out too when it's dead on. And that has been happening a lot with me lately, lol. I understand about nerves being shaky when you don't have a stable income. I've been there myself. Hopefully it improves for you. Report Inappropriate Comment

In a real funk today

Thursday, October 16, 2008

I woke up this morning feeling really "icky" despite having a REALLY good night's sleep. I went to work anyway and had a productive hour with one of my clients. After that I went to the chiropractor. Usually, the combination of those two events would be helpful to my mood but I just can't shake this off. To make matters worse, I still have to put on a happy face for the HHES Run Club this afternoon AND another three hours at work. What I'd really like to do is go to bed and sleep until this mood lifts. Bleah.

  

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WONGERCHI 10/17/2008 8:04PM

I know what you mean, I've been stuck in it since Thanksgiving. It feels like one big dark cloud.... Don't worry though, there's always a silver lining. Get some rest, do something to pamper yourself and it'll be over before you know it! Oh, belated on the Half! Loved your race report. You rock. Adrian Report Inappropriate Comment

ONE*BUSY*MOM 10/17/2008 2:04AM

Sorry, didn't read this until the end of the day, but here's a little sunshine anyway. Hope it helps! Report Inappropriate Comment

KWASYLIW 10/17/2008 1:15AM

Sorry for your funk! If you need anything, I am here for you babe!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

FITGIRL15 10/16/2008 6:49PM

Maybe something along your journey today will lift your spirits! I hpe that happened! (For me, it was the pleasant bus driver this morning! :) Report Inappropriate Comment

CANUCK_COUGAR 10/16/2008 4:23PM

Hi there: I can relate to how you're feeling today. It will pass. Wishing you an excellent weekend in AB! How's the running weather there? Report Inappropriate Comment