Thursday, July 08, 2010
Given the choice I apparently would just put things off 'til tomorrow....
I would start eating better, exercising more, caring about how I dress, try to look more like a girl and not some androgynous blog, put on some makeup, make sure I brush my teeth in the morning, use the ungodly expensive moisturizing cream with sunscreen that will reduce/prevent my wrinkles, pack my lunch, eat a real breakfast and not just grab a Luna bar, stop and get gas and not let my tank stay continually on E because I hate getting gas, not only make a to do list for work but...uh follow it!, pack my gym bag and use it, hang up those folded clothes from the wash instead of letting them pile up on my dresser, scrub the bathtub (seriously if you do this with any regularly- major brownie points),....heck I might just save the world or cure cancer...........just not til tomorrow!
Never far from my mind is the ever increasing need for nap time....how I miss the middle of the day, colored mats I would snuggle on and actually sleep! I just feel so T I R E D- it's my number one excuse that I come up with about not moving my butt and doing the things I would rather not do. And it's a lame excuse.....I know, I know it's a wayyyy lame but how deceptively easy and simple those little words slip from my subconscious to my lips "I'm tired" and just like that I drop everything and mimic a bump on a log......well to be exact it would be a cushion on a couch.
I know that I will gain more energy if I go exercise and feed my body the right foods - it's just hard to get going in the first place. Well I officially am just going to have to fake it til I make it because we all can guess what happens when I relax and say I'll do it tomorrow.....yep.....I say the same thing the next day and the next day and the next day.......
So ssssssh! Don't let my lazy self hear this but I'm dragging it through the motions at the gym, making my lunches and generally going to stop pretending I will miraculously turn into a person who likes lifting weights and cooking and eating healthier options (like eggplant and zucchini) when I never even give myself a chance to explore them long enough (you know longer then a couple of months would be nice) to really experience them to make an educated decision. I always and I mean always do well for a time then slip up and have to start all over and it's just time to stop! Today is tomorrow and I'm going to get this done!!!
This was my game face in February, when I started on SP (and well sometimes you don't have to look far for some motivation-I've reread all my blogs and between what I wrote and the great support and advice you all put on them- I'm feeling pretty confident that it's time to put on my summer game face.....picture to follow later!)