Friday, June 03, 2011
Happy JUNE, my lovely Sparkers!! Can someone PLEASE tell me how it got to be June SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FAST?!?!?!?
I have NOT been able to blog at all lately! First off, I have been putting forth conscious effort to spend more time with my precious kids, since my May exam is out of the way and I am out of class!! And secondly, our internet has been totally unreliable lately, and we are experiencing long periods of time throughout the day when we simply can't get a connection. It bites. But spending time with my kids does NOT, of course!! =)
Anyway, my weight has not budged. I am still sitting far above where I want to be. My middle section has gotten and stayed soft and flabby!! And my lovehandles have expanded and hung around for the past couple of months. Ugh.
But how many blogs have I written lately with this same sentiment?? I REFUSE to make this a whiny blog. I KNOW what needs to be done.
This is NOT a "I need to get my butt in gear" blog.
No, and it is not a "Please help me - I need motivation" blog.
This is NOT a "Why do I keep doing this to myself" blog.
Enough whining. Enough saying "I'm gonna...". Enough talk. Talkin' about it, and tryin' to psych myself up to get moving in the right direction is just not getting the job done. I have written enough whiny blogs, and how many "starting over" blogs are posted every day on here??
No, this IS not an "I'm gonna... " This is an "I AM doing something about it" blog.
I have recommitted, and I am working on overhauling my diet. I AM DOING IT.
I have decided to commit to P90X, and work it around my running. I probably will not do all the DVD workouts, but I will do the ST especially. I did 2 P90X workout days this week, and it really felt GREAT to be doing something different. It's time for change.
And the diet.... I WILL do the diet to the best of my ability (probably without the help of supplements, which is why I say "to the best of my ability"). I have already started overhauling my diet, packing in that protein and cutting out many of the carbs (not all.) It will be interesting to see how my 20-mile run goes tomorrow.
I have found, to get the results I want, I have to cut the carbs down. Not extreme low-carb, but under what is typically recommended. Each time my weight goes up, I come to the same conclusion. I have read the diet recommendations from the P90X guide in detail, and have decided TO COMMIT.
Even if it hinders my running a little in the beginning, I WILL BECOME A FAT-BURNING MACHINE!
Here's my motivation:
Now, these jeans fit me GREAT at Christmas time.... Now, shall we say.... Muffin Top???? Here is where I am now:
Side view - See, here is why I keep my weight low; after having 4 children inc. twins, if I gain just a little, I get an ugly gut. NOT havin' it!!!!
So, you see, my work is cut out for me. I will be checking back in in a week with updated photos, and we ARE gonna get this train moving.
P90X, baby, YEAH!!!!! BRING IT!
Monday, May 23, 2011
I am in DESPARATE need of some serious motivation!!!!!! After getting off to any AWESOME start with Operation Hot Mama, I TOTALLY dropped the ball when I had my killer exam a couple of weeks ago.... Thanks to my fellow class members bringing a bunch of munchie foods (a.k.a. JUNK!!!!) for our "nerves," it all went downhill for me.... I wolfed all that junk down in a nervous frenzy at my exam, and my eating during the days following wasn't MUCH better.
I have been doing "better", but not really great. Running and exercising is going AWESOME, but my eating choices..... And I KNOW diet is a HUGE part if you wanna see RESULTS!!
Then someone on Dailymile posted this:
SERIOUSLY!!! Time to get serious!!! (AGAIN!!)
I WANT RESULTS!! I want to wear my skinny jeans again that I bought over the holidays. I want to feel confident in my bikini, even if I have no where to wear it here in Germany... HAHA! I want to not feel the love handles starting to pad up, and the little tubby-tubby belly flab that is trying to return!
I know what it takes - HARD WORK!! And I am ready to get back on it! I may not EVER look as good as this picture, but there is NOTHING stopping me from looking my best!
Happy Sparking, everyone!!!!
Monday, May 16, 2011
WOW, my date night on Friday night was just AMAZING! I had such a great time with my honey! Our anniversary was actually on Sunday, the 15th, but celebrating on Friday worked out better....
My hubby did GREAT setting everything up! He made it really special. On the rare occasion that we do go out, we are usually so last-minute about everything, and then once the babysitter comes, we still aren't sure where we are going, and we end up discussing it the whole way...
"Where do you wanna go?"
"I don't know. Where do you wanna go?"
"Wherever you wanna go."
And so on.... Kind of annoying, but it happens every time.
Except for last week. He had even planned it out a week in advance, and told me to line up the babysitter. He also picked out a restaurant and surprised me.... And he picked a REALLY cool place that neither of us had been to! It was a Brazilian resturant, which totally surprised me. Really different from what he normally picks.
And then we went to see Der König der Löwe (The Lion King) musical, which was AMAZING too! It's done in Disney style, and uses the music and a lot of the dialog, but is in German. The lighting and stage effects, as well as the music and dancing, were simply mesmerizing!! I totally LOVED it, far more than I anticipated!
This was my hubby at the restaurant. He always takes pictures of me like this, usually without my knowledge, so I snapped one of him. =)
Another picture of the inside of the restaurant.
The theatre for the Lion King was across the Elbe River, so we had to ride a boat across. VERY COOL!
The dome-looking building with the ramp going down to the water was the theatre.
My and my honey on the boat ride.
Here are a few photos I took of Hamburg as we were riding toward the theatre:
These were photos after the show was over, riding back across on the boat. The lights were just too cool!
The blue lights here were a boat that looked like an old steam boat. This picture doesn't give it justice, but it was really cool!
And YES, that date helped me forget all about my silly exam!! We had such a blast. Six years of marriage, and I can honestly say, it keeps getting better!
Hope everyone else had a great weekend, too!!
Friday, May 13, 2011
Some people write race reports.... Here is my exam report.
My exam on Tuesday??? By far the WORST testing experience I have EVER had in my life. This was not just some quick, 90-min, near-all-multiple-choice-with-a-few-fill-i
n-the-blank-answer test. This was an exam covering material that most apprentices in this field study over 3 YEARS. It was all long-answer.
And when I say long-answer, I mean, LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG-answer. And in German. Again, not my first language. For both of those reasons, I was terrified.
It consisted of two 90-min segments, and then a 45-min segment, with 20-min breaks in between. We were there for 5 hours for this test. 5 hours..... 5 hours of nerve-wracking tension and stress.
I didn't barely sleep the night before. I was extremely on edge going to bed, but I tried to just relax and be calm... I fell asleep....
But then woke up at 1 am...
And then 2:18 am.... Then I tossed and turned, with my head spinning with all the thoughts about my coming test....
I started to think, "What if I just got up at 3, got ready, and studied a little more? Is 3 too early?"
"Yes, 3 is too early, but 4... 4 am is NOT too early. I will get up at 4." WHAT??? I laid there and laughed at myself. 4 am is NOT TOO EARLY?? What has being a long-distance runner done to me???? 4 am is not too early. I am a NUT!!
I did get up at 4:30 or so. I just couldn't sleep anymore. Got ready, reviewed a few things, and hit the road.
A lady from my class brought us all care-baggies with goodies and "Nerven-Nahrung" (Stress food) as Germans call it. It was candy bar type junk and Haribo gummi treats. I was wolfing that junk down in a nervous frenzy, even though I was thinking, "This stuff tastes like CRAP!!" So, I ate horribly all day on Tuesday.
The exam was just grueling, as I described. I tried to answer everything, even if I had no idea what answer they were really looking for. I basically BSed my way through the ENTIRE exam, because I didn't feel I really KNEW any of the answers. It was horrible. The last 45-min segment was the WORST, because there were just as many questions as the other segments, but half the time....
I seriously have the feeling that I failed it. I have spoken to many people who know the German schooling system, and they all tell me not to worry. But I don't know if that is just false hope. I have heard that Germans test that way ON PURPOSE - it is meant to be extremely difficult.....
The WORST PART about ALL OF THIS is that I will NOT KNOW until OCTOBER!!! YES, that is right.... OCTOBER!!!! How wrong is that? We are doing our practical exam in October, and they said they will be letting us know then. If I failed, I can retake the written exam in December. I have decided the only thing to do is to put it out of my mind for now, and wait. It is so frustrating, but waiting is my only option.
After the exam on Tuesday, I did NOT feel relaxed, or better having gotten it out of the way. I was restless, couldn't sit still, was worried about how poorly I did. But Monday, I just resolved to just move on. There is nothing I can do.... so TIME TO FOCUS ON MY MOVE!!!
BUT TONIGHT IS DATE NIGHT!!!!!
Hubby and I are going OUT TONIGHT!! I cannot wait. We will be celebrating our 6th wedding anniversary over the weekend (Sunday, May 15th), and my hubby wanted to do something nice. He made dinner reservations somewhere as a surprise - I have no idea where we are going - but then we are also going to see König der Löwe (The Lion King) musical in Hamburg. Babysitter is all lined up. This is gonna be SO MUCH FUN!!!!
Then yesterday, he writes me this email that says:
"You are very beautiful and sometimes I don´t even know why you want to be with somebody like me but I thank God every day that he brought me together with you. I love you and am REALLY looking forward to tomorrow!!"
Yeah, he is a KEEPER!!
Happy Friday, Sparklers!!! Hope everyone has as awesome of a Friday as I am about to have!! =)
Monday, May 09, 2011
Well, I did great on Saturday with my eating, but on Sunday, I must admit, I ate some cookies and I didn't track so well. But I will put yesterday behind, and make today AWESOME!! I am focusing more on my food choices, not just staying within calories. So, although I had cookies yesterday, I also ate a salad with grilled chicken for lunch, and then a salad and soup for dinner. YUMMY!!
Yesterday I posted a blog, but then deleted it, regarding selling our house. I was a little perturbed that our real estate agent seemed to be dragging his feet with our house. It has been 3 weeks since we met with him, and asked him to sell our house for us, and he STILL hadn't gotten our house listed on any big websites.... Grrrr....
He also seemed so hard to get ahold of by telephone, and didn't return our calls quickly.
I felt like he was putting our house on the back burner..... Not cool.
As it turns out, he just got our house listed on a very large website over the weekend. My husband called him today to talk to him today, and he told DH that he already had a prospect contact him!! I know, there may be lots of prospects before someone seriously buys the place, but it feels VERY nice to have it moving in the right direction now!!
So, gotta run! Gotta get this house looking GREAT (again) just in case we get that call!! It's hard keeping order in my house with 4 munchkins running around messing everything up behind me..... LOL
Have a great day, Sparkers! Make the week and awesome one!!
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