Wednesday, April 23, 2014
Things have gotten so out of hand...I can't believe it.
I'm so much heavier. I was once 62.8kg and now I'm verging on 67kg. I've got a chubby face and my clothes are tighter.
How did it get this far?
Becoming totally complacent and unbothered. "Do it later" sort of thinking. Or "Can't be bothered".
This has to stop - because the road from here is only going to get uglier and uglier.
And already I've tried re-starting 3-4 times without success.
I've now read over some of my old blog posts and realized my past self is motivating me right now. I'm motivated to change, to use those principles and use those tactics again.
Because I need this - I cannot ignore what is happening.
I've been quite emotionally upset lately too, hence the relapse. But all is well again and I can't let this affect me now. I'm better than that. I can't slide now.
I'm going to start with the principles I've learned along the way.
How to fill up, stay within calorie range and be satisfied.
I'm going to do just that.
I won't budge down now - I will do it. I'm going to set myself a target:
A+ for 1,200kcals a day - it's my perfect zone with which I lose very well - anything below and I don't as I go into starvation mode.
A for 1300kcals a day - still damn good
B for 1400kcals a day - steady pace
C for 1500kcals a day - recommended and still a pass
D for 1600kcals a day
E for 1700kcals a day - this is maintaining, so not bad, but you're stuck where you are
F for 1800kcals and above - because essentially this is gaining weight, not losing, so it's a total fail.
I'll mark these on my diary and see how many times I pass and fail.
Also will be including my kettlebell workouts - I am groaning in my mind at how much I huff and puff - but I will start the one I used to watch on Youtube again - and take it slowly - I haven't done it in routine since 2014 began so I will be rusty.
My aim is to do it for 5 minutes at first - if I still feel fine, then go for 10 minutes - main goal is to reach 20-30 minutes as before the slump.
Here's to starting again - and never never never never giving up!