Monday, November 15, 2010
I am starting fresh as of Nov 13th. I am only drinking wine at night to relax and help ease my pain in knees and back. I dranked too much on vacation gin and vodka. That's not me or for me. I will put it in the past and move forward. Life is too short to continue to make the same mistakes. I will deal with my pain in a more rational way.
Good luck to everyone out there. Life is a struggle sometimes but we can together make it better.
Sunday, December 06, 2009
It's Sunday and I am preparing for my bunionectomy on Dec. 11th. Pray for me everyone. I will be laid up for awhile. I have been preparing for it by eating right, taking vitamins and starting today resting up. This will be my 2nd Christmas without mom and my 1st without my grandmother. Christmas is about new life and celebrating it. My mom and grandmother have a new life in heaven without pain and suffering. So, I am happy. I think about the happy times now and am doing fine with it. It takes time. I am on the right medications now. With them being right, the back implant working great, no pain meds except Mobic for arthritis, and have the foot surgery, by spring I will be able to exercise faithfully. I had to have a compressed mamogram the other day and it was fine after all. My aunt on my mom's side, just got through with her radiation for her breast cancer. They think she has radiation pneunomia now. Never heard of it. Have you all? They did get all the cancer out. Does anyone out there know what you can do to bring your white blood cell count back up after radiation? I think positive now and have my head screwed on straight and I am stronger than ever. To everyone on sparkpeople, you can succeed in whatever your goal is as long as you get fighting and don't give up. When it's dreary outside, I turn all lights on in the house. I have a note of my refrig. that says, "Seed, Harvest and God". You probably think I am crazy but for some reason I think God has placed those words in my mind. I have a lot of bills and I think God is going to help give me financial freedom. Enough said. I hope this helps someone and doesn't offend anyone. Just take the pieces you agree with.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
I started not to blog about this because I didn't want to look like a loser, not live up to my words and advice, and let everyone down as a motivate and co-leader of emotional eaters team. I have got off of my healthy eating routine. This is no excuse, no excuse, no excuse but I have had a lot of ups and downs in the past 2 years that I have let rebound me into overeating. Eating extra sharp cheese, cookies, candy and bigger portion sizes. I have a spinal cord implant on May 14th. I have put back on 9 pounds. I don't want to ruin my surgery or make me less healthy. I've got off of my water. That's no excuse either. Right now I hate myself. Although, I will not , will not, will not let it defeat me. I've just gotten off the path. Now, it's time to shape my a-- and mind back into gear. Now I am ending this blog and will be changing my weight tracker to reflect my gain.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
I started today out with my water. Sadly to say I didn't drink all my water today. Some days we do good and some days we don't. The key to success is not to let these not so good days get us down. Always aim to do better tomorrow. Try to get it right at least 4 days out of the week. I got online to check out natural remedies to help make us healthier. I am not taking fish oil, vitamin d, calcium, l-lysine, b12, zinc and vitamin e. It is always easy for us to write about success but not our failures. It's easy to give everyone else advice but don't do so good ourselves. I may wonder off of the yellow brick road as I call it but always find my way back on it. So, tonight I am making a menu and plan for myself for tomorrow. I will stick to it tomorrow. I hope this helps some who have not had such a good day too.
Friday, July 17, 2009
What makes us tough and survived? You decide after you read this. No right or wrong answers. Last year I lost my mother who just happened to be my best friend too. This year I lost my grandmother (who was my mother's mom). A week after my grandmother was buried, my sister had a bad car accident. She totalled her car. I was down in the dumps and all of a sudden, a voice said to me, pick yourself up and dust yourself off. You are not that weak to stay down. My body lately, going through all this, has empty holes in it with despair and loneliness. I have to find a way to fill these holes up. Easy task? No. I can fill the two holes up that were the result of loosing my mom and grandmother will memories of all the things we did together and shared. Now, how am I ever going to fill up the hole that results in almost loosing my sister to the bad car accident? Oh, yes! It came to me today. I will have to gradually fill this one up with advise and love to her but without being walked on. It's tough love. I can't heal her of her emotional problems or her lifestyle. I will answer her calls and just listen to her first. Then, I'll do what I can to help her without babying her. The best gift I can give her, is self discipline that I only hope comes from this. I'll do things for her if she meets me half way. Life in not always easy. I have to take action myself to fill these holes up instead of wallering in them and waiting for something to happen. It doesn't work that way. It's like our new healthier lifestyle. It's a constant struggle (like emotionally eating tears away at our soul), but can be done. Imagine, the yellow brick road didn't get traveled in one day. It had struggles and road blocks, but we had to keep on walking until we got to our destination. We have to apply this to our new healthier lifestyle. Will I continue to have ups and downs? Of course. There are no simple instructions to overcome our burdens or loneliness from loosing someone we love. We are have to dig deep into our soul and pull it out. Then fill all the holes up. I hope this blog helps someone. It sure has been therapeutic for me. I hesitated this last line but am putting it in anyway. Some can take it or leave it. It's your choice. Maybe the peace and love of God be with you always. Without him, I do not exist.
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