Monday, February 03, 2014
One year ago today, my nightmare began. A nightmare that would plummet me to a dark, dark place I had never been -- and never want to go to again. I found out my 24 year old son was dying - from anorexia.
It is certainly a year I will never, ever forget. It was a year of begging go to an anorexic hospital, arriving at one in San Diego, walking the floor of an anorexic hospital and seeing the most malnourished, skinniest but still alive possible people ever, and realizing my son was one of them.
A year of begging him to eat, wondering if he had severe kidney damage, trying to stay patient through all his negativity and stupid choices because his brain had totally shrunk due to malnourishment.
A year of planning his viewing and funeral - does he want to be buried or cremated? Taking him to a lawyer to write his will. He's 24 - a mother should not have to think about this! How will I be at his funeral?? I bought a black dress for his funeral.
Staying strong and positive...who else is going to? If I am not, he will give up.
A year of being his advocate...constantly calling his doctors, cornering psychiatrists at hospitals, educating friends and his brother so they "tolerate" him and his eating habits "picking tiny bits of food, cutting food into tiny bits, eating with his fingers and not talking at all while he eats, going to the bathroom - is he throwing up his dinner?". Following him constantly to the bathroom, knowing he was constantly throwing up in the shower...how many showers can he take in one day??
Yes, it was a year of shear hell. A year of reading any book on anorexia I could get my hands on - the ones where the anorexic didn't die at the end. $30,000. on one dropped him the second we moved back east, an apartment in San Diego twice as expensive as home far away from my husband.
But, there were some positives -- a brother in California going through a painful divorce and alienation from his children who tried to help, tons of runs on the beach, a great nutritionist for my son (she was also an anorexic), quality time with my son - car ride to Vegas - with Roxy - included!
And then we came home and it went backward. But, in December, at the brink of death, and a kidney thought to be totally damaged, a psychiatrist in the hospital said something that finally clicked "it's harder to do what you are doing than to let go". And then my son let go.
Today he found out his blood work came back normal...ironically to the exact day one year ago this nightmare began. He still has a long way to go but is so much better than he was.
My point in sharing this with you - this diet thing can go either way. Balance is so important.
Respect your body and yourself. And - watch your children. We are not only their greatest role model, but their greatest advocate. My son was heavy in high school, lost weight by cutting fat and eating half and then kept going when he got to his ideal weight. He is now obsessed with the scale and we are trying to reprogram him. It is a challenge against media posted everywhere!!
Please be aware! I would not wish my 2013 on anyone!!
Saturday, February 01, 2014
A couple of Sparkers asked about veggie cheese. I have used this brand for as long as I can remember.
It comes in all different flavors. I especially like pepperjack and provolone and their parmesan cheese.
You can find it in the vegetable section of most grocery stores.
Thursday, January 30, 2014
I have been focusing on adding more veggies to my diet.
Tuesday I made stuffed peppers - peppers stuffed with a mix of bison, brown rice, onions, diced tomatoes, jalapenos and topped with veggie cheese.
Last night I made red roasted hummus, and coupled it with an apple and walnut salad.
Tonight I gave a new veggie juice recipe a try. I used hot water, boullion, carrot, tomato, kale, onion and southwest seasoning. I like hot veggie juice so much better! And, it totally filled me up!
I also made roasted kale chips.
My HM training is going ok. I have taken a few breaks. I really enjoyed running outside in Florida; it's hard to go back to the treadmill! It is supposed to be 50 degrees on Sunday! Should be a great weekend to run outside.
Here is a picture of my front yard today:
I hope you all are having a fabulous week!
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
I have added TONS of super veggies to my diet. I am still on a quest to find recipes for my "Ninja". It is a beefed up blender. Yesterday morning I threw a carrot, apple, tomato, kale and flax seed in. It was too thick and too sour. I had a hard time with the veggie idea first thing in the morning - I love my oatmeal & fruit!
Last night I soaked garbanzo beans in water. Tonight I made Roasted Red Pepper Hummus (sparkpeople recipe). It came out perfect!
We went to Firebirds for lunch. I had a grilled vegetable kabob. It was delicious and quite filling. I looked the nutrition facts up on line, all numbers looked great except for sodium! I really have to get into the habit of saying "no extra salt" when I eat out! The waiter told me the chefs put a lot of salt on everything.
Today there was a Vitamix salesperson at Costco. He used hot water when preparing his veggie drink. It tasted wonderful! Just like soup. I bought the spices he was selling. The first ingredient is sea salt, so I will be using it sparingly. And now that I have it I will know which spices to use on their own in the future!
I was also lucky enough to have my Sparkbuddy MBTEPP share her veggie juice recipes with me. She juices a lot. Here is what she sent me:
I went into my archives for some recipes, but once you get the hang of your juicer, you will be combining your own flavors. Go easy on ginger root, as it over powers most flavors. I love cilantro and parsley in everything. Kale is a must.
Have fun. MB
Dr. Oz's Green Drink (very good)
Many people have asked us, so here it is, the drink Dr. Oz swears by! This "green drink" is high in fiber, low-calorie and rich in vitamins. You can make this in a low speed juicer or combine all ingredients in an Omega blender.
• 2 cups Spinach
• 2 cups Cucumber
• 1 head of Celery
• 1/2 inch of teaspoon of ginger root
• 1 bunch parsley
• 2 Apples
• 1 Lime
• 1/2 Lemon
The Hulk (My Favorite)
Omega's ultimate green juice recipe! Enjoy!
• 2 Stalks Celery
• 1 Cucumber
• 1 Apple
• 1/2 Lemon
• 1/2 Green Chard Leaf
• 3-5 Kale Leaves
• 1 Cup Spinach
Green Juice (I always added 1 fruit for sweetness, apple or pear)
• 1 cup Spinach
• 2 cups Kale
• 2 Cups Parsley
• 1 Cucumber
• 1 Celery Stalk
Kale Green Juice
Of all green leafy vegetables, kale is the most nutritionally dense.
• 3 Carrots
• 1 Apple
• 3-4 Celery Stalks
• 3 Cups of Kale
• 2 Cups of Strawberries
• 2 Cups of Blueberries
• 1.5 Cups of Raspberries
Apple and Beet Juice (less in more when using beets)
• 1/2 Beet with Greens
• 3 Apples
Wash thoroughly and remove apple stems.
• 1 cup of spinach
• 1/2 cucumber
• 2 stalks of celery
• 3 carrots
• 1/2 apple
Juice cucumbers with their skins on. The dark green skin is a great source of chlorophyll, a phytochemical that can help build red blood cells. Make sure to wash them before juicing.
Heartburn Eliminator (DH favorite)
• 1 Cup Spinach
• 6 Carrots
V8-ish Juice (love this one)
• 1/4 cup water
• 2 tomatoes
• 2 cloves garlic
• 1 handful spinach
• 2 carrots
• 1/4 sweet onion
• 2 celery stalks
• 2 tsp. lemon juice
• 1-2 shots hot sauce
Monday, January 27, 2014
I watched two documentaries last night. The first was called
It discussed the water bottle industry, the state of our tap water, how and where the plastic for the bottles are made, and how it can affect our health. It was very interesting.
"Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead" http://www.fatsickandnearlydead.com/
documents an overweight Australian who decides to do a 90 day detox of veggie and fruit juices only - uses a juicer. He does check in with his Doctor and gets blood tests every other week. He travels across the US as he does this. He interviews and chats with an assortment of people as he travels and gets some great reactions! I found myself cheering him and others he inspired on during this documentary. I also learned more about raw foods and juicing.
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