Sunday, October 30, 2011
I was participating in a SparkPeople Poll and was asked if I was fat growing up. (May not have been the exact wording, but that is how I read it).
I did not know what to check.
Here was my comment:
"I was always told I was by my parents, but when I was older and looked at my pictures I was only chunky in 7th and eighth grade, the rest of the time I was thin. They never told me I was thin - I think it is why even when I am wearing a size 4 or 6 petite I still feel like I am fat! I know it isn't right, but I will never feel like I am thin because of what I was told growing up!"
I am not sure why they did that. My mom is very thin (105 pounds/size 4 petite). She has always been very disciplined - consistently. She has not eaten a dessert or added sugar to anything in over 30 years. At one point she gave up so many different kinds of foods, she was down to a simple salad and I know she went under 100 pounds. She has run countless marathons and 5ks and exercises for 2 - 3 hours per day.
My dad is a different story. He had a beer belly when I was growing up, is a little heavier now. He has huge problem with portion control. He can eat a box of spaghetti by himself in one sitting. He has gone to Pritikin twice, came back thin and eating the right stuff, but ends up eating too much of the right stuff and gaining it all back. He tells us all when we are not eating the right things, but he will grab it in a second off of a buffet table. He acts like he gets desserts for us, but he eats them. He golfs everyday but has to use a golfcart on the course so...
And, even today at age 48, when I lose weight and am at a 4/6 petite my parents tell me I am getting there!
So, I am wondering:
*Do I end up giving up when I get to a size 4/6 petite because I figure - what's the point? I got there and I am still fat? Why bother?
It sounds so stupid, but it is engrained in my head. How do I get past it??
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Today I consumed 1130 calories and lost 1.8 pounds. I haven't wavered off of my food plan. I am eating a ton of veggies - mostly broccoli. I got in 1 hour of exercise (mainly core and arms). The rest of the time, I kept my foot elevated. I watched to movies on t.v., I read the latest Prevention Magazine, and downloaded the book "Unlimited" by Jillian Michaels which I am going to start reading tonight. It will keep my focused. My husband and I also may watch the movie "Bridesmaids".
It started snowing in the early afternoon here. The snow is sticking to the cars, road looks okay. One of my boys is working at a restaurant until 11 and then going to a Halloween party at his college. The other is at his girlfriend's house. I am hoping the roads don't ice up. Hard to believe I have to worry about that in October!!
Friday, October 28, 2011
Today I consumed 1041 calories which was really good because I went out to dinner with my husband and friends. They ordered antipasto for an appetizer - I ate 2 olives. I had 2 small lobster tails, a side salad and mixed veggies (squash, zucchini, onions and red peppers) and an unsweetened iced tea. I did not eat any of the homemade rolls, lunchmeats or cheeses. Yayyy!
I took the day off of work today too. I sat with my foot up most of the day. I did sit and go through old paperwork - threw most of it out. My husband and I went out and did some errands, too. I shopped a little bit at the drugstore and sat in the car while he shopped in Home Depot. I had this wild idea of a wine cork backsplash in my kitchen. We have been saving our wine corks for at least 7 years. He is going to make it using all the corks this weekend. I will post a picture when it is done.
Have a great weekend!
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Ate 1132 calories today. Still under on fat, folate and calories. I am filled. I am eating all good, healthy foods and feeling really good. My husband and I went out to eat with our friends as we do every Thursday night, and I had a salad with grilled chicken, mandarin oranges, almond slices, and strawberries. I used 1 tablespoon of poppyseed dressing - YUM!
I used to have a couple glasses of red wine on Thursday nights, but haven't had any the past three Thursday nights. Not drinking it is what is keeping me under the 1500 calorie total. I do love red wine, but know that I need to stay away from it to lose the rest of this weight.
The restaurant we go to also has hot oil popcorn -- all you can eat. It is delicious, but I skipped that, too. I brought and ate nutrisystem honey mustard pretzels - I ended up sharing them with everyone!
I worked 5 1/2 hours today. My foot was feeling pretty numb the last hour at work. I prop it up when I am sitting at my desk, but I don't think it is high enough. It swells as the day goes on. After work, I went home and took a 1 1/2 hour nap. I am taking tomorrow off of work to give my foot a 3 day break. I am going to keep it up a lot. We are suppose to have bad weather Saturday, so I won't feel like I am missing anything! When I go back Monday, I am going to take breaks while I am at work, and prop it higher. I am not sure how I am going to do that, but I will figure it out.
Finally, I realized last night I am not supposed to weigh myself again until Saturday...so I will wait. I do not want to get obsessed with the scale like I always have in the past. I want to pay more attention to "feeling" healthy. Tomorrow or Monday I am going to get a blood test to see how my cholesterol is doing. It had gone up last year. Between eating healthy, exercising and taking Cholestoff since January, I am hoping it dropped back down.
I hope your week is going well!!
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