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Tribute To My Son, Joey...

Thursday, December 11, 2014


Video of Joey's life span made by Joey's friend, Lindsie, for his funeral

  
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GABY1948 12/21/2014 10:57AM

    What a beautiful family....every ONE of you!

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LOSER05 12/19/2014 10:35AM

    Beautiful video and a wonderful tribute to your Son emoticon

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WARRIORGIRL121 12/19/2014 12:12AM

    This was a beautiful tribute... thank you for sharing it. emoticon emoticon

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SWEDE_SU 12/15/2014 8:35AM

    just lovely. thank you for sharing this wonderful tribute - the love shines through.

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PRESBESS 12/14/2014 8:21PM

    Wow! What a beautiful tribute to your son. There is joy and love all throughout. May your heart be full of his presence always.
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GHK1962 12/13/2014 4:49PM

    I have seen you post to other friend's pages and blogs. I don't think we ever crossed one another's path directly - but today I saw a comment of yours on a friends page that made me sense something sad had happened ... so I wandered over.

And I watched the tribute to your son. His smiles - both young and old ... was grand.

I am so very, very sorry for your loss.

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SPEEDYDOG 12/13/2014 5:06AM

    That great tribute knocked the water right out of my eyes. The clothes, the activities, the cars, the family and friends shown in the photos of Joey's life look so familiar. I have the same photos of my children.

I also see so much love in those photos. You are a great mom.

Bruce

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INFLATED 12/12/2014 7:14PM

    What a wonderful tribute to your son.

I'm sending you hugs and praying for you and your family.

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OVERWORKEDJANET 12/12/2014 5:46PM

    What a wonderful tribute!

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WONDERGALE 12/12/2014 2:31PM

    That was a great tribute. Thanks for sharing it. emoticon

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DRGNHEART 12/12/2014 8:28AM

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so sorry for your loss
i know my heart would be missing if i lost my child
prayer for you and your family

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SUNSHINEYOURWAY 12/11/2014 9:23PM

    What a Beautiful Tribute for your son.
Praying for you and your family.
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WATERMELLEN 12/11/2014 8:24PM

    What a touching tribute to your beloved son. So many happy times and good memories.

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MBTEPP 12/11/2014 7:37PM

    So many precious memories. What a beautiful tribute.

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TERI-RIFIC 12/11/2014 6:49PM

    That was a very touching video at the same time it was heart-wrenching. Life can be just so hard! All I can say is that some people are not lucky enough to have such a loving family as your family obviously is. His life was short by our current standards, but it was full of love. Heaven is beyond our wildest dreams of joy, but losing a child is still so very very painful. I continue to have you in my prayers.

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JAXMOMMY 12/11/2014 5:44PM

    Does it has sound, or just pics? Thanks for telling how long it takes to load. Wishing you warmth and love and peace!

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JDOWM62 12/11/2014 1:09PM

    That was very moving. Lindsie deserves a special hug for that. It could not have been easy to do.

Sending more ((((hugs)))) for you to spread around to friends and family. Make sure you keep one for yourself, too.


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LIVE2RUN4LIFE 12/11/2014 12:49PM

    Your son's spirit shines out in these photographs. I am so sorry for your family's loss.

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SPINNER86 12/11/2014 12:33PM

  I am so sorry for your loss.

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ALOHAEV1 12/11/2014 12:00PM

    Beautifully done. Peace be with your family.

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1CRAZYDOG 12/11/2014 11:23AM

    What a beautiful tribute. So many prayers going up for you. He is your angel forever.

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BOB5148 12/11/2014 11:15AM

  So very sorry for your loss. The video was real nice. Lindsie did a great job.

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ROXYZMOM 12/11/2014 11:14AM

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Going Through The Motions...

Thursday, December 04, 2014

It has been the longest week of my life. Funeral arrangements are just about finished. I have gone through thousands of pictures for the posters at the service and for the video one of my son's friends is making.

Here is the link to his obituary:

http://m.legacy.com/obituaries/delawareo
nline/obituary.aspx?n=&pid=173316460&r
eferrer=0&preview=True

How do I feel? Everyday is different. Yesterday I woke up feeling like the left side of my body was torn away. I do have a huge "sense" that he is at peace. I keep trying to focus on that.

Going through the pictures was comforting for the most part. I had forgotten how my son used to look, before anorexia. I now have the healthier images in my mind. I am leaning on not having a viewing and not viewing him myself Friday. Hubby is still deciding.

The day before was the first time I was by myself - hubby went back to work. He wants to be distracted. Most of my work can be done at home. I went once when no one was there. I am very easily distracted right now. I now know how it feels to have ADD! Yesterday I had to run a couple errands. As I walked aimlessly around KMart, I felt so "raw" and vulnerable. One day we went with my parents to a restaurant for lunch - it felt so bright and loud. I am just not ready to go out yet. I feel safe at home.

I am not eating much. I do not have an appetite. When I do eat, it is mainly soup. I have made three different batches (sharing with company). I have had pasta too. Guess I am going towards comfort foods.

As most of you know, I thought this day would come almost every day of the entire year of 2013. I even bought my dress for the funeral back then. It is a tea length black dress. I will wear it to his funeral and never again. Shopping is the hardest right now, I am glad I don't have to buy one right now.

One of the smartest things I did last year was too forge a relationship with an eating disorder therapist just in case this happened. My son went to her once.
We have already seen her twice since this happened. My other son is going tomorrow. It helps so much to talk with someone who understands the disease.

My other son will be home Friday for the weekend. I can't wait to hug him. I think I will feel a lot better once he arrives.

Thank you for all of your support over the past week and a half. Your support has truly been amazing. I have been bouncing on the site everyday - especially in the wee morning hours since I am not sleeping much. It has been a nice distraction and it is nice to read all of your blogs and knowing that my life will eventually go on. It will always be different, but I know he is finally at peace, and my life will go on.

  
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GABY1948 12/21/2014 10:54AM

    emoticon I couldn't bring myself to read the rest of the blogs at first....I want you to know that I remain praying for you and will through this whole season....and one day your heart will not feel so raw. The video was beautiful!

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WARRIORGIRL121 12/19/2014 12:10AM

    Hugs to you, sweet lady. emoticon emoticon My heart goes out to you. Karen

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JAXMOMMY 12/9/2014 11:36AM

    I simply cannot express my sympathy in words. Time does heal, but it will never completely take away the pain of such a loss. Knowing that he is reunited with his friend and no longer fighting such a terrible disease can give you some peace yourself. Remember that men and women grieve differently and I am hoping you and your husband understand. There is nothing like sitting in that room at the funeral home making arrangements for a son or in my case, a brother. I'm here for you. Karen, WarriorGirl, gave me the link to a wonderful grief service that provides a short, Christian prayer daily for that first year of loss. It has helped me a lot. Let me know if you want the link. They are just like 1 line prayers, but they have helped me a lot. My heart goes out to you, your husband and your son. As well as all of his friends and other relatives! Peace be with you from now on! Peace & Love.

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FORZACHANDMATT 12/9/2014 10:24AM

    My heart is breaking for you - hope you are surrounded by family and friends who can remember your beautiful son

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LOSINGLISA 12/9/2014 5:53AM

    Praying for you and your family, and so very sorry for your loss.
I've been grieving for three months, and I'll just pass this along: it is not linear. Be gentle with yourself because, if your experience is anything like mine, although we always miss them, the raw emotion will ebb and flow and come up at the most unexpected times. I've found it's best for me if I just let it come out.
God bless you.

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BAMAJAM2 12/8/2014 1:56PM

  How very difficult it must be for you to see others around you--- like the K-mart shoppers--- going about mundane activity, when your world has crashed in heartache. You see people going about normal routines, and you think that life will never be routine again for you.... but you have sincere friends who truly care about you, and extend sympathy and compassion. At such a time of profound loss, know that others are profoundly sorry. My condolences to all your family. May God give you comfort and His grace.

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WONDERGALE 12/8/2014 10:28AM

    Yes, life goes on. And some days will be better than others. You may be fine one minute and crying the next. But keep in mind that your son is at rest and God does not make mistakes. You will make it through. emoticon emoticon

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R2COUNTRY 12/7/2014 9:09PM

    I am lifting you up. Thoughts and prayers remain with you.
God is with you in the pain and will walk you through each step.
Hoping you peace,joy, and blessings... emoticon

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SLENDERIZINGSUE 12/7/2014 8:24AM

   
I cannot imagine your loss. I am so sorry for your pain. To know that your son is at peace is such a help at times like these, I bet. Of course you will always mourn his loss.

Just keep putting one foot in front of the other, and reaching out for support as often as need be. Stay close to your husband. Men tend to internalize so much more than women do, I think.

God bless you and your family. You will certainly be in my prayers today.

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MAGGIE805 12/6/2014 1:17PM

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JDOWM62 12/5/2014 9:03AM

    I know all about that "raw" and vulnerable feeling and being easily distracted. I went through the same thing when my sister committed suicide due to mental illness. I, too, knew she was at peace finally and clung to that thought to help.

All I can say is you will get through this and will feel better eventually, although it will never completely leave you. I worry that you are not eating, even though I did the same. I am glad you are staying connected to friends and checking the site frequently. We do care about you and want the best for you. Take care, my friend, and I hope your appetite comes back soon.

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SHAMROCKY2K 12/4/2014 11:22PM

    We're here for you. Good to hear your youngest can have the weekend with you and hubby.

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CHAOTICMOM4 12/4/2014 11:21AM

    Praying for you, as much as you know he is no longer suffering the comfort there will never make you stop missing him.
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KRISZTA11 12/4/2014 11:06AM

    I fully understand how distracted you feel, and that you prefer to stay at home.
5 years ago when everything around me was falling apart I felt similar.
The obituary is very nice.
I'll be thinking about you on Saturday.
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PRESBESS 12/4/2014 10:31AM

    I don't know what to say except that through it all, God loves you.
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LIVE2RUN4LIFE 12/4/2014 9:02AM

    Thinking of you. I'm so sorry that you must go through this.
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    I can't even imagine. emoticon

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CHEMCHIC2006 12/4/2014 8:21AM

    My heart hurts for you. Take care of yourself and hold on tight to anything you can. He is and will always be with you.. and your Sparkfriends are with you too.

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RIDLEYRIDER 12/4/2014 8:10AM

  Your Spark friends are here for you. emoticon

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MISHAMOMMY 12/4/2014 8:02AM

    Praying for you. emoticon

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ALOHAEV1 12/4/2014 7:59AM

    Hugs and Prayers for Peace of Heart. Thank you for stopping by, we are all here.

I just read about your son, beautifully written.

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WATERMELLEN 12/4/2014 7:49AM

    There are absolutely no words possible to express my profound sympathy with your loss. Grief makes us so raw and so vulnerable. Take the best possible care of yourself. May your beloved son rest in peace.



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1CRAZYDOG 12/4/2014 7:35AM

    May God grant you peace. There just are no words, except that we're here for you. Anytime.

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My World Turned Upside Down In The Blink Of An Eye...

Monday, November 24, 2014

My son passed away yesterday from anorexia. His heart stopped suddenly. He weighed 110 pounds. I have experienced such a wave of emotion. I go from shocked, to crying, to "ok", then back to shocked. Last night my husband and I moved from couch to couch and got maybe, 1 hour of sleep.

We have awesome friends. They immediately came over and sat with us. Today, they brought over tons of food. I have no appetite. I never ate lunch or dinner yesterday. I thought I would get sick if I did. Today I ate a tiny bit of dinner so they wouldn't worry. I am drinking lots of water.

I was also so fortunate to have my dad visiting in San Diego. He had breakfast with my son Saturday. My dad said my son was happy, talking about his job which he loved, Flyer game tickets he bought and the massage he was getting in the afternoon. My dad said my son looked ok. My son even posted their outing on facebook.

My dad has been such a big help. It meant that my hubby and I didn't have to fly out to San Diego to take care of getting my son home. My dad and brother are packing up my son's apartment now so we don't have to go out at all.

Today, my husband and I took a long walk outside. It was 70 degrees. We ran into several neighbors who offered condolences. They are all waiting to help. We went to the funeral home. I couldn't believe I was there. We spent three hours picking stuff out. We both felt awful around hour 2.

My son lived in San Diego, and we live in Maryland. We have been cutting through red tape all day trying to get him released before Thanksgiving (the offices are closed Thursday and Friday so he would be stuck there until Monday/Tuesday). I think my husband got it taken care of tonight.

My other son is in the Army. We had to tell him his brother passed over the phone. :( My husband had to call the Red Cross to line up leave for him.

How do I feel now?
My son battled this wicked disease for two years. He suffered nonstop and now he is at peace. I know he is with his best friend again. This knowledge is helping me push through. I already miss him immensely.

Tomorrow hubby and I are going to see the eating disorder therapist we saw last year to try and sort out our feelings to help us get through this.

And hopefully I will get some sleep tonight.




  
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GABY1948 12/21/2014 11:07AM

    Again, there are no words except I am SO sorry!

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BOILHAM 12/20/2014 8:55PM

    I was so sorry to read this. I only found out because you mentioned the grieving process on my blog today. I knew of Joey's eating disorder and the pain it has been giving you. We did talk about it When I read "greiving process" my heart sank, and I hoped it was not the news it turned out to be. So sorry for your loss and for me not being available on SP so much lately, so that I was so late to hear. I know you've been in so much pain, my heart goes out to you
Praying for some relief for you. Vic

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CHEBBA 12/19/2014 5:49PM

    I feel guilty that my own life has taken me away from reading my Feeds as often as I should. I am so incredibly sad to read your heartfelt blog, your world must have become utterly paralysed. There is nothing I can say that hasn't been said already, but I'm hoping that you are now beginning to come out of what must have been a very dark tunnel.

It is clear that your son was much loved and, in spite of his own food issue, not only knew that but was happy. None of us knows how long we have on this earth, but those of us who live with love and happiness are blessed indeed. He was blessed to have you - and you, he.

My thoughts are with you all.

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LOSER05 12/19/2014 10:12AM

    I am soo sorry for your loss, and you and your family will be in my prayers emoticon

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WONDERWISH1 12/18/2014 11:38AM

    I just read through your blog post now. I am completely at shock. I want you to know that I am here for you, as you have been for me. Your encouraging words have always meant so much to me. I can't imagine the pain you are in. :(

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FUSIONFITNESS3 12/12/2014 3:49AM

    Having been without my own computer since May I have had limited time on Spark. Was just checking up on your page to catch up and am now left with tears after watching this incredibly moving tribute to your son. I am so sorry to read about your loss. You have struggled the last years with him as he struggled with anorexia. You must be just devastated now that he has been taken by this disease. There are no words to express my sorrow for you. Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Praying that the God of comfort and peace will strengthen you day by day and moment by moment and give you peace. You, your husband, and your son are in my prayers.
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JAXMOMMY 12/9/2014 11:30AM

    Oh, my friend!! I am so, so sorry to read this and even sorrier that I just discovered this blog! Yes, your precious son is at peace, but I know it does not bring you peace. When I read this I had to go throw up. I feel so connected to you via SP and your pain is my pain. I just feel empty for you. I don't know what I can do from afar, but I am here as are so many Spark friends. I am sorry for your loss and I grieve with you and your husband and other son. It is so hard to lose a sibling. I noticed in your net blog you ask again "How do I feel?" Just feel. Feel what you feel and don't fear expressing it. We are here for you my friend!

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LOSINGLISA 12/9/2014 5:49AM

    I am so very sorry for the loss of your son. I will be praying for you and your family.

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MSPENCER7 12/7/2014 10:28PM

    My thoughts and prayers are with you, your husband and son.

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KENDRACARROLL 12/3/2014 2:43PM

    My heart goes out to you and your family.
I'm so sorry for your loss.

"Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal."

May you find peace.
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JANET552 12/3/2014 9:17AM

    I am so sorry for your loss. emoticon

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TWEETYKC00 12/3/2014 7:25AM

    I am so sorry for the loos to you and your family. I know that there is really not anything that can be said here that can take care of what happened, but there are always friends for you here and some of which have lost loved ones and have dealt with a loved one with diseases like your son had. It is good that you have family and a counselor to talk with now.

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SPEEDYDOG 12/3/2014 6:34AM

    I know there are no words that can write to comfort you. I know you did all that you could do could do. You are such an amazingly kind and caring person.

Bruce

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KARENE10 12/2/2014 8:52AM

    I am so sorry for your loss. emoticon

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NMGRANNY 11/30/2014 6:52PM

    I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a child must be the most difficult loss of all. My prayers are with you. emoticon

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IHCSURVIVOR80 11/30/2014 8:54AM

    There are o words to express it all. Just know that you are close to my heart and loving warmth is being sent your way.
In the Crow tradition, when someone wonderful passes away, they must paint a sunset that brings beauty to the world they are leaving behind before they completely transition from this life. I have a feeling there was a really amazing sunset as your son left.

Go placidly amidst the noise and haste, my friend. Be gentle with yourself.
With love,
Maddie

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SUNSHINEYOURWAY 11/29/2014 6:43PM

    I am so sorry to hear of your loss of your son. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time.

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ENDUROVET 11/28/2014 7:00PM

    Deepest sympathy - I'm late reading SparkFriends' blogs.
As others have said, there are no words, but I offer up prayers for you, your son, & your family...
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SWEDE_SU 11/28/2014 5:57AM

    i just saw your blog now - i am so sorry for your loss, there are no words... emoticon emoticon

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MAGGIE805 11/27/2014 10:26PM

    I am so sorry for your loss and my condolences. My prayers are with you and your family emoticon

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SPAMUNDY 11/27/2014 12:30PM

    I am so sorry for your loss. Sending prayers your way. emoticon

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MAMMER3 11/26/2014 6:04PM

    You are an amazing person and great friend to all of us on spark people! We are here for you and personally am so so sorry for your loss. In Judaism we say "May the Almighty comfort you amongst the mourners of Zion and Jerusalem" It has three meanings,please know that when you mourn your loss the whole nation and world mourn with you, Have faith that for now they are not with you but one day you will be reunited and know when it is time you will walk with them again,and finally their soul and inner holliness is still with you and who he was and what he represented will never be taken away from you and his mark will never leave.
I hope this gives you some peace!


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TUTUNAN 11/26/2014 5:40PM

    I'm so very sorry for the loss of your son. May you and your family have the strength to get through this very sad time. Hugs.

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WARRIORGIRL121 11/26/2014 1:14PM

    Oh honey, I am so sorry to hear this! Sending hugs and prayers your way... emoticon emoticon emoticon Karen

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MBTEPP 11/25/2014 3:06PM

    I know it must have been difficult to tell us what happened. It took strength and courage to share your tragedy. I pray you can someday find peace from your tremendous loss. Your son was happy in life this past year, for which I am grateful you know this.

My deepest condolences to you, your husband and his brother. I pray the healing will begin soon. Be kind to yourself.

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ROSEWAND 11/25/2014 1:16PM

    I am deeply sorry for your loss of your dear son.
As someone who recently lost someone very close
to me, I know that words cannot express your pain.

We, here on Spark, do reach out to support you
however we can. Please let us know how we
can help. i found much comfort from grief therapy
through Hospice. It was not necessary that your
loved one be in Hospice. It is a very supportive
no-charge service that Hospice offers that
helped me gain some perspectives on that
which is incomprehensible.

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RUNSWITHDEER 11/25/2014 12:15PM

    We will definitely be praying for you and your family and hope you find comfort.

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WONDERGALE 11/25/2014 11:02AM

    I am so sorry for the loss of your son. I lost my son 13 years ago. I will always miss him. But I learn to move on without him. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. emoticon

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BEACHCALSIX 11/25/2014 10:57AM

    Prayers to your son and condolencses. Take it easy and know that we are all here for you on spark. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BAKER1009 11/25/2014 10:33AM

    emoticon to hear of your loss. May God's strength help you and your family through this time. I will pray for you all.
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MOSTMOM1 11/25/2014 10:29AM

    I'm so very sorry for your loss. You and your family are absolutely in my thoughts.

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HOLLYM48 11/25/2014 9:49AM

    My prayers for peace and healing for all of you. I am so sorry for your loss.
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FORZACHANDMATT 11/25/2014 9:37AM

    ROXYSMOM - my heart is absolutely breaking for you - what a terrible tragedy and just after his best friend. My thoughts and prayers go out to you!!! You have been such a wonderful spark friend and I can't even imagine what you are going through. I live in VA so I'm not sure how close you are in MD but please reach out if you want to maybe get together when things settle.

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JENSTRESS 11/25/2014 9:29AM

    Nothing can rival the loss of a child. I'm so so so sorry for your loss. It is amazing how that disease ruins you. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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JDOWM62 11/25/2014 9:27AM

    I am so sorry!! You will be in my thoughts and prayers. Please take care of yourself. I know it is hard at a time like this, but focusing on your health might be the best thing you can do now.


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RHOOK20047 11/25/2014 9:23AM

    emoticon So sorry to hear of this tragedy to your family. May God's healing peace be with you and your husband during this horrible time. We are here praying for you and your family. God Bless. emoticon emoticon

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KIWIANN 11/25/2014 9:02AM

    I am so sorry for your loss - your poor family has gone through so much!! You are all in my prayers today. emoticon

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WATERMELLEN 11/25/2014 8:42AM

    So profoundly saddened, so very sorry for your loss.

May he rest in peace.

May you and your husband and son find some peace too.

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1CRAZYDOG 11/25/2014 7:55AM

    I am so saddened to hear this. My prayers for you and your family. Just no words.

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MAWMAW101 11/25/2014 7:13AM

    I am so very sorry. Having lost a son after two years of struggle, I do know the coming days will be hard. Just keep reaching out to your great family and friends.
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TERI-RIFIC 11/25/2014 7:13AM

    I can't even imagine your sorrow. There are no words to express my deepest sympathy. I am so sorry. emoticon

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HELEN_MURRAY123 11/25/2014 6:45AM

    I feel for your family, i am sending my thoughts to you. Hugs for you. So sorry for your loss emoticon emoticon

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DOGLADY13 11/25/2014 6:39AM

    There is nothing I can offer to help you. I am so very sad to witness your anguish.

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PMRUNNER 11/25/2014 6:24AM

    I am so sorry. Prayers for you and your family.

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OVERWORKEDJANET 11/25/2014 6:08AM

    I will be thinking of you. Get all the help you can.
Hugs, prayers and thoughts to you and your family for you recovery.
Janet

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CHEMCHIC2006 11/25/2014 5:51AM

    There are no words I have to express how very sorry I am to hear this. What a horrible turn of events. I am truly shocked to read it. My deepest condolences to you and your family and my thoughts are with you during this most difficult time.

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SHAMROCKY2K 11/25/2014 12:53AM

    Glad to hear you didn't have to go out to California. Your neighbors and friends are right. Eat even though it's tough. emoticon

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Summary of my week...

Sunday, November 16, 2014

Here is a drill from my son's graduation.

This was an awesome week!

First, I found out Roxy had something in her paw. It wasn't cancer! Thank God! It has been a really hard 1 1/2 weeks with the cast. Bless her heart, she hasn't messed with it at all. So, no cone! I take her Wednesday to the vet to get #4 cast off...



I feel like she keeps getting more because they are enjoying decorating them!

Second, I finally got to see my son in Missouri. He looked great.



Yes, I have tears in my eyes, came like me like a tidal wave - it was such an emotional moment!

He had made a comment before he went that he was worried the army may change him for the worse. It didn't change him at all. He aced his way through Basic training - some of the 18 and 19 year olds annoyed him. He came out with a real appreciation for his job at UPS and said he learned a lot more supervisory skills. He ate REALLY good - gained 6 pounds and then had to work on losing it! And, he went right for the candy aisle at the commissary!

I was happy to hear he is staying in the reserves for the National Guard. I do not like what is going on overseas. I was so worried he would change to full time. I have already had my hubby serve, and, I really don't care - I am going to be selfish about this. I have seriously been through enough. And, I have a feeling that unfortunately we will need the National Guard more in the US. I also am a firm believer that any president we have should have served. Anyway, ok, I will get off the soap box now!

We went bowling...



He bought tons of candy at the store and ate it all - yayyy! That is my kid!

Here he is after graduation...



So, after graduation, he took a 13 hour bus trip to Georgia for training. After getting there, he found out he can use his cell phone and computer whenever he isn't in school. Yayyy! I can handle this! And he will be home for 16 days over the Christmas holidays!

Of course, this puts me in Mother's guilt mode at the same time. My other son is in San Diego and can't come home for Christmas. He can't get off work. So, as much as I really don't want to go back to California, I will plan a 10 day trip out there after my younger son heads back to Georgia. My hubby and I will take turns going to California to spread out the visits. My older son doesn't look any heavier in picture (he had anorexia last year). I pray that he meets a nice girl every day!!

It just stinks because my hubby and I really want to go to Jamaica for a couple's 50th birthday in March. We have a humongous water bottle full of change (10 years in the making). I am going to take it to the bank and see what we have. I hope it is enough - I really would like to go.

As for the 5% Challenge - I LOST 4 POUNDS! 3 to go! I am back ti my maintenance range - so I am happy! I will work on the remaining 3 lbs so the holidays don't take over!

  
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GABY1948 12/21/2014 11:12AM

    Now, this blog I LOVE.

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SHAMROCKY2K 11/20/2014 11:57PM

    Aww.. what a proud Mama. Prayers that things stay calm for your older son. Baby steps so you can get your vacation.

I think you're going to need a hand truck for all that change. Hubby throws all his change in a tin and I probably end up with $300 a year from that.

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INFLATED 11/20/2014 1:44PM

    I am so glad for Roxy and that your son has graduated boot camp. I understand your concerns about active duty and being shipped overseas.

I am glad that you will be able to spend some time with your other son, that ought to mean a lot to him. I'm hoping that things will work out so that you can go to Jamaica too. Good job on the weight loss with all that has been going on.

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JEWELS571 11/19/2014 11:09AM

    I love this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


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MILPAM3 11/18/2014 4:06AM

  Patriots unite! I've been across the waves for school, for travel and for missions. I was always thankful to have been born in the U.S.
Glad you will get to see your son in California, even if not under the circumstances you wished for.

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SHARON10002 11/17/2014 10:18PM

    I felt the same way when we saw our son graduate from his 6 month schooling before his first tour overseas. I always have tears in my eyes too when we were are invited to a graduation for him, and just when I'm immersed in military in any way - Pledge of Alligence, watching homecomings on TV, lots of things . . .

Sending some prayers for your son, and thank him for his courage and commitment to helping our country.

I hope that your other son is doing okay. It must be so hard on you to watch that. I will keep him in my prayers too.

Any more room on that soapbox? Things in this country are just insane right now!!

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EDENZMOM 11/17/2014 8:54AM

    so happy for you!
i hope you enjoy these memories for a long time, and look forward to the xmas holidays with your family

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OVERWORKEDJANET 11/17/2014 6:16AM

    Looks like things are looking up all the way around.
If you can't leave yet, add a few more quarters to the jar.

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TERI-RIFIC 11/17/2014 5:46AM

    Your son looks so handsome in his uniform. It's great that he can come home for Christmas. Even if your other son can't - at least you can visit there. I hope everything works out well.

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KRISZTA11 11/17/2014 3:48AM

    What a week, so many things happened, and so many of them good!
I'm happy for you : )
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Congrats to your 5% challenge success!
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WONDERGALE 11/17/2014 12:53AM

    emoticon on the 5% challenge! Good news all around. Nice pictures! Thanks for sharing! emoticon

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R2COUNTRY 11/16/2014 10:29PM

    Thank you for sharing, and for having served. I do believe it is often harder on those serving at home than on the ones off in uniform.

Peace, Joy, and Blessings for all.

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FORZACHANDMATT 11/16/2014 10:17PM

    Great job in the 5% challenge and your son is so handsome - you must be a proud mama - and that is so nice you will go visit your other son

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DOGLADY13 11/16/2014 9:25PM

    A week of good news. (Well, I guess CA son could have been better, but it certainly wasn't worse!) What a difference in how you sound in this blog. You were so down last week. Here's to more good news!


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JAXMOMMY 11/16/2014 8:49PM

    Ah! Great news for you, your son and Roxy!! Congrats to your son. Sorry your other son can't make it home for the Christmas holidays. Hope there is enough money in the bottle for your trip! We save our change and once the bucket gets full we put it in savings for vacation only! Wishing you well!

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1HOTFUDGEMAMA 11/16/2014 8:46PM

  Thank you and to all the families whose loved ones have served in the armed forces! You sacrifice so much for others and are rarely appreciated for it! And of course an even bigger thank you to those who serve! God bless!

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1CRAZYDOG 11/16/2014 8:33PM

    Did your son graduate from Ft. Leonard Wood?? That's where my DS graduated in July 2012. OH boy, I had tars in my eyes too when we were finally able to see him and hug him!

Prayers for your son in whatever he does. And thanks to him, too.

Hope that your other son feels better. So hard to deal with anorexia.

Go ahead on that soapbox. I feel the same way!!!!

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WATERMELLEN 11/16/2014 8:12PM

    What a week you've had!

We love our dogs.

AND: we love our kids sooooo much.

And they make us proud.

And we never EVER stop worrying about them.

And sometimes . . . our couple time takes a back seat to the stuff we have to do. Which is so hard. Hope that you can work in the Jamaica jaunt too.

BTW, you are looking fabulous!!

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Exciting Week Coming Up...

Sunday, November 09, 2014

My husband and I are flying out to see our younger son graduate from Boot Camp this week. He called tonight and sounds relieved that he is done. A lot didn't finish. 10 quit after the first week. This stunned my Navy vet husband. No one was allowed to quit when he served. My son said another 35 dropped off along the way and others need to repeat.
I had no doubt my son would complete it. He exercises regularly and I knew mature enough to handle it (and know when to keep his mouth shut!)
He was moved to squad leader half way through. I am very proud of him.

We will spend "family day" together and the graduation and around town the next day. The following day he will be flown to technical school and hubby and I will fly home.

One if my teachers will take care if Roxy. Tomorrow I am hoping the vet says her wound has healed. It's been a trying weekend - I don't want it to be that hard for my teacher.

While traveling, I will track all my food and order salads for my lunch. I want to end the 5% challenge on a positive note!!

  
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1CRAZYDOG 11/16/2014 8:21AM

    Congratulations! Please thank your son for his service. My DS was Army. It really does change their lives forever . . . and yours! HUGS

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SHARON10002 11/15/2014 12:22AM

    Congratulations to you and your son! Please thank him for his service to his country. My husband is also retired Navy, and your blog brings back stories and memories of my son's boot camp training. He's in the Air Force. I always feel a little thrill, and get a lump in my throat when I hear about military victories. We wish your son much success as he prepares to embark on his military career!
Be a proud Mom, and I invite you to join our Blue Star Moms team.


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WATERMELLEN 11/11/2014 7:31AM

    Proud mum! Isn't it wonderful to celebrate our kids' successes???

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OVERWORKEDJANET 11/11/2014 6:13AM

    Wow, that time went fast.
Enjoy your visit and thanks for sharing him with the rest of us.
You should be proud!

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KRISZTA11 11/10/2014 3:02PM

    emoticon to your son, amazing accomplishment!
Enjoy your time together!
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EDENZMOM 11/10/2014 8:02AM

    Sounds like there will be a lot of video conferencing with Roxy this week :)
Glad that you and hubby get a few days away, and to spend some time with one of your sons. what a fantastic accomplishment, you are right to be so proud! Enjoy your time together!!

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TERI-RIFIC 11/10/2014 7:05AM

    emoticon Have a wonderful time at the graduation.

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IFDEEVARUNS2 11/10/2014 7:01AM

    Congrats to your son!
I had no idea quitting was an option.

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INFLATED 11/10/2014 2:06AM

    Your son might be able to get free food on Veteran's Day. Hubby and I will take advantage of that since we are both veterans.

He has done well in Boot Camp. There were many that didn't make it through basic training when I was in the Air Force. I went in at 120 lbs. and weighed 112 lbs. at the end of basic training. I didn't go to Tech School, but went to another base after basic training.

You are disciplined and he had a good teacher, Mom. Congratulations to him and on you for planning ahead to stay with the challenge!

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WONDERGALE 11/10/2014 2:00AM

    Congratulations! Have a great trip! emoticon

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NOMORESHMOO 11/10/2014 1:33AM

    Congratulations! Be a proud Mom, you did a good job!

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SHAMROCKY2K 11/10/2014 12:03AM

    How proud you must be! Enjoy the trip and time away.

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FORZACHANDMATT 11/9/2014 10:56PM

    Congrats to your son - enjoy your time with him

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DOGLADY13 11/9/2014 10:12PM

    You must be so proud of your son. Congratulations!

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BETRHO48 11/9/2014 9:34PM

    emoticon You have a right to be proud of your son. Our military is a lot different (now that it is all voluntary) than when your husband served. Looks like you have your time away well planned out. Good for you. Have a safe trip and enjoy the visit with your son.


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MAINEALI 11/9/2014 9:26PM

    Congratulations to you and your son! My husband too is retired Navy and I always feel a little thrill when I hear about military victories. I wish your son all the success in the world as he embarks on his military career!

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