Thursday, October 14, 2010
I'm sorry, but I don't! Don't get me wrong, I loved my mother. She was a remarkable woman who raised 5 children. I was the oldest & since I became a nurse, I was the one that looked after her in those last few years of her life. She had a multitude of health issues, including some of the biggies: Diabetes, hypertension, heart disease, osteoporosis, Alzheimer's, & breast cancer. She ended up on large amount of insulin daily & took 16+ pills a day. She would never follow a recommended diabetic diet, wouldn't exercise, & was grossly overweight. She would do things like toast & butter a whole loaf of bread & set it on the table in the morning & snack on it until it was all gone. She would stash cookies, cakes, & candy in hiding places all over the house. In stacks of towels, we would find packages of cookies or snack cakes. I'm not kidding!
Today, I was flooded with memories of my mother & her strange obsession with food. What started this today was:
A coworker brought in a box of Dunkin Donuts to share with all the nurses in our department. It was an innocent enough gesture...& I don't believe there was any malicious intent on her part to sabotage my weight loss efforts. Well, somehow that box of donuts ended up right next to MY desk! So, I politely asked "Who brought the donuts?" She smiled as her eyes glistened, & she says "Oh, I did!" Now, let me just say that I don't know this nurse very well, as she just started w/our department not long ago...she's nice enough, I mean...she's overweight, as am I, & so I knew I had to be polite & thank her for bringing them, but I informed her I would not be having any donuts. Now I wish that would have been the end of it, but oh no...I went into the whole spiel about my mom....& how I don't want to end up like her. I mean...the WHOLE story. I even threw in that my younger brother has already fallen in step w/my mom...that he's almost 400 lbs, is a diabetic & is on tons of insulin, has heart disease, hypertension, & is on disability because he has so many health issues. Well, this poor woman just looked at me & apologized for having brought them in! I immediately felt badly, I mean none of my past has anything really to do w/the stupid box of donuts. But, it DID trigger my memories...& my fears!
And no, I did NOT eat a donut today!
But I DID eat within my calorie range today....& I DID walk an hour w/my husband after work. And, I will NOT end up like my mother!
Thanks for listening my SP friends...you are truly appreciated!
Wednesday, October 06, 2010
Well, it's raining today. So, I have an excuse not to exercise...NOT!
Excuses I've heard most recently for NOT exercising:
1. I can't get outdoors to walk/run.
2. My (__fill in the blank__) hurts.
3. I don't feel like it today.
4. I've been so good, one day off won't hurt.
5. I'll start tomorrow. I promise!
6. I'm too tired!
7. I can't get to the gym.
8. I have too much to do!
9. I have no time!
Hey, I've been there too! #3 & #6 were my favorites, & I know #9 only too well! But NOT anymore!
Today I make some form of exercise a PRIORITY! I consider it a basic need for the day! It's like I must have air to breath! If I don't breath, I will die! I must exercise for my health! If I don't exercise, I will die! Of course I won't die if I don't exercise for a day...but I know myself. I know that one day off may lead to another day off...until I've gotten myself out of the routine of exercising! And by NOT exercising...I'm making a decision to cut my life short!
So, I can't let my guard down...not even for one day! Because I know myself...& I know how easy it is to let exercise fall by the wayside. I know how easy other things in my life can become more important. So, for today...I get out & walk!
Catch me if you can!
Monday, October 04, 2010
I started wearing a pedometer a few weeks ago, with a goal of completing 10,000 steps per day. My thinking was..."Hey, I can do this!" I can put one foot in front of another... & keep doing it until I reach my daily goal!
Now I'm very conscious of every step I take...& I find myself purposefully parking further away from an entrance so I can get in a few extra steps, & taking the stairs most often when I'm at work..."The hospital Stairmaster", I call it!
I never really gave much thought to "taking steps" before...never thought much about what it meant or anything about its' importance. It never mattered. If anything, I was always trying to AVOID taking any "unnecessary" steps!
Now, I realize how fortunate I am to have my physical health without limitations that would prevent or hinder my ability to walk. Now, I believe EVERY STEP HAS A PURPOSE...& I believe each step I take brings me closer to better health & wellness! So now, I look forward to taking that next step...& the next...& the next...& the next!
Each step I take helps me motivate!
Each step I take brings me closer to a healthier me!
Each step I take makes me stronger!
Each step I take helps me realize that I CAN do this!
Catch me if you can!
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