Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Well, today makes it day fourteen of my journey, & I'm feeling a bit anxious about weighing in tomorrow. I've been doing everything I've set out to do, up to this point...tracking what I eat & making better choices. I'm drinking 8 glasses of water a day. And today, I walked 1 full hour outdoors w/hubby! We went to the metropark...and enjoyed it immensely! I've been doing a lot of thinking this week, & I've realized that I'm always in "help" mode. I think it's because I'm a nurse...& that's what nurses do! And more so me....'cause I'm a psych nurse! Also, I'm the oldest of 5 children, and I've always been the caretaker. So, arriving here to SP, what do I do?...I immediately put my "caretaker" hat on & started giving advise & wanting to help...even though I'm a newbie myself! Instead of listening & learning from those that have had success in their weight loss efforts....I'm feeling the need to "help" & welcome new people to SP. I want everyone to feel welcome & supported! Well, I'm thinking now I need to take care of me. It's not that I don't care about others...cause I do! But, I need to be quiet, listen, & learn from others that have done what it is I'm trying to do,...be success & achieve my goals. Oh, I know a lot about weight loss & nutrition, and this isn't the first time I've been down this road. About 12 years ago, I lost 98 lbs in 14 months with weight watchers, and achieved my goal weight. I was invited to become a leader, & was given a weekly group. All was well until the hospital I worked day shift for abruptly closed & I was out of a job. I scrambled & ended up working the nightshift for a local hospital. My world turned upside down & I crumbled ...I never knew when to eat & my schedule become so erratic that I lost my routine of eating & exercise. I was unhappy & quickly went back to my old comfort foods & habits. I stopped exercising. And the weight came piling back on. I eventually gained ALL the weight back. There's been half attempts of regaining my momentum...but I never could recover. Well, the point to all this is that I'm here to take care of me. I want to be respectful & give support to others...but I need to be mindful of the fact that I'm here to LEARN & LISTEN from those that have achieved their goals. I know this journey is a process...and even though I've been down this road before, I need to be quiet & listen. In the quiet, I will be able to hear what others have to say....and I may even learn a thing or two! Imagine that!