Saturday, January 02, 2010
I gained weight, a whole 3lbs of the so called "holiday weight"....but I did it to myself and I gave into the temptation. I had a lot of negative influences but in the end it was all me.
BUT i have trained hard and found much motivation as well, no not a new years resolution, a new life's resolution. I watched a marathon of shows on triathalons which inspired me to create a new motivation picture. With healthy mantras to help stop my negative self talk. I am very strong, stronger than ever before and even though pounds have not flown off quickly I can say that about myself. When my sister was boasting that she is taller and weighs what I do, or at times less, I said today "yeah but do you have strength, can you do this?" and I did push ups....showy I know but it shut her up, because no she can't do push ups! I am stronger in other ways too. I don't give in quite as easily as before. I know in the beginning of this I mention I gave into temptation, well it was nothing like it once was. I would all out stop going to the gym because I felt so guilty that I gained weight and that I ate that fattening food and drank those unhealthy alcohol drinks....now I drink very little and don't give into the snacks as overloaded as before and the most important part is that I DO NOT STOP WORKING OUT, I will not give into the excuses that I did before.
This is for me and this time it is truly about me, not what others want. Which, sometimes others want you to fail. I didn't believe this of my friends until they started saying things like "forget the gym come have drinks with us or eat out here with us" I have to say it hurts when you are trying to make changes and others want you to stay in that same unhealthy place you are in. So I am going to the gym 5 days a week...it is not a bad thing, actually it is an awesome thing!
I know that success comes with struggles and that I will hit bumps in the road to weight loss and muscle definition. But with the motivation I now have and this network of support I know I can be a success story!