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Monday, September 27, 2010

So, last week I posted that I had a really big piece of cake for my grandson's birthday party. And I said that I was going back on track the next day.
I did more or less go back on track, but what surprised me was that I found myself thinking about sweets and things that are counter-healthy to my weight loss goals. A lot! Not having had sweets for a quite some time, at least since the Mexican Fiesta Party that I attended back in August, my mind was just preoccupied this week about having more cakes and muffins and cookies, get the idea. And I am sorry to say that I caved in to some of those cravings. I can't for the life of me, figure out why, after all this time, I gave in! Could it be because because I am just getting tired of this healthy eating regime? I hope not, because I like the results that I am getting from cutting out the "bad" stuff I used to consume in great quantities.
Could it be that my body "needs" to taste the sweets? I don't want that either!
There has to be a happy medium somewhere in the middle that I can eat the sweets, and still not go crazy for them.
Being a self-confessed food addict, I know my mind. I know what happens when I give in. I try really hard to stay focused, telling myself that the constant snacking of sweets will undo all that I am strivin for. And when I give in, well, it's just not a nice thing. I've even thought about allowing myself to have the "forbidden" foods once a week, but I fear that if I do that, it won't stop at once a week. Like this week. Cake on Sunday, then at work there were muffins, and coffee cake. Although the amounts were small, they still got consumed by me, and I saw the results when I tracked them in my food journal. Ya, I was honest about it and tracked the stuff. And I didn't like what I saw.
Hey, I just realized a way to keep me on track! I will print out those "bad" day reports, and hang them on my fridge, or bring them to work with me and keep them in my pocket. Then when I am tempted, I will look at it, and see what I am about to do and that will be my deterrant to eating off the plan.
And through all of this, I didn't gain any weight this week, either. Which really surprises me. Maybe my scale is broken. But I didn't lose any, either, and I am liking seeing small weight losses each week.
Ok, enough ranting. I'm going to print my reports and start back on following the plan more closely.
Everybody...have a fabulous week!

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ROSEACLARK 9/27/2010 5:42PM

    Thanks, Puff for giving me another outlook on my thinking. I was figuring that if I saw how many empty calories I consumed, it would give motivation to NOT doing it again. And you are right about me thinking about the cake, and subsequent snacks that I partook of. But I like your way of thinking better!!LOL If I post up the best days I've had, sticking to goal and being on track, then yes, that would tell me..."I can do this!".
So thank you, Puff, for the new outlook. Down comes the bad report, and up goes the good.
Thanks for taking the time to comment. I know you've been very busy trying to meet deadlines and such.
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PUFFPASTRY 9/27/2010 5:19PM

    Hmmm. This is ONLY my opinion, but it seems like if you put up "bad day" reports where you can see them, it's going to reinforce any subconscious ideas you might have that YOU are "bad". My therapist says "what we focus on, we amplify", which is a statement SIMILAR to the "Secret" party line that thinking about something makes it come true, and yet not quite. I can't stand "The Secret" -- I think it's a load of crap (because I've visualized a boyfriend for 12 years now, and, um, where is he?!? Not in my bed, that's for sure!!! emoticon As far as I can see he is still as imaginary as he ever was! Thanks a lot, SECRET!). However, I can get behind what my therapist says in the sense that the more we think about something, the more we unconsciously ADD to the picture we have in our heads. I mean, when you imagine that piece of cake you time goes by, doesn't it become more dense, more delicious, more tempting, more sinful, don't you become a worse and worse cheater for having eaten it? The more we think about something, the more we have the tendency to increase its dominance in our lives. So, if you post evidence that you've been "bad" might amplify your sense that you are "bad", until you're remembering the bad more than you're remembering all the ways in which you're GREAT and loveable and attractive and valuable and succeeding in life.

I say, post evidence of the very BEST days you've had, so you can try to duplicate them! Post a photo of the most amazing food you've eaten that was healthy and part of whatever your food plan is, so you can look at it and say MMM, I am so going to EAT THAT AGAIN!

That's just my .02. Others may disagree. Good luck no matter what! emoticon

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It's all over but the shouting!

Sunday, September 19, 2010

I am making this short and figure out the end of the story.

12 weeks of counting calories, measuring, good healthy cooking,etc.
12 weeks of exercise
12 weeks of drinking water

1 grandson's birthday celebration
1 really big piece of cake!!!

Ok, so I told you the end of the story.

Back on track tomorrow.

Everybody have a wonderful week!


Happy Autumn!

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Good morning Sparkers!
The air is getting crispy, the leaves are changing to beautiful colors, (at least in New England) and my weight/ improvement endeavors are going along wonderfully. My vacation is almost over, but unlike other vacations I have had, I stayed home and tackled many projects that needed to be done. I also stayed on track for my meals. Given the fact that I did stay home, I was in total control of what I ate or didn't eat, I didn't treat the vacation as such, just a very lloooonnng day off! LOL Cleaning out clutter and giving away lots of stuff, Clothes, toys, books, Video tapes and the such just made me feel so good. I hate just wasting stuff, and donating it just made me so happy to know that someone else will benifit by my de-cluttering efforts. A lot of my friends just say...throw it out. How can I, when there are so many people that could benifit? And that, my friends, can kind of lead into why I got to the weight I did before I started taking SparkPeople seriously. How can I waste food when there are people starving? makes sense, doesn't it? How is ME, overeating, going to help the starving people! Had to clean the plate, because someone else didn't have food. It took me a lot of years to figure out that one! I still clean my plate, but now there is ALOT less on it to begin with. And that also makes me feel good.
I never thought that just by shedding some exess weight that I could turn my emotions around the way I have.
That's not to say that I am not having issues in other areas of my life, like wild grandchildren and paying my bills, but my reactions are even different. I used to stand in front of the cabinets and just eat and eat because I was sad or worried or something, and so I shed a few pounds and all of that changes? I can't figure it out, but I like the new attitude, I guess you'd call it.
So Sparkers, have a wonderful week, stay positive, and see 'round the webs!

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NAKIOMA 9/19/2010 8:05AM

    It's amazing that we figure these things out and life becomes so much simpler and uncluttered - sometimes we still go astray but we realize it at the time and know how to correct it - I am so glad you have had this time and fully enjoyed your freedom....................

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Still tracking it!

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Good morning Spark Friends,
It's been another successful week! My weight is down, my energy is up, I'm on vacation and doing major fall cleaning. Hows that for oppposites?!
As I read other peoples blogs about how they have a hard time with their weight/exercising goals, I just want to let you know not to give up. It can be done. I know how hard it is because I have started and failed so many times I can't keep track. And yes, it is soooo discouraging to work hard all week, only to have gained a pound. When that would happen to me, it would just throw me off the track, and I would tell myself,"what's the use?", and dive into the ice cream and brownies. And then the pounds would really start packing on. I mean, c'mon, if I'm gonna gain weight while I'm on a diet, then what's the point of denying myself of my treats for the rest of my life? And then, one day when I weighed myself, (like I really wanted to KNOW what I weighed), I saw that I weighed as much as I did when I was about to give birth, and I had gained 60 lbs with that pregnancy! OK! Reality check here. That day was the day I decided, for real, no more of this. I'm 30 years older than when that pregnancy happened, and I knew that things were serious. My blood pressure was elevated, I had no energy, I was getting depressed and the list goes on. I got out my health/diet/exercise books and started a plan. Got back to SparkPeople, and started being dedicated to doing what I was supposed to do. Day by day, sometimes even hour by hour, I told myself that I could do this. I also had to admit that I was a food addict. No rhyme or reason as to why I ate the way I did, I would start eating and just keep on going. I wasn't happy about it, but did it anyway.
I'm not saying this to blow my horn, I'm saying this because I am totally aware how hard it is to shed these unhealthy pounds. I know it's not easy. And there have been days that I did go over my guidelines, but instead of trashing all the work I had done, I just restarted on the next meal to eat correctly. One meal is not going to derail me anymore. I make myself chart everything, right down to the the 1/4 serving of whatever it is I'm having. My kitchen scale and I are best friends. I bring it with me and weigh everything I can. Yeah, I think I am becoming obbsessive. But until I learn how to "eyeball" the correct serving sizes, then thats what I will do. For me, eating out is not something that I do frequently right now. And when I do, it's healthier choices. And then I come home and "guesstimate" what my portion size was. And I write it all down. And sometimes I STILL come in within my guidelines, and then I am happy for the choices I made.
So don't be discouraged...We will see the light at the end of the tunnel!


Stayed the same, but not discouraged

Sunday, September 05, 2010

Hey! It's me again. I had a fabulous week, stayed on track and did everything I was supposed to do. So why did my weight stay the same? Perhaps I need to step up the exercise? Maybe eat less food? May be I just shouldn't be so concerned about it? I'm not really concerned because this happens to me like every couple of weeks. Nothing changes in my routine, but I will "plateau" for a week, then then the next week, I'm down the weight. I am feeling good in the skin I am in right now. People are noticing that I am thinning. That's a good thing! I'm happy, and my favorite season is coming up. I love the Autumn season. Cool days and crispy nights. Perfect as far as I am concerned for more exercising and bike riding. I am also noticing that the more positive my attitude is, the better I feel as well. I used to scoff at people who would tell me attitude is everything. Not anymore, because it's true. If you try to be positive, and look at the "bright" side of life, things just have a way of working out.
So stay happy, my SparkFriends, and we will be seeing each other around the webs!


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JS1971 9/5/2010 7:48AM

  Love your outlook on it. I also love fall.

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