Sunday, January 20, 2013
Remember I fell off my mountain bike about 2 weeks ago?
On my own, in the Aussie bush and I went right over the handle bars. I had plenty of time to register that 'this is going to hurt" before I hit the ground. And guess what? It did hurt.
Fortunately nothing was broken - except some skin. And a few big & beautiful bruises.
I was able to get back on my bike and ride home, and I went on another ride a few days later, but I wasn't feeling it. Too quick on the brakes, which actually makes for a more wobbly, unstable ride.
On the weekend I went to ride some of the race course. On my own again. I wasn't feeling terrific - not sure why.
It started with a 10km solid climb on a gravel ride. I nearly ran over a brown snake (the most poisonous in Australia) then I kept getting bitten on the back side by march flies. It seemed really hard! Every obstacle was a challenge, every stick was a snake.
I started the decent, and it was going ok, until I realised I had lost my cycle computer. It must have dropped out of the holder, somewhere in the last 2km (since I looked at it as I made the top). Terrific, I thought. I knew I should have stayed in bed!
For those who don't know, the computer pretty small - about the size of a medium coin. I had to try to look for it, even though there was lots of debris on the track - small rocks, leaves, sticks etc. What were my chances?
Slowly I climbed back up the decent - stopping at any little obstacle that might have caused a little bump which might have knocked it off. All the way to the top - nothing.
Of course, when I started to descend again I was going much faster - and I reasoned if I did not find it going slow, I was not going to find it on the descent. I gave up.
I came to a tight corner and slammed on the brakes - and instantly thought 'It could have fallen off here" - I looked down (still at speed), and there it was!!!
You should have seen the change in my attitude. I was having the best day. My confidence was high, I loved it. Every uphill was a chance to really work my legs. Every obstacle a fun opportunity. Stopped looking for snakes, and the march flies could not keep up!!
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
I might have even got up to an hour. Without thinking about food once. I have got to tell you that I feel free.
Intuitive eating is really starting to agree with me.
Saturday, January 12, 2013
I was thinking this morning about how reading Beck's book about thinking like a thin person had a negative effect on me. The book had some real pearls of wisdom, some of which I still try to remember in my daily like - but overall, looking back I think I did not cope with it as a lifestyle choice for me. It was after this that I felt the most out of control.
Now I am trying to practice Intuitive Eating, and I was reflecting this morning on why I feel so much happier and relaxed, and a realisation came to me.
Beck tried to teach me how to think, whilst Intuitive Eating just teaches me to think.
How I think is personal to me - it takes into account all my history, personal experience, personality, upbringing etc. Sure, I can adapt how I think, but I am not sure I can turn the process on its head.
What is important is that I think.
Tuesday, January 08, 2013
Today I joined the Mindfulness Eating Challenge. This seems to me to be very strongly aligned with Intuitive Eating.
Today I feel like I did really well trying to be more aware when I am eating or deciding what to eat. Something I want to continue to improve.
Sitting to eat, with food on a plate where appropriate.
Assessing my feelings before I & during eating.
- am I hungry (or tired, bored, thirsty, unhappy)?
- what do I feel like eating?
- am I being influenced by others' eating?
Thinking as I eat about the flavours, textures, temperature of the food, my surroundings etc.
It sounds simple - but I find it a challenge to remember to think about what is important to me during the day - and get to the end of the day before I think properly.
Definitely a work in progress.
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