Monday, June 16, 2014
Lost my blog that I did earlier so will recap. Depression is coming back on me full steam ahead, I am very discouraged and I need prayer. Thank you all so much.
Faith makes all thing possible
Love makes all things happen
Hope makes all things work
God is Good all the time. All the time GOD is good.
Saturday, June 07, 2014
Just wanted to gripe about myself....... :( .
First, went back to foot doctor who x-rayed the stress fractures in my L foot and they are NOT healing like they are supposed to so am wearing the "boot" again. It is very difficult to walk in and I tend to stumble a lot because of two different shoes on and being uneven.
Second, got results from bone density test and there is no change from last time which I am thankful for, but still have osteopenia which is the precursor to osteoperosis. That is why I've had three fractures in the last two years so am hoping that the doctor will put me on something to help with my bones. I'm only 63 but am breaking and walking like I'm 83!!
Third, now I'm having a very bad gout flareup in my L foot and it is so painful. If you have ever had gout, you can understand why I'm complaining. The gout is in my L big toe, outside joint.......hot and red.....instead of my R foot which is a change. I wonder if the stress fracture has anything to do with it. I've got it wrapped in a heating pad that I hope helps with the pain.
Fourth, I've gained 11, yes ELEVEN pounds, since my last blog. Up from 264 to 275 today when I weighed. If I'd had the luxury of eating the stuff I'd really like, maybe I would not feel so bad.....but it's been English muffins w/real butter and Greek yogert. Plus I'm just not active right now because of my foot problems.
Guess I better get serious and go back to reading my Paleo book again. I've started weighing in EVERYDAY again because if I don't see the gains as they come, then they don't exist, which is "stinkin thinkin".
I'm also going to the nutrition page and will start writing down everything I eat and maybe that will help; although, it is not something that I enjoy doing. When Spark People changes things, it makes it hard for me to get the "hang of it" again; but then maybe it will be good for me to finally learn it.
Hope you all have a wonderful weekend and I hope that Blog #48 has some good news when I write it.
Monday, May 26, 2014
When I wrote my last blog on May 4, 2014, I pretty discouraged since I had gotten off track and was gaining weight again. Well, I'm here to say, I think I've finally "got my act together" because I'm back to losing again. When I last wrote, I weighed in at 272 pounds and today I weighed in at 265 pounds, a loss of SEVEN pounds in three weeks. Is it the greatest loss ever? NO, but the important thing is that I'm going down and not going up and for that I'm very happy and thankful.
First, I want to thank EACH and EVERYONE of you who not only read my blog, but took the time to comment. I read ALL of them and they were all a big help to me. So I send each of you a HUGE THANK YOU.
My daughter wants to go on the Paleo Diet and has bought a book all about it which I have been reading. It is a lot like the Atkins and South Beach diet -- low carbohydrate. In that regard, I have joined one of the low carb diet teams to help me along the way. I lost my first big burst of weight loss when I went on the Atkins diet back in 2011 but got lazy which is why I never made it to Onederland back then. Maybe this will be my year to do so. We'll see.
Again, thank you all for your help, your comments, your concern and your love.
Love & Hugs back to you,
Monday, May 05, 2014
It's already the month of May and I have not been able to "get my act together" and get back to eating healthier and losing the weight I have put back on, yet again. I am back in the 270's again and am praying that it will go no higher than that, although I'm not very optimistic at this point in time.
My sweet tooth is way out of control which started during the winter months and has continued right up through Easter when I overindulged in all the candy I could get hold of, even going to the store for the markdowns, that's how desperate I've been. Even as I write this, I am fighting off the urge to head out to the kitchen and make up a big batch of peanut butter fudge that I absolutely love.
About an hour ago, I made two trips to the kitchen for two bowls of cinnamon crunch cereal which I love with a passion. I already had two bowls earlier this morning. Normally, I'm too "cheap" to pay full price for those sugary cereals, but this particular brand was on BOGOF so of course, I got not two but four boxes. Two are GONE, one is on the fridge unopened and the other has disappeared. Hopefully, one of the kids has hidden it so they have a shot at getting a bowl of it.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
I'm Type 2 diabetic, and thankfully, have only had problems with my blood sugar when I'm really sick which usually means in the hospital. I need to get this binging under contol. My Spark start page says I haven't been on Spark People since April 16th and I used to get on EVERY DAY to post my weight and check in with my groups. And to all my team mates and team leaders, I am truly sorry that I have not been on line or weighed in or participated in any of the challenges. Heck, I have NOT even looked at my Spark mail.
I NEED HELP GETTING MOTIVATED AGAIN and I'm hoping that some of you may be able to offer me some encouragement to get things together again so I don't keep gaining weight. It is really affecting my health as the heavier I am, the more pain I am in with the sciatica nerve and now my feet are really hurting me and making it very difficult to walk.
While it's after midnight and now Monday morning, I am going to attempt to read through my Spark mail and see what's there and if I've been kicked off any groups for my lack of participation. I hope not because I do hold each and every team I am a member of...near and dear to my heart....yes I do, because youall know what it is like to do well and then have a terrible backslide. It seems that the new summer challenges should be starting up with some of my teams and maybe I might not be too late to join in one of them.
If any of you are on a team that I am not a member of and they are open to a new summemr challenge, please share this information with me so I can get myself back on track again. I know I can do it and I know I have the determination. Something just went crazy on me this spring and I dropped out of site like a rock in water.
To all my Spark Friends, I love you and am so thankful to God that he has put this website and all you friends in my life.....and I hope to do better starting right now. I believe in the power of prayer because the Lord has answered so many for me and concerning me, that I would like to respectively ask that you pray for me in this regard.
Your Spark friend,
Friday, January 31, 2014
It's the last day of the first month of the New Year and what a rough start it has been for me. I was excited to see the New Year and had my plan of action all laid out before me, which I still intend to stick to, even though circumstances threw me a loop. One of my favorite mottos is "never give up" and that is what I hope to convey to all who read this blog. No matter what, refocus and keep on going, even if it means starting all over again. You'll have everything to gain by it and can look back a year from now and be ever so grateful that you didn't throw in the towel when the going got rough.
FYI, many of you know, I've got lupus and sjogrens, both auto-immune diseases, that I take a good deal of medicine for. Unfortunately, my immune system is not up to snuff and I easily catch things, hard as I try not to. In my little corner of South Carolina, not far from my house, a new shopping center has been created and I stayed out of the stores over Christmas to avoid the germs. But, after the Christmas rush, I begged my daughter to take me with my wheelchair and let me browse around one of the new stores that opened.
This was on a Thursday and by the weekend, (January 5), I was down sick with chills, fever, sweats, vomiting and diarrhea. I couldn't eat I was so sick but I started to feel a little better by the next Thursday and was glad because my birthday was coming up for the weekend. I turned 63 years old on Saturday, January 18th, and spent all that Friday and Saturday in bed I was once again so sick with this stomach virus. But on Saturday, I hurt so bad on my R side that I couldn't even get a shallow breath of air it was so painful.
Then Sunday morning, January 19th, around 4:00 AM, I awoke from a fitful sleep and could hardly get myself into the bathroom and back to bed. I woke my daughter and she called EMS and I went to the ER and I've been in two hospitals since the 19th, and just came home this past Monday, January 27th. One of the medications I take on a regular basis is coumadin to thin my blood because I have had a previous stroke and blood clots in both lungs. Unbeknown to me, even though I did not miss this medication, it was wreaking havoc with my body because of my lack of food. My coagulation and coumadin levels were way off and a CT scan showed a mass in my R side under my lung around my liver and fluid in my abdomen.
Both the mass and fluid turned out to be blood because I had literally "sprung a leak" and had a large spontaneous bleed. This did not become evident until Tuesday morning, January 21st, when my hemoglobin dropped overnight from 11.5 to 6.6.......wow, that was a huge drop and I was immediately blood typed and transfused with two bags of O+ blood. Sunday, the day I was admitted, I was given plasma and Vitamin K to get my coagulation and blood clotting correctly.
My hemoglobin stayed up at 7.4 and then 9.9 so I went home on Thursday, but that night the pain began again so my kids rushed me to the internist who sent me to the surgeon who immediately readmitted me to the big hospital in Greenville where I stayed until this past Monday. I'm on the mend but am feeling kind of puny still and wasted from losing so much blood. The pain is still there but is getting better everyday and will stay that way until all the blood/fluid is reabsorbed back into my body.
And so I have a stern admonition to be really careful about taking the coumadin, especially if I get sick. I had a GI bleed once in the past but nothing like this so would love to ask that you pray for me. I know I never would have made it through this one if it had not been for the many people who prayed for me, my children, my family, my church family and all my wonderful friends. God is good and I'm a testament to that. He has pulled me through so many things and I'm so grateful to Him. I love the Lord Jesus because he is there for me everyday and I thank him for His steadfastness.
So friends, this is my rough start to the New Year, but I tell you to never give up. I am home mending now and each day I feel better than the day before. Would you believe that on January 1st I weighed 293.4 pounds and today I weighed 272.8 pounds? That is a loss of 20.6 pounds for the month of January. It was a terrible way to lose weight, that much I can tell you, but as I get feeling better I'm getting back on my "plan" and maybe this will be the year I make it to Onederland by next January.
Hugs & Love to all and remember, don't ever give up. Stuff happens along the way, that's life, and a lesson that took me a long time to learn. Hang in there and thank you to all who continue to pray for me.
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