Monday, July 26, 2010
Today is the first day I take my life back! I've been extremely frustrated with myself, can't seem to have the motivation to eat right and lose weight. I've started to make a conscious effort to hit 10,000 steps a day but I know that is not enough (my weight reflects that). Every choice I make contributes to my weight but as you all know it is not easy.
I got fed up of making excuses, I used to be an athlete in high school what happened to me? Went to the Dr's recently and we all know how that goes, the concerned look in their face, the pep talks but fortunately I had Dr's with great bed side manner & they chose their words appropriately. I can come up with hundreds of excuses, arthritis in both knees, too tired, have too much to do and the list goes on.
I was fed up and dragged myself to the bike shop yesterday. (I decided to pick up cycyling because of the low impact on my knees and good cardio workout.) I went to a bike shop my mom took me when I was a child, they were great! Peter (bike shop employee or owner) was extremely helpful, professional & patient I felt comfortable right away. I had done my homework on bikes and picked up a Trek 7000. I was nervous, how am I going to look like on a bike? OMG I forgot how to get on a bike! But he was very patient (thank GOD) made sure my seat was adjusted to right height. Selected my helmet (Peter, explained how the helmet should fit) even threw in a free bottle holder.
My heart began to pound and sweat began to come done the moment I was asked if I was going to take the bike immediately. The excuses came pouring out like a self defense mechanism - I have not been on a bike in what 20 years, I have jeans on, I'm not wearing sneakers, OMG I'm pretty far from my apartment on, and on. Luckily for me mother nature was on my side, the sky went dark and it began to pour !! I was relieved - - I couldn't even get the bike out of the bike shop without bumping into walls and there was my savior the cab I had to call cause you know it was pouring.
When I arrived at home, I found a nice spot for my bike and realized that I cannot let it sit there and collect dust. I have a goal, keep focused and slowly the excuses kept creeping in. I decided at that moment that I will start eliminating my excuses one by one and search deep down inside for the athlete that's hidden inside of me. I purchased some workout gear to prepare for my first ride in the morning, OMG I have to wake up an extra 1/2 hour early (see the excuses come in all shapes & forms). So I set my alarm clock 1/2 hour early & prepared myself for the ride.
Woke up on time, fed my pets, and walked my dog and realized I was getting anxious, nervous & excited about my ride. Set out to ride with heart monitor, helmet, keys - - Oh no where do I put my keys & phone I have no pockets, what if somehting happens? Maybe I should not ride until I pick up a pouch . . . had to quiet down the excuses and allow my inner self to speak up louder cause you know what I don't need to take my phone with me and oh for now I will put my keys in a zip loc bag in put it in my shirt! Excuses were quieted down & I was going to do this today, unless of course it rains lol.
Jumped on my bike, it was shaky at first but I quickly realized you really don't forget how to ride a bike, you just have to build up your confidence and that comes with time. It was the most liberating experience I've had recently, the feeling of being free & in control was amazing!! I rode for only 17 minutes the heart monitor would go off every so often, but I did it ! ! I silenced the excuses and just enjoyed the ride & I'm hooked!!
My ultimate goal is to regain control of my life, ride for my health and plan on riding in races. I'm not sure if it's too ambitious of me, but there is a ride next month with a minimum of 15 miles - I will try without hurting myself to participate in it. I don't expect to win races for now I just want to be able to finish it.
I'm once again excited about the new possibilities and adventures that await me !!! I will keep working on removing my excuses one by one & stay motivated!