Monday, August 20, 2012
Been very depressed lately but didn't realize it. I know that sounds odd but its true. I've been finding reasons to stay at mom and dad's overnight or practically throw myself at TR to spend the night there. I realized today that it was bc I didn't want to go home to my house. I'd let it get so disgusting that not only did I not want anyone else to see it, but I didn't want to look at it myself. I guess it started when our gas was shut off. And I've just let it get continually worse. Kinda came to a head today when my good friend Laura and her kids came by and I wouldn't let them in the door. As we sat on the porch talking I just got more irritated with myself. As soon as they left I set to work. Only took an hour for the girls and I to tidy up the living room, kitchen, and bathroom. The playroom and bedrooms will take a little longer but the wheels have been set in motion.
What does this have to do with weight loss? Well it is hard enough to focus on eating healthy and excercising when everything in life is perfect. But who's life is ever perfect? I have school, work, my kids, my depression, a mother with ms, and life to deal with on a daily basis before I even attempt to deal with my weight. So keeping as much as I have control over in order helps make life easier. One of my new goals is going to be 10 min/d just tidying up the house. Goes a long way towards making me happy with helps me be a better student/worker/mother/daughter/ and most of all ME.