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Saturday, January 28, 2012

I have been gone from here for sooooo long! I feel totally lost. I'm overwhelmed and really don't know where or how to begin. I've been spending all my computer time on facebook and although it can be a great social avenue, it is not helping me be productive in other areas of my life. I really don't want to feel and look the way I do anymore. I always have so much going on in my life and I'm trying to do so many projects at one time. I start things, get interrupted and never really get much accomplished! It is so frustrating!!! arrrrrgggh!
I am trying to do a grocery list and really don't want to buy things, I'm not going to use. I want to plan meals and base my shopping on that plan. I don't want to use the food that SP have suggested for menus, and I get my income on a monthly basis, so I really have my work cut out for me. When I was able to lose some weight in the past, I did the following:
Tried to drink at least 4 16 oz. containers of water a day.
Plan all my meals
Measure all my food
Write in a log everything I eat including grams/calories
Keep total amount consumed within calorie, protein, carbs and fat within range
Exercise ~ Walk at least 30 minutes at least 5 days a week
*I always had a problem with the exercising part and I really need to stregnth train and build muscle.
Well there it is! I know what I have to do. Now I just have to keep coming here as much as possible and try. In some small way, I have to try and get started! So please feel free to give me a firm kick in the butt!

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YORKIE_GIRL 7/31/2012 11:22PM

    I love that you outlined all your success moves!!!! They help me too! Thanks!

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LESSOFPMCD 1/28/2012 11:26PM

    Welcome back - I too left for quite awhile and have returned.

Realized you need the support of those who understand exactly what you are going through. Are willing to listen to you good and bad. Able to give you the support you need to get through the bad patches and gvng you a pat on the back when you are doing well.

We can do this - we will do this!

Comment edited on: 1/28/2012 11:27:04 PM

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MARTY19 1/28/2012 7:47PM

    Welcome back! It might take exra planning but you can do it.


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Gained weight back!

Friday, January 08, 2010

I am soooo ticked! I started on SP in June, 2008. I lost a litlle more than 20 pounds. Now 1 1/2 years later, I've gained almost all the weight back. I am so angry with myself. My husband and I are both retired and eat out for lunch and supper. I'm sure this has contributed to my weight gain. I am so unmotivated to do the meals at home. I've been in this rut for so long, I feel so rusty and stuck. I've been coming back here to help motivate me to get back into good habits, but so far, I haven't made or started a plan. I could have been at my goal weight by now if I had stuck to healthy habits. Now, I have to start all over, again! I"ll keep coming here and hope to kick start my motivation soon!!!!! Wish me luck! (\O/)

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SKREBEL 1/13/2010 8:21PM

    I understand how tough it is to get it off and keep it off but you have come back to the right place for support-. Start small-begin with just five or ten minutes a day of exercise and before you know it you will have formed a pattern or habit and look forward to that "me" time daily Many hugs and best of luck in your journey emoticon

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    You are taking the right steps to get back. It is so hard to the healthy thing... take small steps to change things in your life. I fell backwards when I tried to do everything all at once. Take care!

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HICALGAL 1/9/2010 9:23PM

    put that all behind you. now you have the rest of the year to make positive doable changes. make your plan and execute it. you've done this before so you know what it takes. now get in there and get that body and life that you want and deserve!! emoticon emoticon

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BUSYMOM22 1/9/2010 7:28PM

    You're back. You've only failed if you stop trying.

You can do it!


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YESI1211 1/9/2010 7:03PM

    Believe me I know how you feel. Your story sounds just like mine. I too started about 2 years ago did wonderfully in 08. Awful in 2009 plus I gained all I lost and then some. I am very disappointed in myself too. I could have been done with this. At least the losing part and now in the maintaining part. But instead I have to start over and worst than before. I've had my emotional roller coaster and so forth..............................
................ I lead a team and have lost my groove. I want to just forfeit it all and throw in the towel. It would be easy. I'm used to this and used to being unhappy like this. BUT!!! I want to be healthy. I want to be an example for other women who struggle just like me and even worst to PUSH THROUGH the negativity, fears, doubts, laziness, procastination, emotional eating, depression.......... etc....

SO.... Lets just face it and deal with it. IT IS WHAT IT IS!!! We cannot undo it and certainly beating ourselves about it will not change a thing. We need to step into action. Failing is giving up this fight. Are you giving up?
Let's accept our setback and start over not looking back. YESTERDAY IS GONE!!! TOMORROW IS NOT HERE!!! It's all about TODAY!

lt aint over until the SKINNY lady sings and WE HAVE NOT SANG YET? HAVE WE?
Lets do this thing!!! The healthy way!!!

Have you picked up your copy of "THE SPARK" yet? If not please do so.

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CHRYS13 1/9/2010 7:38AM

    You've taken the initiative to "come back". Stay active, post on the boards, and all of us will be there for you, cheering you on, helping you over the "hurdles"!

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LARREIKI 1/8/2010 10:28PM

    You're back. That's the first step. Now work at figuring out how to make the changes you need to get back on track. You've done it once and you can do it again. Can you get your husband involved in SP too? It would help. If not just start on your own and he will follow.


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CRAFTYDEBI 1/8/2010 5:12PM

    If you are able to afford eating out, may I suggest a food program like Seattle Sutton, or something like that. You could order the meals to the calories or restrictions you'd prefer, then just need a couple big salads per week and some fruit and milk. Just a thought...but frankly, glad you're facing those pounds down...they'll be off sooner than later!

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ESJANNEY 1/8/2010 4:34PM

    Don't be angry and give up!
You want to get back at the pounds.. hit them hard with a longer walk!

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PAHOLMES39 1/8/2010 4:26PM

    It is difficult to stay on track. You and your husband eat out a lot. That could be the culprit. I believe you can still stay on track by making the right choices when you eat out.

Just make the mind set that you are going to get your weight off again and it will happen.

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Depression and Food

Friday, November 20, 2009

I'm not new here, but might as well be, because it's been such a long time since I've participated in SP. I haven't done anything to promote losing weight, if anything I've done the extreme opposite. I don't know what my problem is! I do suffer from clinical major depression which I have had since I was a little kid. I am now almost 52 and still battle this hideous disease. I am not depressed due to some life event (even though I've had my share). I'm just DEPRESSED! It affects every area of my life, but especially eating. I find eating so comforting. It is all I look forward to. It is terrible when you live to eat!!! I have been on many medications and most recently started prozac about a month ago, which aside from other side affects also promotes weight gain. I am packing on the pounds and don't want to be this way! I wish I could find solace from something other than food!!!
I'm sorry for the rambling. I guess I just needed to vent. Depression sucks and really affects my food addiction. Everything I have to do is a push and struggle. Does anyone else feel as I do??? How can I beat this demon? Thanks for reading.

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CHRYS13 11/21/2009 8:56AM

    As others have commented before me, keep logging on to SparkPeople. Keep blogging, keep posting. I use the planner and add journal entries. Do you enjoy the out-of-doors? I've worked at changing my comfort from food to nature.
You're in my thoughts and prayers.

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RIGREENTHUMB1 11/20/2009 7:24PM

    Thanks for the understanding and encouraging words, my friends.

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    Your blog hit home with me too! You are not alone in the battle emoticon

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MARTY19 11/20/2009 4:27PM

    As someone who has battled this disease, I can understand where you are. I took meds and then found a wonderful counselor where helped me understand what was going on in my past which in turn helped my climb out of my black hole. It wasn't easy and took a long time but climb out I did.


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CYCLEMEL 11/20/2009 1:53PM

    My thoughts are with you - you can do this. I have logged on SP and spent several minutes just exploring the site when I am sad or losing faith in myself. I love to read the success stories! I pray that you will find your way. You will be supported here so give it your all.

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RUSSIANMERMAID 11/20/2009 12:25PM

    Yeah I gained almost 15 lbs while I was on anti-depressants. I decided to stop taking the medications but it's not like the depression went away lol Ironic isn't it? You take anti-depressants and you gain weight which in turn makes you MORE depressed. It's really messed up. emoticon

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ASHESS85 11/20/2009 12:07PM

    Don't let the disease/disorder rule you! Just because you are depressed does not mean you have permission to give up! Try to log on SP as much as possible to get encouragment from other team members that are facing the same issues. I think there are even SP teams that are dedicated to depression! I hope this helps and you continue on with your weight loss!

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OBREEZES 11/20/2009 11:53AM

    Hi. I haven't posted anything on SP for a few years, but your post got to me. I feel so much as you do when it comes to eating. It is so comforting, especially when having a depressive episode! I am also 52 and have suffered with this stuff since I was about 25. It truly does suck. I don't eat because I'm hungry, I eat just to eat because it comforts me. The other day my therapist asked me a great question..."what comforts you?" That is my homework this week; to determine what, besides food, comforts me. There's no easy answer because food has always been my comfort, since I was little. So I have some work cut out for me this week. I thought it was a great question though, and wanted to share it with you. What comforts you?


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Overwhelmed with stress and depression!

Friday, June 05, 2009

Why is it so easy to squash feelings with food? Why can't I be one of those people who can't eat when they're stressed out? My Dad went into the hospital on March 21st after Fracturing his hip. He will be 85 in July and lives alone. He was in the hospital for a month, due to several complications; delirium, breathing problems, infections, renal failure, etc. There was awhile there that was kind of touch and go. At one point they didn't think he would make it through the night. Another time they were ready to put him on a feeding tube. Well, he finally got well enough to leave the hospital and on April 15th went into a nursing home. It has been totally crazy for me ever since that time. That, of course, is in addition to all the other BS that life dishes out to us on a daily basis. Needless to say, I've been gorging myself on food! I can't totally blame all of it on my Dad, as in reality I've been off track for awhile. To make matters worse, I have an auto immune disease called oral lichen planus. (You'd think this would discourage me from eating, as it is very painful and affects my mouth and lips.) The doctor has put me on prednisone for this condition which also encourages weight gain! Yippee! :-(
Meanwhile, my Dad is going for Kidney Dialysis 3 times a week. He hasn't done well with PT, cause his feet are swollen and painful and so are his hands which keep him from supporting himself with the walker. So right now he is confined to a wheelchair. He's also incontinent and a bit forgetful and confused. The nursing home is not the most pleasant place in the world and is actually rather depressing. It doesn't look like he'll be going home. On a better note there are some workers that are very good to him and he is content. His insurance with medicare is about to run out and his home is protected (Thank, God). But. his life savings are not protected and we are working with lawyers to see if we can save some of the money from the nursing home. I've been running around like a chicken with my head cut off, trying to get all the paperwork and information together for the lawyers. The stuff involved is endless and overwhelming. It is very upsetting and I'm totally drained. On a day to day basis, I also deal with fibromyalgia and depression, as well a very disabled husband. So, needless to say, I find food to be a huge comfort. In addition, it has always filled a void in my life. I started on SP in June of '08. When I started I was 211 lbs. I went down to approx. 182 lbs. and now I'm back up to approx. 190 lbs. I have to try and relax myself enough to make sure I visit with you guys at least once a day. This should help me get back on track. Right now, as I write, I am stuffed to the gills and very uncomfortable. It is such insanity. My sane mind knows that by pushing my feelings down with food, I am only making matters worse and creating more problems for myself. I can only take one day at a time and let the past be gone. I know this is long. I guess I need to vent. To those who have taking the time to read this blog, thanks.


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CHRISTAL9 7/14/2009 7:02PM

    aww honey, its gonna be ok. I also suffer from depression along with anxiety, and stress! but i find my greatest comfort in exercising lol. I know that sounds weird, but when I exercise, that gives me a chance to have "Me" time for 30 minutes out of the day lol. That's all you really need! Just take a couple 30min to an hour to relax, breathe and get your thoughts together, go get your nails down, watch your fav. show, exercise, etc... Im not sayin its gonna cure all your problems but it will help lol! Good luck!

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SJATOO 6/8/2009 9:06AM

    It's time to replace the food with something else. Buy a ton of suger free candy and gum. Everytime you get the urge to eat, grab a candy or a gum and suck or chew till it passes.
Everytime your feeling overwhelmed or stressed by it all, take ten minutes to sit quietly, eyes closed, mind blank or focused on something good. Or try ten minutes of exercise...something you can do wherever you are (stretching, walking, etc.) Take your mind off of the negative and find some positives to think about. Find a picture of a really bad situation and keep that as your focus...it could always be worse and remind yourself of that.
Good luck.

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JIBBIE49 6/7/2009 12:08AM

    I know what it is like to regain. I had put back on 23#, but I've FINALLY gotten it off now. I said to Nathan "I want you to do everything you can to fight your cancer because I couldn't stand to lose you." He said "Then why don't you do the same and lose the weight and take care of yourself, because I don't want you to die from a heart attack?" WOW, what a slap in the face, but I turned it around. So, I'm going to get there.
Thanks for the Goodie, Hon.

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SONNY8 6/6/2009 12:12AM

    I can't imagine what you're going threw. It must be so hard for you, I could only say that I will keep you in my prayers. May God bless you and your family.

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MAILMAN49 6/5/2009 11:01PM

    I agree - just take it one day at a time. I will be praying for you also. Having a parent really start a downward slide (health wise) is not something any of us would wish on our worst enemy. My Mom has COPD and I know how it feels to have the health situation constantly changing. It can keep your head spinning. I will be praying for you and your family.

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CATH32351 6/5/2009 10:07PM

    WOW! My heart go out to you. I will be praying for you and your family. You have a lot going on and I don't know if I could handle it myself. Just having us to vent to, I hope, will help. Like you said "take it ONE DAY AT A TIME"

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Thanks for the Welcoming Committee!

Monday, May 25, 2009

I have to say Thank You for welcoming me back with open arms. It gave me just the spark I needed.

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MARTY19 5/26/2009 8:17AM

    Great picture! It IS nce that you are back.


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LINDA! 5/25/2009 10:11PM

    Hope you had a great holiday! emoticon

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DEBBIEANNE1124 5/25/2009 10:00PM

    Patience and widom and control. One day at a time.

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 5/25/2009 9:45PM

    Happy Memorial Day...I hope it was a happy and safe one for you and your family.

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JIBBIE49 5/25/2009 9:41PM

    Hey, we will do this. Just have to stay with it.

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