Saturday, January 28, 2012
I have been gone from here for sooooo long! I feel totally lost. I'm overwhelmed and really don't know where or how to begin. I've been spending all my computer time on facebook and although it can be a great social avenue, it is not helping me be productive in other areas of my life. I really don't want to feel and look the way I do anymore. I always have so much going on in my life and I'm trying to do so many projects at one time. I start things, get interrupted and never really get much accomplished! It is so frustrating!!! arrrrrgggh!
I am trying to do a grocery list and really don't want to buy things, I'm not going to use. I want to plan meals and base my shopping on that plan. I don't want to use the food that SP have suggested for menus, and I get my income on a monthly basis, so I really have my work cut out for me. When I was able to lose some weight in the past, I did the following:
Tried to drink at least 4 16 oz. containers of water a day.
Plan all my meals
Measure all my food
Write in a log everything I eat including grams/calories
Keep total amount consumed within calorie, protein, carbs and fat within range
Exercise ~ Walk at least 30 minutes at least 5 days a week
*I always had a problem with the exercising part and I really need to stregnth train and build muscle.
Well there it is! I know what I have to do. Now I just have to keep coming here as much as possible and try. In some small way, I have to try and get started! So please feel free to give me a firm kick in the butt!
Friday, January 08, 2010
I am soooo ticked! I started on SP in June, 2008. I lost a litlle more than 20 pounds. Now 1 1/2 years later, I've gained almost all the weight back. I am so angry with myself. My husband and I are both retired and eat out for lunch and supper. I'm sure this has contributed to my weight gain. I am so unmotivated to do the meals at home. I've been in this rut for so long, I feel so rusty and stuck. I've been coming back here to help motivate me to get back into good habits, but so far, I haven't made or started a plan. I could have been at my goal weight by now if I had stuck to healthy habits. Now, I have to start all over, again! I"ll keep coming here and hope to kick start my motivation soon!!!!! Wish me luck! (\O/)
Friday, June 05, 2009
Why is it so easy to squash feelings with food? Why can't I be one of those people who can't eat when they're stressed out? My Dad went into the hospital on March 21st after Fracturing his hip. He will be 85 in July and lives alone. He was in the hospital for a month, due to several complications; delirium, breathing problems, infections, renal failure, etc. There was awhile there that was kind of touch and go. At one point they didn't think he would make it through the night. Another time they were ready to put him on a feeding tube. Well, he finally got well enough to leave the hospital and on April 15th went into a nursing home. It has been totally crazy for me ever since that time. That, of course, is in addition to all the other BS that life dishes out to us on a daily basis. Needless to say, I've been gorging myself on food! I can't totally blame all of it on my Dad, as in reality I've been off track for awhile. To make matters worse, I have an auto immune disease called oral lichen planus. (You'd think this would discourage me from eating, as it is very painful and affects my mouth and lips.) The doctor has put me on prednisone for this condition which also encourages weight gain! Yippee! :-(
Meanwhile, my Dad is going for Kidney Dialysis 3 times a week. He hasn't done well with PT, cause his feet are swollen and painful and so are his hands which keep him from supporting himself with the walker. So right now he is confined to a wheelchair. He's also incontinent and a bit forgetful and confused. The nursing home is not the most pleasant place in the world and is actually rather depressing. It doesn't look like he'll be going home. On a better note there are some workers that are very good to him and he is content. His insurance with medicare is about to run out and his home is protected (Thank, God). But. his life savings are not protected and we are working with lawyers to see if we can save some of the money from the nursing home. I've been running around like a chicken with my head cut off, trying to get all the paperwork and information together for the lawyers. The stuff involved is endless and overwhelming. It is very upsetting and I'm totally drained. On a day to day basis, I also deal with fibromyalgia and depression, as well a very disabled husband. So, needless to say, I find food to be a huge comfort. In addition, it has always filled a void in my life. I started on SP in June of '08. When I started I was 211 lbs. I went down to approx. 182 lbs. and now I'm back up to approx. 190 lbs. I have to try and relax myself enough to make sure I visit with you guys at least once a day. This should help me get back on track. Right now, as I write, I am stuffed to the gills and very uncomfortable. It is such insanity. My sane mind knows that by pushing my feelings down with food, I am only making matters worse and creating more problems for myself. I can only take one day at a time and let the past be gone. I know this is long. I guess I need to vent. To those who have taking the time to read this blog, thanks.
Monday, May 25, 2009
I have to say Thank You for welcoming me back with open arms. It gave me just the spark I needed.
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