Thursday, February 02, 2012
Lately every time I start and stop my healthy living, I feel so embarrassed and feel like such a failure. This is the only thing in my life that has just beaten me down where I feel like I cannot win....but yet I am trying it again and hopefully, prayerfully, willfully, this time I will win. I sure hope so....
Thursday, October 06, 2011
It has been a while since I have entered a blog entry. Today I felt it was important to write something down. I have been with SparkPeople was a year now and to my surprise, I am still with it. I was too frustrated most of the time to work the program because I was so dang depressed and down and out and all of that because of my thyroid issues. I convinced myself that no matter what I did, I was not going to lose any weight so why bother and then on certain days I would get a spark and try but not for long again convincing myself it is no use. I have been on the thyroid site as of late and I have gained strength from this site as there are some, not all who have thyroid issues that are very sucessful. For those of you who do not know about Hypothyroid, it is when in my case, I have no metabolism. My doctor told me " your metabolism is in a coma" This stuck with me. (I wonder why), so as a result of this and other things, like my food addiction and emotional eating that I have made a "Choice" not to stick it out. I already know pretty much what is going to end up happening before I start trying. (I am a psychic) lol.
I want to do it and I will Try again...and again and Again. This is my cycle that I would like to break. I have been walking for about a month now and I feel so good. My daughter even commented on how I look better in my clothes, which I was not expecting. I said all of that to say this. We can't give up, even though I am Queen Give Up, we just can't give up. You all know the poem so I won't quote it, but bottom line, You you and you, don't give up and Queen Give up won't give up Either. I'll try. Something beats nothing and if you are hypothyroid like me, don't give up either. I think a cure is coming. too many of us suffer with this . So until that time comes as frustrating as it may be. Don't give up....
Monday, July 25, 2011
Why is staying motivated so hard? One day you are gung hoe and the next you don't have the strength to hardly get out of bed. I wonder about these things because somehow, I let them stand in my way. I wish to be healthy and fine and they say, but I get more frustrated than motivated. I wish I could keep it going and keep it moving and some day I can, but most days I can't or won't. I don't know. I want to be motivated. I want to have it all together, but for some reason I don't and I want to. I have a million excuses, don't you worry about that, but right now, I am not looking for excuses but looking for the truth. If I could unlock this mystery, I could be all to the world I think. Maybe I could. Maybe if I could just stay motivated.
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Yeah that's right...I got frustrated AGAIN and Quit AGAIN and Feel bad about myself AGAIn....
I really have no excuse, except that I got sick and tired of the battle and not seeing the scale move and it seems that I get bigger instead of better, so I haven't done Zumba in 2 months that I supposedly loved, I haven't drank water, I havent' done veggies and I haven't done anything except gain weight...SURPRISE.....
I have been walking now and then over the last 2 weeks, but only because I realized that I feel horrible and down if I don't do something.
I am back now with not much to say about it, except how disappointed I am in myself for not sticking it out....I do know the routine and will try to do better...Much better
Friday, April 01, 2011
What a crazee dance craze. I love it. I don't go to the club anymore, but I still love to dance and Zumba is the perfect solution. Its a group of people and we are all getting down with the get down and movin and groovin and it is all that.
This is my first week and I completed my 3rd class last night. My 20 year old daughter even went with me....and loved it. Now to get my 18 year old to go....
U don't understand, I have gove from a coach potato last week, who walks the cricle in her neighborhood to a Zumba addict. I cannot wait for the next class.
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